54th Birthday

Today was my 54th birthday and Owner made sure that it was marked in style. She also had a lovely surprise in store for me. It being the 16th of the month it was also an outdoor challenge day which Owner added a slight twist to on this occasion. Read on to find out more.

My day began at 5.45am and a breakfast of homemade tarta de abuela prepared for my by my lovely Owner. There were also some giant 54 balloons (and i will come back to the balloons), a wonderful card and a gorgeous pair of silver hoop earrings. i have long hoped to have some bigger hooped earrings and now i do!

The real surprise, however, came when i opened a little box marked 'pet's treat' which contained the details of a surprise birthday trip organised by Owner in the form of a 4 day trip to Krakow in Poland. i have never been to Poland and Krakow looks to be a beautiful city. Owner has even booked us into a spa one afternoon. i am super excited and already panicking about what to pack as we head off very soon.

i will, of course, report back on our little adventure. i truly am a lucky pet to be treated like this by Owner for my birthday.

After breakfast and presents it was time to get back into the usual routine. i did my Spanish. completed my exercises, did the washing and cleaned the bathroom then got ready for my day. This mostly consisted of work but early morning i briefly left the house to complete my monthly outdoor challenge.

The dice had been rolled before breakfast and they determined that i should wear shorts and stockings (it was -3 Celsius this morning) and pose at one of the bus stops next to our local park. To add to the challenge Owner declared that She wanted me to complete it whilst carrying the giant 54 balloons - just to make me even more conspicuous.

Anyway, i am pleased to say the challenge was successfully completed even though i ended up carrying the balloons the wrong way around so they made me look like i am 45 as opposed to 54 (which i actually am). 

Here are some images from my day. First off - breakfast cake, balloons and presents

breakfast spread prepared by Owner plus my 54 balloons

blowing out my candles

birthday card from Owner

modelling my new earrings

Followed by my outdoor challenge. Note to self. Next time check balloons are the right way round!

getting ready to leave the flat

on way to bus stop

there's the bus

at the bus stop

It was a fun challenge and lots of people saw me and my balloons! Now i am counting down the hours until we head to Poland. i am a very lucky pet.

What A Weekend

Well, what can i say...wow. This weekend Owner took me for an evernight stay at The Standard hotel opposite Kings Cross station in London. We had been due to go around the time of my birthday but, as i got ill, it was postponed until this weekend. It was most definitely worth waiting for. By the time we checked out the following day i had;

• made a complete exhibition of myself
• been wined and dined
• got tied up and caned in public
• drunk a glassful of Owners wonderful pee
• fellated a dildo
• pleasured and worshipped Owners anus as She brought Herself off
• got fucked by Owner
• been electro-tortured
• bathed with London laid out before me

Like i say, it was quite the weekend and one that we shall definitely both remember for a long, long time.

First off, before we went Owner had bought me a clingy pink dress that i was instructed to bring with me, together with the Mary Jane shoes She had bought me, in order to be able to do a photo shoot in the hotel. Owner photographed me on the hotel balcony, in the hotel room and then out in the hotel corridor, the latter to the surprise of two members of the hotel staff who suddenly appeared with their fresh laundry carts. It was great fun to do and i enjoyed shamelessly flashing myself as well as posing for Owner. oh, and yes, i am aware that i have put on some weight these past couple of months and am looking a little podgy. i am to be back 'in shape' soon.

Anyway, here are some pictures from the photo shoot

ooh la la

just after this some hotel staff arrived!

But it wasn't just about me posing. Lots of other fun was had too, like frolicking about in bath/jacuzzi on the balcony

Getting to drink some of Owners finest

Then being tied-up on the balcony

very convenient set of holes in the outdoor seat!

Before then getting caned by Owner with all that separated our balcony and the balcony of the (occupied) room next door being a few small privet plants in pots, oh and anyone standing at the windows above our room able to get a view of my arse being caned hard

caning completed

a better view of the aftermath - my bottom starting to mark-up nicely

Then there was the cock sucking and the electro torture (for which i was a complete wuss again). Incidentally, knowing how much i hate the electro torture device seems to really delight Owner. She takes a great deal of pleasure watching me thrash about helplessly and has said She now intends to make much more frequent use of it.

ouch!

The sight of me getting to pleasure Owners anus with my tongue as She brought Herself off with Her vibrator, then Her fucking me with Her dildo as She brought Herself to another climax, you will have to leave to your imagination. By the time we checked out Owner was feeling fully satisfied whilst i remained frustrated and denied....but very, very happy. We both had a wonderful time. i loved having the opportunity to pose for Owner and then to pleasure Her whilst She enjoyed directing Her muse and torturing me.

