Letting My Hair Down

There are moments in life when things do not go entirely to plan. However, such instances can actually be more memorable and fun than those times when everything went smoothly. That was the case when. as part of Owner's belated birthday present to me, i took to stage in front of about 300+ people last night for  public dance performance as the anime schoolgirl character Marin Kitagawa from the series My Dress Up Darling.

Video still of me on stage before things got..er, interesting

To re-cap, why was i on stage in the first place?

Well, Owner likes to have me perform for Her. She also likes making me perform in-front of others. Whilst this always makes me very nervous, being an exhibitionist little slut i also like being able to show-off and of coursed, as Her submissive wife i obviously always try to do what i am told to the best of my abilities.

For my 56th birthday back in January Owner announced that She had arranged a special treat. Namely, that She had booked for me to perform at the London Anime Con - a three day anime and gaming convention hosted in the convention centre of the Hammersmith Novotel hotel in West London. Owner had also booked us to stay in the hotel where the convention was being held.

Fast forward a little over a month and yesterday (21st February) was the big day. i had chosen some music and rehearsed my little routine. My outfit and wig had arrived and i had even got some coloured contact lenses to wear. i was all set to take to the stage and show the world what a silly and slutty little wife Owner has.

Owner checked us into the hotel on the Friday night. On the Saturday, after breakfast, She set about preparing Her slut (me) for my big moment. First off, She whipped me. She whipped me on my buttocks, She whipped the backs of my thighs, She whipped my lower back and She whipped me between my legs.

Having whipped me Owner then had me lie face-up on the bed, straddled my prostrate body, attached electrodes to my tits and then electrocuted me. She cycled through every setting on the device whilst using Her body weight to stop me from thrashing about.

Next, having whipped and electrocuted me, an arousing Herself in the process, Owner placed Her musky knickers over my face so that i could inhale the fresh scent of Her sex whilst She busied Herself preparing Her cock.

Owner then ordered me off the bed and onto my knees on the floor. She then sat on the edge of the bed and instructed me to start fellating Her cock. At the same time She took Her favourite vibrator in Her hand and proceeded to face fuck Her cock sucking slut as She brought Herself off.

We had only had our breakfast about thirty minutes prior to this and Owners cock was big and thick so i was worried about gagging and then bringing my breakfast back up. Nevertheless, Owner rightly chided me on not fully deep-throating Her wonderful member as She pleasured Her clit with Her vibrator. All the while my mouth slurped, gagged and drooled on Her cock.

After climaxing Owner then rolled onto Her side, presenting me with Her anus and instructed me to lick it out whilst She brought Herself off again. There is nothing in life i love more than licking out Owners' backside - it was a wonderful late birthday buffet! Owner came hard again whilst i remained frustrated and denied.

post-coital cuddles with Owners 'cock' on display and my caged clit

Having thoroughly used Her slut it was time to go visit the convention.

Our plan was to first recce the place and to visit the market stalls before we returned to the hotel room for me to change into my outfit in readiness for my 5pm stage performance. The convention was heaving with people and was quite cramped in places - lots of people packed into small side rooms as well as in the main convention halls. There were plenty of things available for sale but we resisted the urge and returned to the room after we had lunch.

We then chilled for a short while before i started to get ready. The process of doing my make-up, putting on my false eyelashes and coloured contacts and my wig took a while and ended up stressing out both Owner (not good!) and myself. However, eventually i was ready to head down ready for my performance.

posing in the hotel room before setting off

The hall in which i was to perform on the main stage was pretty big

When we arrived it was still early so we had time to sit together before, as the room began to fill, i was ushered backstage.

waiting for showtime with Owner

Backstage i was joined by about 30 other acts. Most were in their teens. i am sure i was the only one in their mid-fifties and i was definitely the only 56 years old slut. My nerves began to build as we waited to be called back into the main hall. When eventually we were the hall was packed out. It was standing room only. There must have been at least 300+ people.

i was the 9th or 10th act. i inched forwards, getting closer and closer to the stage as the acts before me each took their turns in the spotlight until eventually it was my turn. i could see Owner standing  with Her camera recording in the second row from the very front, just in front of the three judges. i could hear my music. My legs propelled me forwards and before i knew it i was on the stage and into my rehearsed routine.

All started well. i was doing the little dance i had practiced, not brilliantly but i had not fallen over or anything dramatic. i began to relax as i pranced about. i wondered, but ultimately did not care, if people thought it odd that a 56 year old man should be pretending to be a teenage girl in short skirt and school shoes and blouse. Little would then have known that under the lace black panties i was wearing i was locked safely in chastity. They would have seen the fake outline of my pert teenage breasts, courtesy of my padded bra. But i was enjoying myself showing off, showing what a little slut i am, doing my wonderful Owner proud and making the most of my birthday present from Her.

