Home Sweet Home

This afternoon Owner watched a horror movie called Final Destination:Bloodlines. i started to watch it with Her but it quickly got too much for me too handle, i am a bit of a lightweight when it comes to horror movies whereas Owner loves them. Shortly after the movie started, and after despairing of me trying to hide behind Her so that i didn't have to watch what was unfolding on screen,  Owner sent me to the kitchen where She shut me naked into my new dog cage. She then returned to watch Her film in peace.

In my new dog cage in the kitchen whilst Owner enjoyed Her movie in the lounge

i must admit, i love being shut in this new cage and Owner is very happy with it too. It is so easy to assemble and really lightweight. There is something intensely calming and relaxing about being shut in it. This time i was lucky and was not gagged, cuffed and chained. Owner even brought me some snacks at one point, to eat from my usual dog bowl of course.

Snack time

It may sound a weird thing to say but hopefully on days when my chores have all been done and Owner has tired of me or is not desirous of my company i can simply be sent to my new little 'home', out of Her way. It is also light enough to take with us when we travel should Owner ever wish to.

The morning saw me busy with chores, study, exercises, tasks and providing Owner with a massage. After exercising i received a wonderful and refreshing glass of Owners' piss to re-hydrate me which was swiftly downed with relish.

To my delight i also received my first formal review from Owner using the new performance management system She has adapted to use with me and which i wrote about in my last post. Owner wrote that She had noticed a slight improvement in my performance, which She adjudged to have been 'satisfactory'. However, and to my shame, She then went on to highlight a number of areas in which i was clearly failing, such as having not properly dusted the light fittings and doors or finding spots of limescale on the spout of the kitchen and bathroom taps amongst other things. i swiftly rectified these errors and then duly noted them in my punishment book. 

Amongst the feedback provided by Owner was the following, which hopefully shows that i have been making progress in my submission and service to Her. She wrote:

'poppet has become much more proactive in the past few years, which was always one of my goals, they can anticipate my needs and what I would like to do and this is wonderful to see. I would like them to continue being proactive and come up with their own suggestions and not be afraid to share them with me, I may say no, but you never know!'

Today i also had an opportunity, with Her permission, to leave the flat and go and get a coffee for Owner from the cafe in the local park. It was a chance to show-off the 'Wifey' t-shirt, that Owner bought me a while back, to park goers and the people in the cafe. 

i hope everyone is well and is not feeling too bombarded by posts and updates from me of late!

Performance Monitoring and Checklists

It is obviously important to Owner that i perform well for Her. Likewise, it is vital that i remember to fulfill the tasks and actions directed by Her in order to a) please my Owner and b) progress in my development as Her submissive. This is especially true if i ever hope to be accepted by Her as Her slave, which is my long-term goal.

Over the years Owner has used a variety of training regimes and tools to develop me, my behaviours and performance as Her submissive. Some of these were simple and remain in use, such as the use of a wipe-clean fridge calendar in which instructions can be set for tasks that require completion. i pass the fridge many times a day so i can always refer to the calendar and mark when an item has been completed.

i also used to keep a chore diary which reminded me which household chores needed completing on which day of the week e.g. Monday = bathroom deep-clean, Tuesday = halls and spare room etc, etc. i no longer refer to this diary as these routines have become so ingrained over the years that i know them off by heart. They provide the framework to my week, every week.

Owner also uses dice and cards. These She really likes as, once set-up, they can be used again and again and again without any further effort on Her part. She rightfully takes the view that dominating me must make Her life easier, not create extra work for Her. The dice and cards are perfect in that regard as they can be re-used as often as She wishes. Occasionally, Owner will add a new card or dice face descriptor (She uses large children's dice with blank faces that can be written on) to keep things fresh. The cards determine things as varied as how long i am in chastity for, what outdoor challenges i must complete and where, what acts of pain endurance/slut development etc i must complete and so forth. They have been part of our lives for many, many years and are used on a very regular basis.

Owner has also used other aids for my development. Amongst these have been things such as Trello Boards to set tasks and mark when they were completed and also some rudimentary performance apps that could be used to score/mark how i had done that week. Unlike Owner i never used Trello much outside our relationship and always found it a bit clunky. The performance apps were also a bit hit and miss.

At one point we even considered installing one of those smiley face devices you find in toilets, shopping centres or airport security lounges where you are asked to rate your experience as a user of a facility. In our case it would be for Owner to record Her satisfaction with me and my performance, or otherwise. We still might install one but they are a bit crude and don't offer opportunities for analysis.

Which brings me to this week. 

i had an idea. Might there be some performance management software that Owner could potentially adapt to assist with my training? i was searching online when i stumbled across a free AI-powered programme that is aimed at small/medium-size enterprises. It is as a tool to track staff performance and run appraisals etc. However, the great thing is that you can adapt it and create your own objectives and goals for each 'staff member'. You can require that reports are completed however frequently you like. The programme emails the staff member asking them to rate their performance using the parameters you have set. It also asks the 'staff member' to complete a self-assessment against each objective and then prompts you to provide examples to evidence your own rating and areas you feel that you, as a staff member, need to improve upon. 