Another Year Passes

Monday marked my 53rd birthday, another milestone passed on my journey to oblivion :). Owner treated me to a wonderful birthday cake and more presents before She had to leave for work. We then met-up later in the day to go out for dinner together in Islington in North London, it was a very enjoyable evening and a memorable birthday.

Owner got me a beautiful pair of Mary Jane heeled shoes as a birthday present present as well as a trip to Sadlers Wells theatre next month to watch a modern dance performance. We both love watching dance but have not been to a modern-dance performance since Covid, i am really looking forward to it.

This weekend Owner is also taking me to a hotel in North London where, amongst other things, a hotel photo-shoot in my new pink dress and my new heels is on the agenda, as well as dinner and drinks together. Both of us can't wait to escape overnight especially as Owner has had a very intense start to Her new job.

Anyway, in the meantime here are some pictures from my big day.

my lovely birthday cake

looking frightful whilst stuffing my face at breakfast

my gorgeous new shoes

We're Back - Belated Happy New Year

A very belated Happy New Year one and all from Owner and i. We arrived back on these shores yesterday evening after returning together from Spain. You may recall that Owner flew out to be with Her family just before Christmas and then i flew out to join Her on the 29th December after spending Christmas, first with my Dad and then with my Mum.

Owner and i both missed each other terribly so it was lovely to be reunited. Owner had tested positive for Covid before She left but thankfully She was negative by the Christmas Eve and so was able to spend the evening celebrating with Her parents and siblings. i then got to join everyone out there in good time for New Years eve and the eating of the grapes. Whilst waiting to catch our flight back Owner got me this super cute set of 'cow' earrings - which i love.

During our period of enforced separation i asked Owner if i might be permitted the use of the internet/computer 'out of hours' - to stop me from going stir crazy. This was granted, albeit on the condition that i will be banned from using the internet this coming weekend and am also required to spend the time between 5.30 and 6.30pm this Saturday and Sunday locked securely in my cage. i am also to spend an additional 30 minutes caged before i join Owner in bed. i am grateful to Owner for acceding to my request and thank Her for taking the time to advise on a suitable punishment as a consequence.

Owner also has some sort of surprise(s) in store for me. The 16th of January is not just the day when i will next be rolling the chastity dice and completing an outdoor challenge, it is also my birthday (53 - OMG!). Owner has stated that She has created a seven-day countdown commencing on Monday next week. i have no idea what this countdown might involve but i am nervously excited to find out. In the meantime, i keep staring at the countdown box that Owner has strategically positioned in our lounge, wondering what might be inside. i will, of course, keep readers posted.

decorated countdown box - front

decorated countdown box - rear

 Happy New Year all.

180 Days of Denial and an Absence of Advent

Orgasm Denial

One hundred and eighty days ago i had an orgasm, i have not had one since, have no idea when or if i might be allowed to have one again. To be denied for such a long period, with much (not all) of that time spent in chastity, is something that has come to be a significant element of my relationship with Owner. This year has actually been something of a bumper year when it has come to orgasms for yours truly. i have got to experience four such moments...well sort of. i actually got to 'enjoy' two as two were ruined.

Even so 2 full orgasms and 2 ruined is quite a bonanza when compared to my experience of 2019, when i experienced none. Actually, and perhaps perversely, 2019 for me was a memorable year for that very reason, namely the fact that i did not orgasm at all that year, was simply not allowed to. For years now Owner has made it clear that a) only She can initiate sex and b) that my body exists purely for Her own pleasure and c) that She has no sexual need of my 'clit' inside Her. Thus, for me to not been allowed to climax feels like a natural extension of Her control over me and of my submission to Her. It is certainly the case that i act and behave better as Her submissive and obedient housewife when i am kept in a state of denial. On the rare occasions when i am permitted to climax my attitude and performance can and sometimes does slip. i concluded a few years ago that permanent orgasm denial is what i deserve and what is best for me to keep me in an optimum submissive state.

It is not that i don;t get to experience pleasure, i do. i derive immense satisfaction from witnessing Owner experience pleasure and i myself get to enjoy and worship Her anus when She does. i also get the pleasure of sometimes being teased and aroused but left desperately frustrated. My bits get spanked and beaten and, of course, i get to spend odd moments just casually caressing my tits - which are in a state of pretty permanent arousal and are deliciously sensitive. What i do not get to experience is an orgasm. If and when i do is not a decision i am in a permission to make and even when i am not in chastity the thought no longer crosses my mind to touch or caress myself. My clit is not for me.

