Fifteen Years of Submission

Fifteen years ago today Owner and i exchanged our first kiss, or more accurately She grabbed and snogged me, and began our journey together. What started as a strictly vanilla relationship quickly morphed into the start of a Femdom one when i wrote Her a letter asking if i could submit to Her. The rest, as they say, is history. Twelve of those fifteen years have been documented here on this blog as our relationship developed and evolved and my submission to Her deepened. Two years ago i became Owners' wife. i can honestly say that these have been the best 15 years of my life and i feel truly lucky to have met Owner and to share my life with Her.

Owner presented me with this card this morning to mark our anniversary, which i think is wonderfully appropriate as She does enjoy doing exactly what the card says;

This coming weekend Owner is taking me out to dinner and has also ordered me a pretty new 'O' collar for me to wear on a permanent basis. In return i bought Owner a pretty ring and a Lelo 'smart-wand' vibrator - which i hope will provide Her with many hours of pleasure, plus a mystery (i know what it is but cannot say here as Owner checks what i write before i post) present for Her which is still to arrive.

Despite it being our anniversary today has been a normal working day for us both. Well, i say normal but i was perhaps one of only a small group of people who were presenting at online conferences today where the view just out of shot from the laptop camera (and thus the delegates) was as below, oh little did they know what their presenter was wearing below the waist!

i also 'discovered' a very different type of domestic uniform for sale on-line (at what, incidentally, looks to be a great shop). i sent Owner the link to see what She thought of it and i am delighted to say that She liked it too and has given me permission to purchase it. This is what it looks like;

It is very different from the more formal uniform i was also allowed to recently purchase, definitely sluttier i think you will agree! i can't wait to get it.

Owner has also started to review Her dices. The first dice She has updated is the chastity dice. The options that have been loaded into the chastity dice (which will, once again, be rolled on the 16th of each month unless the dice determines otherwise) are as follows:

- wear for 3 months without break then roll again

- wear for 2 months without break then roll again

- wear for 1 month without break then roll again

- wear for 3 months weekdays only then roll again

- wear for 3 months weekends only then roll again

- wear alternate weeks for 2 months then roll again

Owner is also reviewing the home challenge dice and i will be re-commencing the monthly outdoor challenge dice rolls, also on the 16th. So, the dice are returning! Yippee - i have missed them.

Dress Down Friday, Chastity and High Heels

As i have previously blogged about Owner has stipulated what style of 'uniform' i am to wear when i work from home, either a smart skirt and blouse or smart trousers with blouse and a pair of flats. She has identified items that are appropriate as work uniforms and since then these are what i have been wearing when working from home, paired with either stockings or tights (depending on the weather). At first i confess that i was a little nervous at the prospect of potentially having to interact with our downstairs neighbour or with delivery people etc whilst wearing my new 'uniform'. However, having now met and talked with my neighbour so dressed and with a number of different delivery people (supermarket delivery drivers, parcel deliveries, postman etc) i have now gotten a lot more used to it.  In fact, i actually wake-up quite excited at the prospect of dressing up in my work uniform when i don't have to go into the office.

Then, a few weeks ago, Owner had the idea of introducing a 'dress down Friday' theme when i work from home on a Friday. This is how i interpreted 'dress down Friday' whilst working from home a few days ago;

Owner has, however, pointed me in the direction of this 'Casual but sexy' page on Pinterest to show me the sorts of outfits that She expects me to wear when i work from home in future on a Friday. The page is great and full of inspirational ideas. The trick now will be for me to try and pull off a casual yet sexy look on future Fridays.

Owner has also decided that She would like me to get a new chastity device. Although i have a Mature Metal device it has not been worn much of late, in part because i lost the locking pin and so have had to use a screw instead, something Owner rightly says is not really appropriate. Anyway, She told me to research potential new devices.

Over the many years in which chastity has figured i our relationship i have had a number of different devices, some good and some less so. It was interesting to once again have a look and see what, if any new chastity products were available on the market since the last time we researched. The good news was that there were some new ones. The device we both particulalrly liked is one that is called the 'Holy Trainer' (great name!) and is available in regular and small, and is also available in pink. The small pink version is the one that i will be getting. It should arrive later this week and i will post about it in future. One advantage of a return to non-metal devices that Owner highlighted was that it should be OK to wear through airport security. As you know we both travel a fair amount and it would be great to have a device that could remain in situ when we do so. We are off to Northern Norway in a few weeks so that could be a good time to test it through the security at the airport.

This morning, however, Owner treated me to an intense orgasm, my first in over a month. First, She caressed and teased me and then She gagged with with the cock gag before having me position myself on the bed on my belly. Owner then took our Her favourite vibrator and wedged it between my butt cheeks and proceeded to 'ride' and pleasure Herself astride of me. Then She told me She wanted to fuck my face and rolled me over and sat astride my head and squatted down so that She was resting Her weight on my gagged mouth. My nostrils were filled with Her scent as She continued to pleasure Herself with Her vibrator whilst grinding down on my gagged mouth, ensuring my mouth was well and truly stuffed full of cock.

