The Happy Arse Licker

 'I love cumming with your tongue in my arse'

'You have a lovely face to sit on'

The above are two of the sentences uttered this morning by Owner. She has a beautiful and a delicious backside and on occasion i am treated to the luxury of pleasuring and worshiping Her anus with my tongue. Such occasions are moments of great intimacy, which serve also as reminders of my place and purpose, Her arse-licking, human sex toy. This morning was just such a moment.

After waking me by caressing my breasts, fondling and spanking my little caged clit until the hanging plums of my labia were heavy and swollen Owner directed my attention to Her own pleasure. Kneeling on the bed She directed me to position myself between Her thighs, so that my tongue might delight Her whilst She brought Herself off with Her vibrator.

i live for such moments. i adore the taste of Owner's anus, can't get enough of it in fact i could feast for hours, delighted and intoxicated. Sometimes Owner will position Herself on all fours and i have me kneel behind Her whilst i worship Her heavenly backside.  On other occasions She will lay on Her side and lift up Her upper leg, inviting me to place my lips against Her inviting sphincter and worship Her with my tongue. My favourite position, however, (and i think Hers too) was the one She adopted this morning. Her sitting above me, straddling my face, pushing down and enveloping me, suffocating me as i strive to pleasure Her with my out-stretched tongue.

i licked hungrily and enthusiastically between Her butt cheeks, my tongue lapping and circling the entrance of Her anus before pushing inside. As my tongue entered Her Owner sank down lower, smothering my face completely. i felt and heard Her vibrator buzzing against the bridge of my nose as She worked it against Her clit whilst my tongue licked and probed Her backside.

Worshiping Her anus like this with my tongue has become the main way that Owner uses my body sexually. My tongue serves as Her human sex toy, pleasuring Her backside with whilst Her primary sex toy purrs away mechanically against Her clit. Occasionally She may also rub and grind against other parts of my body but my tongue in Her anus is what She seems to enjoy the most. It is the only part of me that is allowed to penetrate Her, it has been well over a decade since my clit was last allowed inside Her. i can't imagine it ever being allowed inside of Her again, She has no need of it. Her toys and my tongue do a much better job than it ever did.

It's curious to think that some people might think that my sex life ended in my late thirties. That was the last time my clit was allowed inside Owner. Yet, here i am, well over a decade later and i am living my happiest years and i am more sexually and emotionally content and fulfilled than ever i was in my teens, twenties or thirties. What i had once referred to as my cock was, in fact, nothing of note. Nicknamed, rather accurately, 'floppy' during my first disastrous attempt to lose my virginity in my late teens it led to years of disappointment and repeated 'stage fright' that meant sex for me was a minefield of performance anxiety and shame-faced apologies. Meeting Owner changed all that and, in doing so, liberated me from my sexual insecurity. 

It was She who first verbalised that what i had was actually not a cock at all but a clit. She also quickly came to realise that She had no need of it sexually. It was small and cute and something that, still to this day, She likes to occasionally torture, tease and torment, but sexually it was pointless. She had no need of it. Consequently, it soon became redundant. For most of the over a decade and a half we have spent together, it has been locked away. Put simply, it is not needed. It serves zero sexual purpose and, i assume, never again will. So, in one sense it could be thought that my sex life is well and truly over. How wrong that thought would be.

Far from emasculating me this past decade has been hugely liberating to me.  Mentally and physically (courtesy of the tiny chastity cage it spends much of the time in) i no longer even think of myself as having a cock. i don't, i have a (normally caged) clit. Freed from any expectation or hope that such a part of my anatomy might be in any way be sexually needed by Owner i no longer worry about whether or not i will be able to 'perform'. Instead i get to focus on giving Owner pleasure in whatever way She would like. That way is licking Her anus with my tongue whilst She brings Herself off with Her vibrator. 

i know other fellow submissives out there in the blogger sphere who are similarly kept in a state of semi-permanent denial, their cocks no longer of use or interest to their partners. For a few they are, on occasion, still made use of. Unlocked to briefly perform and then quickly locked away again. Others have had their caged cocks supplemented by strapons with which to fuck their partner. In Owners' household the only person who gets fucked by a strapon is me, by Owner. In other relationships the submissive is cuckolded by their Dominant partners who takes on lovers to provide what they, as sissy sluts like me, are so incapable of providing. Owner has never sought to do this and seems to be quite happy with Her toys and my tongue. i would, of course, understand and accept it if She ever wanted what i am so obviously not equipped nor capable of providing. But, so far she seems to get what She wants and needs from Her personal submissive sex toy, namely me.