It is for Owner and Her alone to decide whether or not i get to cum. She enjoys the occasions when She does, in Her own words 'make me cum like a whore' (i get very vocal) and likes to feed me my mess afterwards. She also takes delight in forcing me to orgasm by beating my bits hard - something that starts off being very painful and results in a briefly highly pleasurable (for me) and very explosive release. Whether i cum or not is totally Her decision not mine. i would like to be kept in a state of denial a lot longer, perhaps even permanently, but whether i will be i have absolutely no idea or control over.

 

Advent

This brings me to another absence, albeit one of a very, very different nature. Long-term readers of this blog may recall that Owner enjoys creating Her own special advent calendar each festive period - a calendar that involves me receiving a fresh task each day of the advent countdown. These are sometimes challenges, sometimes punishments, sometimes silly things to do. They always keep me nervously on my toes and give Owner something to entertain Herself with.

This year, however, there will be no advent. This is because Owner and i will, sadly, not be spending Christmas together. As occasionally happens the festive period will see Her head to Spain to be with Her family whilst i do a mini-tour of Southern and South-West England visiting mine. The good news is that Owner and i will be reunited when i head out to Spain to join Her in time for New Year, but it means that for Xmas and a few days leading up to it, we will be apart. It is not possible, therefore, to do a set of advent surprises.

Panic not, however. Instead of advent Owner is introducing a new countdown during January. This will be to countdown towards my 53rd birthday. For the past few weeks a succession of secret and mysterious deliveries have been arriving at home which are apparently all part of this birthday countdown. When they arrive Owner banishes me from the room as She unpacks and prepares the items which are sitting, tempting me, in their own special wrapped box in the corner of the lounge. i have no idea what they might be or what they might involve but i am very excited (and rather nervous) to find out.

So, whilst there will not be an advent countdown this year there will, instead, be a birthday one to update readers about during January. i would be interested to know if other readers have their own seasonal or birthday rituals?

Birthday Dress and Other Birthday Fun

One of the things that i absolutely love about my life is that i am fairly certain that i am one of only a lucky few people who get to spend their 52nd birthday posing outside wearing the new service dress that their dominant wife has bought for them, in my stockings and heels. Even better, i get to do this outside our flat, in our street on a Sunday lunchtime for all the neighbours and passers by to see. That was exactly what i was able to do today - i truly am one very lucky, albeit increasingly old, submissive, exhibitionist slut

me in our street wearing my new service dress

Yes, today is my birthday and amongst the many lovely things that Owner bought for me was this beautiful made to measure service dress that She ordered especially for me from the lovely Karolina at BeBaGo on Etsy. You can see another couple of shots of it below

Getting ready to meet my public :)

Hello neighbours, like my dress?

a quick flash of knicker

i love the dress and it fits me perfectly.

But, i have already got well ahead of myself. Let me go back to first thing this morning and the sight that greeted me in our lounge. Owner had ordered me an amazing birthday cake, decorated the table with balloons and streamers and provided me with a fresh glass of Her delicious piss to drink to help kick-start my birthday in style. This was the sight that greeted me

presents, cake, balloons and glass of fresh piss

i eagerly swigged the glass of Owner's wonderful golden nectar - honestly Her pee is the best drink ever and was a wonderful way to start my day

piss drinking birthday pet - with my morning hair! :)

Drink downed it was time to be truly indulgent and have some amazing chocolate cake for breakfast. Owner had even bought me a pair of  special cake eating glasses to wear.

how is it that i am 52 already?

eating cake with my birthday cake eating glasses on

Next, it was time to open my presents. Owner bought me some amazing gifts including a pretty set of wireless headphones and a zombie cow butter dish (we have a bit of a thing going on about cows - whenever we go on holiday we always spend at least some of our time hunting down cow-themed souvenirs).

zombie cow butter dish - totally awesome

super cute wireless headphones

And of course the service dress, did i mention that Owner had bought me made-to-measure dress?

my precious :)

She also got me this great card

Since breakfast it has been a real struggle to be allowed to do anything productive. i was able to clean the bathroom and do some clothes washing this morning but Owner insisted on making lunch, even permitting me to have a glass of wine from the half-finished bottle left over from Xmas when i was allowed a couple of drinks then. She has also insisted that i just relax whilst She washes up, on account of it being my birthday (so i am using the opportunity to draft this blog post - i will still try to sweep and mop the floors later, i feel v guilty if my chores get left undone). EDIT - between drafting and Owner approving this blog post i did sweep all the floors, although Owner has excused me from mopping them as well.

sweeping the floors in my new service dress

In short, it is proving to be a lovely birthday.