Electrocution

The month long trial period that Owner has set me, to determine if i am worthy of being dominated by Her more strictly than i currently am, may not start until tomorrow (1st February) but we have already begun to implement Her new regime in advance. An effort to help me be prepared for when the trial itself starts in earnest.

Accordingly, after work today i went up to Owner and, after obtaining permission to speak with Her, requested that She electrocute me. This is to become a weekly Friday night occurrence. Owner graciously obliged and so, after i put the food in the oven for dinner, i returned to Owners bedroom to be tied up and then electrocuted by Her. She used a combination of the electro-torture device attached around my clit and Her handheld electric tazapper. Can you tell from the pictures below which one was taken before She started to shock me and which was taken when She had finished with me?

i am pleased to report that Owner had a thoroughly enjoyable time. As for me? Well, mine was quite shocking :)

Permission to Speak?

So, it is still a few days away until the Trial period that Owner has set for me commences. This period being to see if i can demonstrate to Her that i am worthy of consideration of becoming more tightly controlled by Her. However, there is no time like the present. To get myself used to some of the new requirements and rules She has specified for me i am attempting to implement them all now.

Accordingly, i am spending more time checking that the shower tray in the bathroom is spotlessly clean and that the inside of the kitchen sink is wiped down and sparkly after i have done the washing up. i am also trying to implement Owner's new requirement that i do not disturb Her when She is listening to Her audio books and instead indicate to Her that i wish to speak and then wait until She indicates whether or not i am permitted to do so.

To that end Owner has made me a wonderful lanyard that i now wear around my neck all the time at home to be used to seek permission to speak to Owner. It has a super cute image of a manga style schoolgirl character raising her arm as if seeking permission to speak in class. Owner designed it Herself (with the help of AI). This image is what i must show to Owner whenever i wish to talk to Her and She is otherwise occupied. The challenge is that Owner uses small wireless ear buds which are completely concealed under Her hair when She is listening to Her audio books so i actually cannot tell if She is listening to Her book or not. i have concluded that it is best to assume that She might always be listening and simply to use the lanyard at all times and raise it to Her if i wish to speak with Her. Having my ability to communicate with Her restricted like this is a wonderful new form of control.  The lanyard is also super kawaii, i simply adore it.

permission to speak lanyard close-up

in my housework smock with my permission to speak lanyard

Another change that i have implemented 'early' is that now when i greet Owner when She returns from Her early morning walk, by kneeling and kissing Her feet, rather than do so wearing my dressing gown i now do so naked. Again, this is a new rule Owner has introduced for me.

Greeting Owner on Her return from Her walk

In position, naked and waiting to prostrate myself before Owner

Of course, what will really prove to Her whether i am capable of submitting even more deeply to Her and being controlled more rigidly by Her (as we both desire) will be my ability to keep Her home as spotlessly clean and organised as She desires. i also need to arrange for the last of the home improvements to be done, de-clutter the flat from top to bottom and throw out some of my clothes (which will be hard to do). This whilst keeping up with my daily and other chores, ensuring i cook healthy, pleasing meals, that i don't over order and check no expired foodstuffs are ever in the house. Oh, and  i need to ask to be electrocuted by Owner once a week. i don't really like being electrocuted but i also know i must learn to endure it. In return for this She might grant me the wonderful privilege of sitting on my face. What utter bliss!

i really do hope that i pass my February trial and that Owner grants me the honour and privilege of taking my daily submission to Her and Her control of me to the next level. It truly is what i desire above all else in life.

Meanwhile, Owner also set me some other tasks to do this week, part of the random series of tasks She assigns to me on a weekly basis which are decided through the drawing of cards. This time i was instructed to a) wear my butt plug for the duration of an online work meeting and then b) perform 50 Russian twists whilst 20 mini-pegs were clamped to my 'labia'. Here's how i got on:

It is now also well into my second week of being locked 24/7 into my new beehive mini chastity device. Things continue to go very well and Owner and i are both delighted with my new cage. This is me having my first weekly supervised shower, an opportunity to shave then clean my clit. The latter is done with a nail brush to ensure no accidental arousal during the cleaning process. i made sure that i scrubbed my bits thoroughly. Owner took the picture whilst overseeing the process from Her perch on the toilet seat.

supervised shower whilst i scrub my clit clean before returning to chastity

In other news Owner requested that i organise a pyjama party for the two of us. My plan for this is currently coming together. There will be snacks, party games, a movie, a nail salon,  drinks for Owner and perhaps for me if i am allowed and, most importantly, matching nightwear. i asked Owner if She could select a matching pyjama set we could each wear. This She did and the outfits were ordered and arrived just a few days later. They are great, each set fits and i can't wait to wear them with Her when we have the party.