For my part i love to help provide Her with pleasure this way. i am honoured to be permitted to be so intimate with Her and to share and feel the exquisite sensation of Her orgasm whilst savouring, inhaling and tasting Her delicious derriere. It is a heavenly treat and each time i get to experience it, such as this morning, i feel like i truly have won life's lottery. If allowed to i would happily feast on Her butt hole all day. 

So it was with great happiness and joy, and frustrated arousal, that i pleasured Owner this morning until She came, and it was with a throbbing, aching clit and heavy, swollen labia that i cuddled up to Her afterwards before getting out of bed to make breakfast. 

Her pleasure is what matters the most, to both of us but providing it to Her also serves to give me great pleasure too.

To add to my state of heightened but frustrated arousal later in the afternoon, after completing my household chores, Owner had me fuck my pussy with one of Her dildos. i have a feeling i am going to be feeling horny all week after so much excitement!

My 'labia' lips hanging heavy below my chastity device

Looking out the window whilst i fuck myself for Owners' amusement

Hello Sweden and Thoughts on Orgasm Denial and Sexual Pleasure

No, the blog post does not mean that Owner and i are away visiting Scandinavia, sadly...though we hope to be again soon. Instead, it reflects a curious change in visitor traffic to this blog.

Usually, these blog posts attract a pretty steady and fairly low volume of page views. Sometimes higher, sometimes lower, fluctuating a little depending on content and sometimes for no apparent reason at all. However, there has been a sudden and dramatic surge in views for some of my recent posts. We are talking more than three times the average page views the blog normally receives, albeit from an admittedly relatively low base. What is curious, however, is that the blogger analytics tells me that all these new views are coming from one country in particular....Sweden.

So, hej sverige jag och välkommen till den här bloggen (if that doesn't say 'hello Sweden and welcome to this blog' then blame google translate!)

In other news, we had our aircon installed in the flat yesterday, just in time for the heatwave in London to break. Still, Owner is especially delighted that She now has a cool sanctuary to hide out in whenever it gets too hot again. One of the first things that She said to me after it had been installed was that She:

'Did not want to find me standing in front of the aircon caressing my erect nipples in the cold breeze!'

Honestly, She knows me too well! Of course that was one of the first things that crossed my mind. It is true that i can sometimes be found idly caressing my nipples, i love to touch/be touched there. 

Talking of touching, each night before i drift off to sleep Owner caresses my my buttocks and pussy - ostensibly to 'check my temperature' - She always maintains that i have a cold backside. It is a lovely way to fall asleep, Her fingers touching and stroking my derriere. For my part i love to bury my face in Her chest, though of course nothing in the world beats those occasions when i am permitted to bury my tongue between Her wonderful cheeks.

The eagle eyed of you may also have noticed that it is now almost 100 days (98 at the time of writing to be precise) since i had my last orgasm. i have had just one orgasm to date this year. Last year i had four but the year before that i had no orgasms at all. i sincerely believe that being kept denied is good for me. In fact, i have grown so accustomed to expecting not to be allowed to orgasm that, on the very rare occasions when i am permitted to do so, any fleeting orgasmic high is tempered by feelings of  disappointment. Orgasmic denial (together with being kept in long-term chastity) is, to me at least, a sign of my devotion and complete submission to Owner. 

So strong, in fact is this sense of denial being manifestation of my love and total surrender to Her control that, even on the odd occasions when i am allowed out of chastity, it does not ever cross my mind to masturbate. To do so would feel like a betrayal. Owner is the centre of my world, the one to whom i have submitted completely and who controls all aspects of my life. Orgasmic denial is one of the ways in which i try to demonstrate my total submission to Her. My clit is Hers, not mine. 

When Owner chooses to make me cum it is because She decides this for me, it is never, ever sought by me. My default state has, over the years, come to be one of orgasmic denial. Left to my own devices i would never orgasm again, would remain locked forever. It would be a small sacrifice to make for the honour of demonstrating my eternal submission and surrender to Her.

To me, to be kept in a state of permanent orgasm denial for the rest of my life would be an honour. 

i have already learnt never to expect to be allowed to put my clitty inside of Owner again. It has been about a dozen years since that last happened. She has no need of it, Her toys, my face and my tongue provide for Her needs. My clitty has long since been sexually redundant. Even when Owner does make me orgasm my clit rarely plays any part. Owner learnt years ago that She could make me orgasm by beating my testicles - or labia. It fast became Her preferred, then only, way to make me ejaculate. It hurts, i howl. Like a slut She says. Nowadays when She beats and strikes them Owner stops before the pleasure overwhelms the pain, ensuring that i do not cum.