Then disaster. i felt my wig slip. i tried to subtly re-position it but then it slipped again, and obviously. i pushed it back into position. However, each time i danced about it kept moving. It was my fault for not having properly secured it. i felt embarrassed and humiliated. Three hundred people were watching as i fought to keep my hair on. i could see the judges looking at me. What was i to do? The video below captures the start of my routine and also the beginning of where things went wrong.

My answer, go with it and try to style it out. In a flourish i pulled my wig and hairnet off. The crowd, who had been mostly silent. Suddenly clapped and cheered. 

picture Owner took of me on stage minus my wig

My music finally stopped and i hastened off the stage towards Owner who, despite my very public mishap seemed delighted with how i had got on. i, however, still felt embarrassed.

After the act that followed me finished their routine i suggested to Owner that we retire from the hall. As we were leaving a stranger congratulated me for having dealt so well with my wig mishap. We headed to the hotel bar and some drinks. 

in the hotel bar sans wig

There another stranger also congratulated me on how i did and a girl even came over and asked if She could take Her photograph with me, which Owner was happy for me to do.

So, did everything go to plan? No. Did we have a great time? Yes. Thank you Owner for a wonderful belated birthday treat. 

Anal Tentacle

Well, i bet that headline got your attention! Last night Owner and i sat down and had a conversation that left me feeling hot, aroused and excitable, my 'pussy' quivering in anticipation whilst my 'clit' bulged and strained futilely inside its weekend cage. Incidentally, it has been 80+ days now since my last orgasm. Anyway, i digress. What was the cause of my excitement? 

The discussion was about my forthcoming 51st birthday (16th January) and what Owner was thinking of getting me for one of my presents. She had asked me if there was anything in particular that i wanted, to which my response was either 'something pretty or naughty'. In truth, there is nothing that i actually 'need' and as 'experiences' are, for the most part, not possible due to Covid-19 (our presents to each other often involve travel) then basically my 'desires' can be distilled down to pretty clothes or sex toys, slut by name and slut by nature that i am.

Owner must have been thinking along similar lines for She showed me some cosplay outfits that She had been researching for me, with the idea of a photo shoot and the prospect of again appearing on stage in something in a post-Covid world.  Regular readers will recall that i appeared on stage in the London anime and gaming convention at the start of this year (in what feels like a different world) dressed in my Hideri Kanzaki maid's outfit. It was a real thrill appearing in front of a live audience, especially as i had never done so before and was locked in chastity under my short dress and little panties. Owner has agreed that it is something that She wants to have me do again when the world returns to normal. i say all this as the idea of a new outfit to wear was an intrinsically exciting one. Owner had found an outfit from one of Her and my favourite manga series, one called Shimometa. The outfit was the school uniform worn by one of the female characters, Ayame Kajou. As you can imagine this was an exciting enough idea for a birthday present.

But, but, but, then Owner announced that She had also been researching dildos and perhaps i would like one of those instead? What a choice! School girls outfit or a dildo? It turned out, however, that She did not have just any old dildo in mind. These were custom-made ones. She showed me the ones She had short-listed and i have to say i immediately fell into a sort of swoon. OMG! They all looked amazing, my heart fluttered and i am sure my pussy winked open and shut just at the prospect. This is the shortlist She presented to me (click on the pictures to take you to the website)

What a sight for slutty, lascivious eyes, and what a choice! All can be dyed to whatever colour combination that you want and all have some lovely-sized options. i instantly knew that i would love to have one of these for my birthday and leave the cosplay outfit to another day (perhaps closer to when i could actually wear it on stage). Owner was happy to go along with that so it now just came down to choosing which plug/dildo to get.

The bottom one of the three pictures (Noax) above looks satisfyingly 'filling' so i was quite tempted at first by that - i do so love to be opened up. But then again, the one above (Mundir), well what can i say. It looks amazing. But the text also states that it has been especially designed to trigger the 'p' spot and given that i need to control leakages of any kind unless expressly authorised by Owner then i knew that could be a challenge, but oh i was sooo tempted. That extra-large one looks, well...wow!

In the end, however, i went for 'Qwim' the tentacle in large. Just the thought of that snaking and thrusting its way inside me makes me wet. i mean, look at it, it looks amazing and quite unlike any of the other toys that i have had the pleasured of accommodating in my pussy - though in truth i would be delighted to try and accommodate them all, plus the can!