That's all for now.

The Trial

This year marks Owner and my twentieth anniversary together, it is quite a milestone. With that also comes an opportunity to review and and further develop the relationship we have, Her control over me and my submission to Her. Ours is already a relationship in which i submit to Owner and She controls much of my life, but there are always opportunities to develop our Female-led relationship further, to extend Her control over me and deepen my submission to Her. This is what i truly desire.

This weekend Owner has been considering whether or not to grant me the honour of submitting myself to a deeper form of Her control. However, before moving forwards it is also of great importance to Her that i demonstrate that i am capable of properly doing and executing the level of submission and service that She expects from me now, let alone taking that a step further. She rightly expects me to prove to Her that i am, indeed, ready to be developed and trained further by doing the things She already expects of me to the standard She requires. In that regard She has found a number of aspects of my submission to Her wanting and my performance to be below Her expectations of me, Her submissive wife. Accordingly, She has given me a period of one month, from the 1st to the 28th of February in which to improve my performance, raise my game and prove to Her that i am, indeed, capable and worthy of being taken further under Her control.

Owner has pointed out that whilst i do routinely complete my chores i do not routinely complete them to the standard She expects. There have also been some other lapses and failures on my part and there are things i do that irritate and annoy Her and which i must learn to stop. Failure to do these things during the one-month trial will mean that i will not be permitted to have the honour of being developed further by Her at the end of the Trial. In short, only when i have, in Her own words to me;

'mastered the foundational tasks to Owner's satisfaction.'

Will She consider developing me further. To that end She has set out some very specific requirements for me to fulfill and demonstrate to Her satisfaction during the month of February in addition to the usual daily tasks and chores She expects of me. These are:

- check for and dispose of any expired food daily - i.e. She should never, ever find food items in the house that are past their use by date

- talking of food, to always provide Owner with daily healthy meals that meet with Her approval. i like to think i am fairly good at doing this already but there are occasions when i forget to consult Owner before starting cooking or where the meal turns out to be below Her expectations. Neither of these are acceptable.

- thoroughly clean the kitchen sink. Owner has pointed out that She has a magnifying glass with which She can check to see that the sink is completely spotless. She recently had cause to tell me off for not ensuring that the sink overflow and the drain was not spotlessly clean

- ensure that the bathroom is kept similarly spotlessly clean. i clean the bathroom daily but the shower tray sometimes has stray hairs and the tap sometimes has a build-up of calcium

- make sure that i only order food/groceries that are needed and that i do not over order. i am responsible for getting all groceries and there was a recent unfortunate incident in which i ordered salad leaves and tomatoes even though we had plenty. i need to check thoroughly what we have at home before i order.

In addition to the above, and tired of me disturbing and interrupting Her when She is listening to one of Her audio books, i must in future obtain Owners' permission to speak to Her when She is reading. Owner is often to be found listening to Her audio books, even when She is busy doing other things, and hates it when i suddenly start talking to Her causing Her to have to stop Her book. In future i must always indicate that i want to talk to Her and then wait for Her response. To this end She is making me a sign which i must hold up to Her when She is reading to indicate that i wish to speak to Her. She may choose to simply ignore my request or allow me to speak but i must not disturb Her and speak to Her without authorisation.

Owner is also in the habit of going for daily early morning walks around our local park before She starts work (when She is working from home). It is already expected of me that i greet Her return by waiting at the top of the stairs as She comes in and then prostrating myself and kissing each of Her feet. It is a wonderful little routine that we both really enjoy, it reaffirms Her and my status. In future, Owner expects me to be fully naked when i do this.

Furthermore, Owner also expects me to use the month of February to organise the last of the home renovations that need doing (to the staircase) and to present Her with a plan for organising the small communal 'garden' area at the front of the building our flat is in.

She has also instructed me to de-clutter the flat and the loft and dispose of/recycle items that are no longer needed and to do the same with my clothing, removing items that are not necessary, not used or not in a good condition. i am a bit of a hoarder and always find getting rid of clothes to be quite difficult, but i know i must do.