So my clit has become entirely redundant. It is already quite small, always has been. However, i now have a recurrent fantasy, a daydream, where Owner arranges to have it shrunk, shrunk down to the size of my little toe. A pointless, useless little nub (with a teeny, tiny cage over it). In my fantasy my testes/labia remain - suspended invitingly below my pointless clit for Owner to strike and beat at will. 

What then of pleasure? Do i not still crave pleasure? Of course i do but my pleasure centres have shifted. My nipples and my 'pussy' have become my primary sources of arousal. i will sit or stand and idly caress my tits like a slut, and as for my pussy - it loves to be stretched, craves to be opened up, loves to be fucked by Owner. i really have become a size whore.

But real pleasure? Real pleasure, true pleasure for me is not to be had through my own experience. Much as i may adore being fucked and fucked hard by Owner that to me is not real pleasure. No, real pleasure, the kind that really makes my heart and soul sing, is to be had when i can feel Her flesh quiver, Her muscles spasm, Her thighs clench tight as She climaxes with my tongue pleasuring Her anus. That is my personal heaven. My nirvana. One moment like that is more pleasurable, more exciting, more thrilling than any transient moment i might experience. To me, true pleasure is to be found in bringing Owner pleasure.

Clit in Bloom

My 48 hours of being unlocked and out of chastity is drawing to a close and i will soon be locked back into chastity once again until at least the 11th June when the chastity dice will be rolled again. It has been enjoyable being briefly let out and Owner used the opportunity to occasionally poke and prod my little squishy clitty and even to decorate if with a flower (see below) but that has been as far as things went. My clit was otherwise ignored and will be locked back up in a few hours time, leaving me to continue to wait and wonder when, or whether, i might be permitted to orgasm this year. It has now been almost six months at least since i last came. Denial, whether locked or not, has become the new normal for me and i confess to rather liking being kept this way.

my clitty enjoying the last of its second day unlocked

clit in bloom

Big Pussy Tiny Clitty Birthday Poppet

Today marked the passing of another year - yep it's my birthday. In recognition of this fact Owner today set me an ammended series of exercise challenges to complete as part of my ongoing (and so far successful) recovery from my earlier back problems. Today, each time i did my regular back stretches etc whilst working from home Owner stated that i was to fuck myself and beat my clitty. To begin with i was to start with one finger only and then increase the number of digits during the day before moving onto some toys so that i was nice and wet and stretched when She got home from work. Well, needless to say i'd reached 5 fingers around lunchtime and so switched over to different sized dildos for my exercises in the afternoon before inserting the inflatable butt plug and pumping it up before just before Owner returned from work.

During the day Owner had texted me to say what i whore i was and how She wanted to watch me fuck myself for Her pleasure on Her return. Eager to satisfy Her requests i replied that i would fuck the big red dildo we have to show just what a big, stretched pussy i had. Thus, no sooner had Owner got back than i was on all fours replacing the inflatable butt plug with the big red dildo and easing it inside my pussy. A few years ago i struggled to accomodate even a small dildo in my pussy yet now it's been so well used by Owner the big red one slides in without too much effort. After watching me fuck myself for a bit Owner took control and fucked me Herself with the big red one

After a few minutes Owner declared Herself satisfied with my demonstration of how slutty i am and that it was now time to do a little photoshoot. i was exceedngly lucky in that Owner had bought me lots of chocolate including a delicious white chocolate lolly which made an ideal edible prop for some photos to show off my new denim skirt, one of my new bras and new leg warmers and snow boots (the latter bought in preparation for a very brief trip to Finland we hope to go on later this week)

The final [photo is of the wonderful bracelet that Owner had made for me for my birthday present. i absolutely love it as it is not only super pretty but i love the words Owner had engraved upon it - perfect

At one point during the shoot my clitty 'fell out' of its spiked metal khalli's teeth chastity device prompting Owner to remark that my clitty seems to keep getting smaller and smaller. i can only agree with Owner, it was never much to write home about to start with but i think as it (my clitty) shrinks so my pussy seems to expand and stretch further as i develop, slowly but surely, into Owners little girly whore.

All in ll it has been a wonderful and very memorable birthday. However, as ever what has been best about it has been sharing it with my wonderful Owner