So the 16th January promises to be quite an 'interesting' day. Not only will i turn 51 years old but i will have a wonderful new toy to experience. It is also the day when the monthly outdoor challenge dice is rolled AND it is also when i next get to roll the chastity dice. Will i return to a tighter lock down than the one i am in now (weekends only for a period of 3 months). We shall have to see.

All that, of course, is to come (not cum!). In the meantime, we continue the countdown to Christmas. Today's advent calendar required that i receive 200 strokes of the cane in return for a 'gift'. Owner alternated between caning me on the buttocks and on the backs of my thighs (which definitely hurts more than the buttocks). As She did so She waxed lyrical about what a lovely cane i had bought Her and how much She enjoys caning me. As She informed me of this i 'presented myself' on my knees on the sofa and counted off each stroke until She reached the two hundred mark. You can see below that Owner's efforts left me with a pleasantly warm backside

So, what 'gift' did i get in return for my morning caning? i got a super cute pair of socks which bear the legend 'Breaking news - i don't care' which Owner stated was highly appropriate for me as i do not care what people may think of me. This is one of the things that i have come to realise as i get older, whereas once i may have been embarrassed or ashamed to admit who i am at heart i.e. an exhibitionist, transvestite, submissive slut, now i could not care less what others may think of me. 

i consider myself to be extremely lucky to have met (and ultimately married) a wonderful, beautiful and creative Owner whom i love and adore and who accepts me as i am (encourages me even) and dominates me and has me submit to Her 24/7 and 365 days a year. Ours is not a game (although as you can see i have a lot of fun) it is how we live every aspect of our life. Yes, we also do the things that all other couples do but She also controls me completely and i would not want to live any other way.

Poppet On Stage

i can't quite believe what i have just achieved. Today i took to the stage dressed in my pretty anime maid's outfit in front of a crowd of over 200 people at the London Anime & Gaming Convention. Owner had set me an anniversary treat/challenge, instructing me to purchase tickets for the convention so that i could enter into the Cosplay Masquerade in my Hideri Kanzaki maid character outfit from the anime series Blend -S. Regular readers will know that i did a photoshoot wearing this outfit in a London Hotel before Christmas in the hotel corridor but this time the challenge was to appear in front of a live audience. Would i manage it? i have been on stage before but not since school days and certainly not dressed in a short and pretty maid's outfit whilst also in chastity. Could i do it?

i grew increasingly nervous in the days running upto the event. Luckily for me i only imagined that i would have to appear on a small stage in a basement not on a big main stage in front of hundreds of people. But i am getting ahead of myself. First, upon arrival Owner took a few photos of me in my outfit at the convention. Here i am

me in my outfit - you can clearly see my new 'Owned' tattoo on my thigh

practising my pose

in the audience - nervously waiting for showtime

Having set me the challenge to go on stage in my outfit as Her wedding anniversary gift to me Owner helped me with my make-up for the event and also documented my escapade.

But of course standing about and posing was one thing, getting up on the stage in front of everyone would be another. Eventually the PA announced that everyone participating in the masquerade was to go and start to line-up and prepare for their moment on stage. There were quite a lot of people in costumes entering the masquerade, mostly teenagers but one or two in their 20s or 30s. i suspect i was the only 50 year old amongst them.

As we lined-up and waited our turn i confess to having a moment when i thought, what on earth am i doing? i became self-conscious that my skirt was quite short and you could see my knickers underneath and, well if you could see my knickers then it would be quite easy to see i was in chastity. Would people notice when i was on stage and they were looking up at me, up my skirt, seeing my frilly panties? Oh well, in for a penny in for a pound! i was determined that i would push myself to appear on stage no matter what people thought. i was actually mentally prepared for people to laugh at me.

Eventually my turn came. This is what Owner documented

To my amazement i even got a few cheers as i left the stage. Owner was delighted with my performance and i am really pleased that i did it. This has to be the best wedding anniversary gift/challenge ever. i fear Owner may just have created a monster. Today a stage at in London, next time...Vegas? 😁

Tomorrow i need to roll the dice for this months' outdoor challenge. i can't imagine it will beat the experience of being on stage though.

A Brief Update

Things have been a little quiet for Owner and i since the excitement of my birthday and its attendant treats. Work has been busy for both of us, Owner especially. However, we have been out to the cinema and to a new local restaurant/bar that has opened near to where we live. They do a good selection of gluten-free drinks and food (Owner is gluten intolerant) and it is quite close to where we live so it is a useful addition to the neighbourhood.

In the new bar, can you guess what my favourite drink is?