As Her current frozen shoulder prevents Her from caning or beating me, Owner has instead instructed that i am instead to present myself to Her every Friday and request that i be electrocuted by Her. i hate beign electrocuted but know that i must learn to tolerate it. For Her part Owner loves it and really gets off on being able to inflict pain to me. One of the things She expects is that my current low pain tolerance when it comes to being electrocuted is improved in the same way that She eventually got me to tolerate being caned, whipped or beaten compared to when She first administered these to me. Owner really misses not being able to beat me, it is something She came to really enjoy doing. Hopefully Her shoulder will eventually be fully recovered but electrocuting me gives Her the opportunity to inflict the pain and discomfort to me that She enjoys doing without having to use Her damaged shoulder. 

One of the things that Owner has also stated She expects of me during this trial period which is a real and unexpected surprise is that She has said that on Saturdays i am to request that She sits on my face. i love it when She does this and it will be a wonderful treat and more than i am sure i deserve.

Throughout February Owner has said that i am to keep a record of each and any failure on my part to do any of what She has asked and also record any other misdeeds and misdemeanours on my part. Sundays will then see me told to read out any failures on my part in order that i might be suitably punished, including having the period of the Trial extended. 

So, unlike the character Josef K in the Franz Kafka book, The Trial i do know what is expected of me if i am to pass the trial that Owner has set me. i truly hope that i prove myself worthy and She considers me ready to be further dominated and controlled by Her come the end of February.

Fucked And A True Lies Tease

Yesterday saw me spit-roasted after work. My mouth was filled by one of Owners' 8 inch dildo's that i was instructed to fellate whilst She stretched and filled my pussy with Her giant 12 inch tentacle dildo. It was a wonderful experience! 

i do love being fucked by Owner and i was quite the eager little slut, loving the feeling of having my pussy opened and stretched. Owner fucked me by resting the base of the tentacle dildo against Her body, gripping my hips and then pushing Her giant 'cock' into me. Feeling that tentacle being pushed rhythmically into me as my head bobbed up and down as i gagged on the other dildo was really quite wonderful.

Owner is always careful, however, not to fuck me too long less i get overly excited and have an accident. Yesterday was no exception. Within a few minutes of Her starting to fuck me She stopped and instructed me to clean Her toys and tidy the dildos away, leaving me horny, frustrated but very happily still denied. It has now been 238 days since my last orgasm.

being fucked by Owner with Her tentacle dildo

With everything packed away Owner then revealed She had another wonderful surprise in store for me. Rather than dismiss me to do my chores She instead invited me to join Her for a drink on the sofa, telling me my chores could wait until Saturday. So it was that the two of us then spent the evening having a few drinks and watching TV together (the finale of the Traitors). It was a lovely end to the week.

Today, Saturday, has seen me busy doing housework as well as my exercises and my Spanish study. Owner also requested that i perform for Her. Specifically, She requested that i replicate the erotic dance performed by Jamie Lee Curtis in the movie True Lies. However, rather than dancing for Arnold Schwarzenegger, as Jamie does in the movie, i would be dancing for Owner.

This is the scene in the movie

And here is a little clip from my version

Owner said that She enjoyed my little routine. i will leave it with readers to reach their own conclusions.

New Beehive Mini Chastity Device

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Poppetwurst

Owner and i are just returned from a wonderful weekend in Frankfurt, Germany. Owner took me there as a present for my birthday. We had a lovely and fun time exploring the sights of the city, taking a boat trip up and down the river Main, visiting the beautiful botanical garden, eating sausages and drinking apple wine, Owner permitted me a tipple or two :).

The trip also provided an opportunity for a little photoshoot in the hotel we were staying in, including a pantyless wander by me down the stairs. What naughty fun! Anyway, pictures taken by Owner of me first followed by pictures of the city of Frankfurt itself.