After Her own orgasm Owner then switched Her attention to me. She positioned Her vibrator on my belly, so that it nestled just under my excited and aroused little clit. Then She retrieved Her riding crop and proceeded to crop my clit and nipples. Owner was soon beating my clit hard with Her riding crop and then switched Her attention to my exposed and vulnerable 'labia'. She knows how aroused i get when She beats these hard and regular readers will know that most, if not all of the orgasms i am permitted these days come about as a result of Her beating my bits. The combination of Her beating me with the riding crop and the vibrator buzzing away against the head of my clit soon had me highly aroused. Owner granted me permission to come 'like the slut i am' and no sooner than She had given Her consent than a month's worth of cum was squirting and splashing and soaking my belly. Owner scooped my mess up with Her vibrator and Her hand, then un-gagged me and fed me my mess, having me lick and fellate the dildo and pouring and wiping the mess from Her hand into my eager mouth. i truly am lucky to be treated so well by Her! :)

Later today we are heading out, in part for me to complete a challenge wearing high heels in public. i will update about that and our upcoming video in my next post.

Another Housework Uniform

Shortly before Owner and i went on our short trip to Miami Owner had instructed me to purchase another housework uniform so that i have two to use so there is always a spare. Owner selected the item She wanted me to buy on ebay - it was an amazingly cheap nurses/care-home cleaning tunic which cost about £9 - and though we bought it from a store specialising in uniforms for cleaners and nurses etc neither of us were that convinced it would be of good quality. How wrong we were!

The item arrived the day we left and so it wasn't until we returned that i got a chance to try it on. It is surprisingly good quality and we're both delighted with it. You can see what it looks like below (i added the belt) i think it is fair to describe it as being practical rather than sexy!;

Meanwhile, Owner and i have both struggled a little bit with jet-lag post Miami. Thankfully, we've only had to work two days this week though sadly for Owner this meant Her having to go into Her office whereas i got to work from home again - which meant being able to wear my other 'office' uniforms. We had no callers, however, and so nobody got to see me in my stockings, skirt and blouse this time. That will, however, change next week as we have a delivery coming on Monday.

Owner is still keen to establish a new 'dress-down Friday' rule for me when i am working from home at the end of the week (which is normally always the case). She hasn't yet made-up Her mind what this will involve, i am nervously excited to find out what She may decide.

Uniform and Control Update

My trip to Rotterdam was not the only birthday gift Owner got for me. Whilst we were away She also presented me with a wrapped parcel which, upon opening, was revealed to be a lovely pink 1950s 'American diner' waitress uniform. It unbuttons completely at the front and has a small ten-pin bowling brooch pinned to the side. Owner got it from CCVintage Store on Etsy and you can see a picture of it below

This is to be my uniform for serving meals at home. Owner and i both have to thank Michel who commented a while ago with some suggested uniform ideas. It was these that gave Owner the idea. So now i have a meal serving and a home working uniform! i am thrilled.

Talking of my home working uniforms. On Monday i unexpectedly had the opportunity to work from home rather than have to go into the office. It meant that i could start wearing an office uniform this week rather than next as we had originally thought would be the case. It is very cold at the moment in London and so Owner decided that i should wear my Zara suit trousers rather than a skirt with my blouse and stockings. She of course demanded a selfie from me to check that i had my uniform on. These are the pictures i sent Her:

In addition to this, here are some pictures of some of my other work uniform items that Owner chose for me to purchase. These will compliment some existing smart blouses and skirts which i have as well as the trousers and blouse shown above.

Our return from Rotterdam also marked another significant milestone in the expansion of Owners control over me, namely financial. Before we went away i set-up a new 'monthly allowance' current account with a bank into which £100 is transferred each month from my main current account.  The bank card for this 'allowance account', and our joint account card that i use to do out food shopping with, is the only bank card i am now permitted access to, When we got back i surrendered my current account and credit cards cards.  Owner is now restricting me to a monthly allowance of £100 (to be monitored by Her and potentially further reduced if found to be excessive). From this i must pay for all my routine expenses i.e. travel, haircuts, make-up, clothing, entertainment etc as well as saving some money each month to allow me to pay for a new tattoo Owner has chosen for me. Groceries and bills will continue to be paid from our separate joint account. i still have my original current account and credit card but i am no longer am allowed to use these (and access to the cards is restricted) unless Owner explicitly permits me too. These'main'  cards are, however, not kept locked away, i  will still need them when we hire a car for example, or in an emergency etc. However, the principle and practice is now in place that from now on Owner controls my money and i am restricted to receiving a monthly allowance. 