Meanwhile, my tattoo is almost fully healed as too is my leg (at last). i just need to go back to the parlour to finish off a tiny bit of the tattoo. i love having the statement that i am 'Owned' permanently etched onto my thigh.

i have also been made to suffer whilst completing my domestic tasks courtesy of Owners' new dice. My nipples have been regularly clamped and weighted whilst cleaning/cooking and my caged clit has also been 'decorated' by miniature wooden and metal pegs - which are torture when being removed - again, whilst cleaning.

ready to start cooking with my tit weights attached - i realise i need to lose some weight!

Meanwhile, there are a couple of exciting events coming up which i am really looking forward to. First up, next weekend Owner and i are going to an anime convention. i have never been to one before and i hope to be able to dress up in my little cosplay maids outfit. There is an outfit competition which woud be fun to enter - i wonder how many other 50 year olds will be hoping to spend sometime dressed up in a maids outfit in public? 😄

Then, the following week Owner and i have a little trip planned to Vilnius in Lithuania. Owner has been there before but i never have. We are both hoping for snow (this winter has been ridiculously mild to date) - i would love the opportunity to make snow angels in my lingerie! It looks like a beautiful city and we are really looking forward to the opportunity to explore it together.

Finally, it is just under a week to go before i once agin have to roll the monthly outdoor challenge dice. Last month i got an 'easy' task, wearing my shorts in the park. i wonder what this months task will entail? Some of the possibilities the dice has been loaded with would push me firmly outside my comfort zone, which is a good thing. Hope all our readers are well.

Adventures in Anime

Owner and i have just returned from an unexpectedly incident-packed and hilarious night away which involved, amongst other things being locked out of our hotel room with me dressed like this:

A woman falling into a puddle of someone else's vomit in a pub and a hotel maid getting to see the rare sight of not just my naked backside but also my temporarily unlocked clitty whilst i was lying on the floor in a baby doll nightie! Oh, where to start, where to start?

OK, let us start at the beginning. Readers may recall a blog post a few weeks ago when i mentioned that Owner had decided to buy me a Hideri Kanzaki cosplay costume for a photo shoot. The character appears in the anime Blend S. Hideri is trans and works in the cafe in which the anime is set and wants to be an idol (J-pop star). This is what the Hideri looks like in the series:

Anyway, Owner suggested we book into one of the hotels we regularly frequent, the Charing Cross hotel in London, to do a photo shoot of me in my costume. Owner ensured that everything was in place for the photo shoot, even ordering me some blue coloured contact lenses so that i might have the right eyes and a long sliver grey wig.

Yesterday afternoon we arrived at the hotel to check-in and then do the photo shoot before heading out for drinks and a meal together. Upon arrival our room was not ready so reception switched us to another room. That fact was to become important later in the afternoon.

Anyway, we settled into our room and Owner did my make-up and fixed the wig before helping me with my outfit to commence the photo shoot. Below are some images taken in the suite we were staying in.

i then asked if we could take some pictures of me in the outfit in the corridor outside the room. We left the room, closed the door and Owner started to shoot me in the corridor. Again, you can see some of the pictures She took below.

Satisfied with Her efforts Owner then went to open the room again only to discover that the electronic door key did not work. We were stuck outside the room in the corridor with me dressed as a manga maid! Owner declared that i was not appropriately attired to be despatched down to reception to sort the issue out so She went Herself leaving me in the corridor. The hotel is a big one and there are lots of rooms and as it was only about 5pm i realised it would be quite likely that someone would come along whilst i waited. Rather than try and stand there brazenly and just look like it was the most natural thing in the world for me to be stood dressed like that in the corridor i scuttled down the corridor looking for somewhere to hide myself until Owner returned.

At the very end of the corridor i found a recess which i could stand in that was just past the very end bedroom door. i decided to wait there until i heard Owner return. A short while later i heard footsteps on the corridor, i peeked out but it wasn't Owner, rather it was three women walking down in my direction. i stepped back into my hidey hole waiting for them to stop and enter one of the rooms. But they didn't, they kept heading down towards where i was standing in the recess, getting closer and closer. Eventually they stopped outside the very last door which was about 2 feet to my left and let themselves into their room. Had any of them taken an extra pace they would have been quite surprised to see my standing there desperately trying not to make a sound in my over knee socks and bunny ears!

Seconds later Owner returned and we both let ourselves back into the room. Phew! We then broke out into fits of laughter at our little hotel corridor adventure.