 

But it wasn't just photoshoots. The city's sight were also seen. Here is a selection of some other photos of the city of Frankfurt

Thank you to Owner for a wonderful birthday trip :)

55 Today + Mid-Winter Park Bikini Challenge

Well, today is the day when i officially hit my mid-fifties. Yep, 55 ho hum. Still, age is just a number and all that  :)

Owner has really treated me for my birthday. First off she prepared breakfast, leaving me to lie in bed a little longer than usual. She bought me a a delicious red velvet birthday cake which we gorged on then finished it off later as our dinner. Owner got me some amazing presents, including a trip to Frankfurt, Germany which we are heading to this weekend. She also bought me some new headphones, a super cute card holder for my Oyster card and a new inverted chastity device.

i am super lucky to have received such wonderful gifts from Her and to have been treated to cake for breakfast and told to stay in bed until She had everything ready! On any other day it is me who gets up and makes the breakfast for Her and i so this was a real treat. This was the sight that greeted me as i walked into our lounge, a cake with candles waiting for me to blow them out

The birthday cake Owner got for me - we have a thing about cows, don't ask why

The new inverted chastity device that Owner bought was intended to replace my existing micro cage which is starting to look a little past its best. Unfortunately, however, we both quickly concluded that the new device wasn't going to work and not really what we had hoped.  Rather than leave it like that, however, Owner sprang into action over breakfast and ordered another, different device for me.

After eating breakfast i was allowed to roll the dice to see whether or not i would be returning to chastity or not? The answer was yes. i will be locked up 24/7 until the 16th February. However, with the 'inverted' device having proven to be to not be what we had hoped for i am back in my old little micro cage pending the arrival of the alternative replacement that Owner ordered this morning. For me it is wonderful to be locked up again, being caged remains my own preferred state. Owner, however, also likes my clitty to be free at times and has enjoyed the fact that i was unlocked for the past month.

Being the 16th of the month also meant that Owners' other set of dice needed to be rolled, the ones that determine where i should do an outdoor challenge and what i should wear. Today it came up with a location in our local park and a requirement that i wear my pink bikini. Bear in mind it is mid-January, classic bikini weather....not :)

Anyway, breakfast and dice rolls completed it was time for me to tidy breakfast away and get on with my chores before starting work (from home).

After going through and dealing with the work emails i had received overnight, and waiting until the school day had started (the park is close to a local school and at certain hours is full of teenage kids going to and from that school), i left the flat to complete my bikini challenge. i wore a scarf and winter coat over my bikini to guard against the winter chill.

When i arrived although the park was devoid of teens, they were all ensconced in their classrooms, it was still busy with dog walkers and parents pushing infants in buggies. Accordingly, i initially could not use the exact location the dice had specified as there was a group of people and their dogs huddled in deep conversation right where i was supposed to take the pictures of me in my bikini. Foiled, i walked around a bit, pausing to take some quick pictures at other locations whenever i spotted a gap in the human or canine 'traffic'. Eventually, however, i was able to also get some pictures taken at the exact spot i had been instructed to do so by Owners' dice.

Owner expressed Her approval at the resulting images when i showed Her. Personally, i think i could have done a bit better. i blame the damn hounds and their owners.

Finally able to 'pose' at the designated spot

Photos over it was back home and back to work. Owner and i then had some more of the cake for dinner and then i completed my chores. It has been a very enjoyable birthday.

Public Park Slut

On Monday Owner set me the task of walking a lap of our local park wearing my vicious nipple clamps and a butt plug in my pussy hole. i 'adapted' a top especially for the occasion and wore a pair of previously 'adapted' jeans. By 'adapted' i mean i cut out strategic holes in the fabric so that my tits poked through and my pussy was on show. It is still cold here in London so a coat was required, one that just about concealed my naked and plugged derriere, unless i bent over that is. 

The clamps are always initially very painful to wear. One side of each of the clover clamps contains a set of metal serrated teeth which really know how to tenderise the puffy flesh of my teats. However, once the initial pain has been processed they are actually ok to wear, very nice even. The feel of the fabric of my coat brushing against the clamped, swollen flesh of my tits was quite arousing. That lasted until it was time to remove the clamps when i got back home, which was about half an hour later. That is always quite a painful moment. However, once removed my nipples are always left delightfully sensitive for days afterwards.

The plug i wore is a big, heavy solid metal one with a pink crystal in its base. It feels lovely and heavy inside of me. These days, however, my big, hungry 'pussy' just gobbles plugs up and so you will just have to take my word for it that there is a jewelled, heavy metal plug hidden inside of me as it is not visible in the pictures!

Anyhow, this is how i got on. 

On my return home the plug was removed, sucked clean and put away and the clamps taken off and re-hung on Owners bedpost. Then i got changed and went down to the station to collect Her from work. i would love to one day be told to collect Her wearing my 'adapted' jeans so that She has full access to my cheeks to grope and caress as we walked home.