Uniform Update

First a big thank you to those who commented via the blog or direct with ideas and suggestions for uniforms i could/ought to wear at home. Owner really loved some of the suggestions and they gave Her food for thought. She also sought ideas from me. Owner is still mulling some of the uniforms but She has determined what the first uniform i should wear on a regular basis is, namely my work uniform.

As many of you may know i work a lot from home, unlike Owner who has to go into an office every day. i do sometimes have to work at an office but i try to keep this to a minimum as much as i can. Owner believes my place is at home and we try to ensure i work from home as much as possible. Normally when i work from home i wear jeans and a top, actually i also often wear the same when 'in the office' - my organisation is quite relaxed. The only time i am semi-smart is when i am going to external meetings or giving presentations. Of course, at all times my attire is feminine in that all my work clothes are women's albeit i don't wear skirts/dresses at work. i also wear make-up at work and of course my collar is always on. i have never once received any comments from colleagues about this nor has my clothing, make-up or collar ever caused any adverse reaction in meetings/presentations.

However, Owner has decided that, when i work at home i am to wear a uniform. i have a number of smart blouses that very rarely get worn. i also have some smart skirts and a pair of women's suit trousers and a jacket. In addition, this weekend is my birthday - my 46th! i know i am getting some clothes store vouchers from members of my family (i always do) and Owner has chosen a smart skirt, a pair of women's business trousers and some blouses for me to buy with my vouchers. These, together with the smart items i mentioned i already have. will form my working uniform. They will be paired with a pair of ballet flats, that i also currently don't wear very often, and stockings.

i will wear my 'office uniform' at home throughout my working day, only getting changed when i head-out to go and collect Owner from the station when She returns from Her work. This may sound like my blushes will be spared and that people won't see me in my business skirt or in my plunging blouses. They will. First, i often bump into our downstairs neighbour during the day (we share a communal entrance) and second we regularly receive deliveries that need signing for and sometimes have bits of work being undertaken on the flat. All of this happens and is scheduled around when i am working from home. So in short, there will be plenty of people who will get to see me in my new business uniform and whom i will need to interact with.

Unusually, i am actually 'in the office' most of next week and so i will not be able to commence the home uniform wearing until the week after. i will post some pictures of me in my new office uniforms then.

i am really excited at this new development, though also a teensy bit nervous as well at the prospect of meeting people in my smart blouse and skirt. i can't wait to find out what uniform(s) Owner will decide She wants me to wear when my working day is done and i return to being Her housewife.

New Year New Developments

Owner and i would like to wish everyone a belated Happy New Year, we hope you all had a great New Year's eve and that 2016 brings you joy and happiness. Having been apart at Xmas we are spending a wonderful time together in a little cottage hideaway, it really is wonderful.

Today, to mark the start of the New Year, Owner sat me down to review how my development is progressing and to agree how my submission to Her and Her domination of me will further intensify over the next few months. All of this as part of Her training me to become Her perfect wife. i wanted to share with you the outcome of this discussion as there are a number of new ways in which Owner will be further extending Her control of me.

In summary, Owner has decreed the following:

Financial Control - Owner already has significant control over my expenditure. All main purchases i make must be approved by Her and i need to document everything i spend for Her to review. However, Owner will be moving towards assuming total control of my finances (with my full consent), in many respects taking a leaf out of how Her mother completely controls Her fathers finances. Owner suggested moving in stages to this point and so, as an interim measure from now She is going to permit me £100 a month 'allowance' to spend on necessities like travel, going out, clothes etc. This does not include major item expenditure like holidays. Any amount i wish to spend over the £100 in an individual month must be approved by Her. We are looking into getting me a card that can be charged with money for me to use so that i do not need to keep access to my bank card.

New Ownership Tattoo - as a symbol of Owners continued and growing domination of me She has asked me to get a new Ownership tattoo. She has advised that this will be an ankle chain tattoo design. The catch is that i must save up for it from my monthly allowance.

Audit Remaining Household Items and Recycle - we have agreed in the past that our flat will be decorated to Owners taste and that She will be the one who approves what may or may not be bought for the flat. However, there are items that we have which were bought before then and things that Owner no longer wishes for us to have. Accordingly, She has asked me to produce a full audit of all we have which She will the use to identify everything She wishes to have removed and recycled.

Design Household Uniform(s) - Owner wants me to start to wear uniforms at home and has asked to produce ideas for uniforms i could wear when completing/undertaking specific tasks/activities i.e. cleaning, cooking etc. All my ideas are to be submitted to Her for approval and She has encouraged me to consider ways in which i could up-cycle items of clothing i don't often wear into uniforms.

i am really excited at how Owner is continuing to further Her control over me and can think of no more wonderful a way to start a new year than to do so with a discussion about how She plans to increase Her domination of me. i am a truly lucky wife, and a very happy one!

Happy New Year to you all.