We changed and then headed out, eventually finding a pub with seats to settle in for a few drinks and a spot of people watching. It proved to be an excellent vantage point. The pub was busy with a youngish crowd of drinkers, including a group in which one of the women looked decidedly the worse for wear. It was only 6.30pm but she had clearly had a few and was sat slumped across her table whilst her friends chatted away. At one point her friends decided to try and force her to drink some water and that seemed to be the action that broke the proverbial camels back. The girl got up, staggered, slithered down onto the floor, was dragged back up, sat down briefly and then projectile vomited all over the floor. At about the same time another woman was heading towards the bar and the area where the other girl had just been sick. This other woman was wearing white trainers, a white coat and a very pale blue short dress. She stepped into the vomit, slipped and then fell into it. Her shoes and coat were covered. Given what had just happened she took the whole thing remarkably well - finding it all hilarious herself. The pub watched the comedy unfold as more people nearly came a cropper until the bar staff finally cleaned up.

Owner and i managed to avoid any mishaps and we left later and went for dinner before returning to the hotel. After a good nights sleep we went down for breakfast this morning then returned to our room and back to bed to watch TV. Pricess Bride was showing which i have never watched and so we snuggled up and watched that. Movie over Owner went to the bathroom and i decided to do some of my morning exercises. i was wearing my white baby doll nightie and nothing else.

No sooner had i prostrated myself on the floor at the foot of the bed to do some stretches than i head someone unlock the door and let them self into the room. At the sight of my elevated bare backside, tiny clitty and white baby doll the maid beat a hasty retreat. We later discovered that because the room we were first booked into was not available and we had been switched to another room the computer room service use to tell if a room is occupied or not had not been updated to reflect the fact that we were in it. The maid had ignored the 'do not disturb' sign and let herself straight in. i imagine she was rather surprised, perhaps even more so than i was!

Anyway, the hotel have offered us a discount for our next stay (we go there once a year or so) and gave us a rebate on our booking,

So, it was quite an eventful 24 hours. Oh, and two other bits of news. One related the other not. Owner suggested that as i now had an outfit and as it falls roughly at the same time as our wedding anniversary next year we should register and attend the London Anime & Gaming Convention in February next year. i do, as She pointed out, have a costume i can wear. There is even a parade and outfit competition i can enter. So that is what i shall be doing as part of our wedding anniversary!

The second bit of news is that, after spending the weekend unlocked, i will be returning to chastity in the next few hours. It has been nice being unlocked for a bit and it meant the maid got to see my clitty rather than my cage but being locked is my default state and i look forward to shortly being caged again.

Anniversary Anime

Today marks the fifteenth anniversary of when Owner first kissed me. It was in the middle of Charing Cross station and it marked the moment when we moved from being 'just friends' to a more intimate relationship. Owner had tired of waiting for me to make a move (i am actually quite shy in that regard) and so grabbed me and kissed me passionately. That kiss eventually to Her moving in with me, me submitting to Her, Owner taking full control over my life and eventually us getting married and me becoming Her wife. That first kiss is an event we celebrate every year and this year is no exception.

To mark the occasion this year Owner took me out for drinks and a meal last night and announced that Her present to me is to take the form of a Japanese cosplay outfit for me to wear and Her to photograph me in. The outfit Owner has chosen is a super appropriate one. It is the character Hideri Kanzaki from the Japanese anime Blend S.  You can see a picture of the character below

Hideri is actually a male character. He is a cross-dresser who wants to hide his masculine side and appear very feminine. He loves to look cute but who is also very vain. Owner thinks it is the perfect character for me and so is buying me the Hideri Kanzaki outfit as Her anniversary gift to me.

i think it is the perfect present to receive from Owner. i absolutely adore these types of outfits and have always wanted to have one and be able to prance and pose in it. The fact that i will be wearing one that relates to a character who is actually a boy but who aspires to be a girl makes Owners' choice even more inspired. i know there are cafes in Japan where the staff wear outfits very similar to the one in the illustration - it is a fantasy of mine to be able work in such a place. Owner also thinks it would be the perfect job for me.

The anime itself is a really interesting one. It too is set in a cafe and includes a sadist waitress, a submissive manager and a host of other interesting characters. There is even one called 'Owner' - though this is a dog. Anyway, i cannot wait to dress-up in character.

My present to Owner is a return visit to one of Her favourite London hotels' complete with private rooftop hot tub. We are going next weekend and i cannot wait to spend the evening relaxing in our swimsuits together. i think we might really need a break by then as next week we are having a new kitchen installed and so we have days of builders and general chaos to look forward to, not! Still it will be worth it when we have a new kitchen in which i can prepare Owner's meals.