The completed 'self-assessment' is then sent to your 'manager' to review, add/correct etc. In our case i am the 'staff member' and Owner is the 'manager'. She can run analysis over time across all areas of my performance after first receiving my own ratings and views on what i was doing well and where i needed to improve.You can also run analytics to identify trends etc.

My immediate thought was, this could be perfect! i quickly sent a link to Owner. She is very excited about it's potential, as am i. Owner applauded me for my initiative in finding it and suggesting it to Her. The programme is called Effy.ai and hopefully it is something that will help with my development. i have already been asked by it to rate my performance, provide evidence and suggest areas for improvement, all of which has now been received by Owner for Her to review and adjudicate at Her leisure.

Hopefully we can embed this programme into our lives and it can become a useful tool for Owner and i to help report, assess, monitor and improve my performance and development. My personal hope is that if, over time, i am able to demonstrate that i am consistently achieving the goals Owner sets for me, then that might serve as a trigger to introduce further controls, acts of service etc into my life and help me progress towards my long-term my goal of being considered worthy of becoming Owners slave. However, even were Owner to grant that i am still a long way off being anything like good enough to be accepted by Her as one.

If there any other performance management tools, techniques or technologies that readers use or have come across that you think might be of interest to Owner please do let me know. i know that i should simply remember to do things when i have been told and that i should do them consistently, repeatedly and to a high standard but in truth i forget and do not listen properly and still have much to improve upon. 

Meanwhile, there are also more low-tech/no-tech tools that can be and are useful. In particular, checklists are always handy. Many industries use them to ensure safety critical tasks are undertaken. They can be just as useful as a means of learning and embedding tasks and routines that Owner expects of me without the hassle of having to constantly remind me until i remember.  i can simply refer to the checklist to ensure all expected tasks are completed until i eventually gets to the point where they have become second nature.

This week i have created two new checklists for myself. One is a checklist to go through immediately before i go to bed i.e. after completing my evening tasks chores (these typically take about 2-2.5hours) and spending quality time in Owners' company.  The other is my first thing in the morning checklist. i realised that i needed such lists when earlier this week Owner suddenly announced that a) She had not got out any clothes to wear into the office today and that b) the top that She wanted to wear was creased and needed ironing!

Upon hearing this news my heart sunk. i knew straight away that i had let Her down. i immediately stopped what i was doing in order to rectify the situation but i realised i was at fault for having allowed the situation to arise in the first place. i should have checked the night before that the clothes Owner wanted to wear to work were out, pressed and ready for Her to put on. i made an entry into my punishment log of my failing but also determined that i needed to create these two checklists to avoid any repetition.

In case of interest the two checklists i have devised are as follows:

End of Day Checklist

• Tidy lounge and ensure all items have been put away
• Set mobile phone(s) to charge
• Check and advise Owner on the predicted weather forecast for next day
• Check for any anticipated transport disruption that may affect Owner the following day (if She is going into Her office) 
• Pick-up all clothing discarded by Owner and sort for washing or putting away.
• Ensure all clothes to be put away are neatly hung/folded with all clothes hangers organised by garment type and correctly aligned
• Ensure that Owners choice of office attire is out, pressed and ready to wear the next day
• Check with Owner what She would like for breakfast the following morning so it can be prepared as soon as i get up
• Prepare sandwiches/salad for Owner, if She will be in the office the following day, and store in fridge
• Ensure all crockery/cutlery is washed, dried and put away
• In wintertime pre-heat Owners side of the bed with a hot water bottle
• Conduct a full and final sweep of the flat to ensure it is neat and tidy 
• Set alarm for the morning

First Thing In Morning Checklist 

• Serve breakfast to Owner
• Place Owners' lunch and reading glasses into Her bag (if She is going into office)
• Complete exercises
• Re-check weather forecast and any actual transport disruption and advise Owner accordingly
• Complete Spanish study 
• When Owner is working from home sweep all floors whilst She is out on Her morning walk - greet Her return by presenting myself kneeling, naked, with my legs legs spread and kiss Her feet
• Hand Owner my mobile phone and, on Fridays the remote control for the electro-clit torture device that will be worn all day
• Shower and then clean bathroom
• Put on make-up and clothes 
• Wash-up and put away breakfast dishes
• Ensure Owner has water and a snack for the morning (when She is working from home)
• Carry Owners bag for Her to railway station if She is working from the office 

Hopefully these checklists will ensure tasks do not get forgotten.

A Tightening Screw

Control and the continued ceding of control over me to Her has long been a cornerstone of the relationship between Owner and i. As the dominant person in our relationship Owner controls many, many aspects of my life and of our lives together. As Her submissive housewife and sex toy it is my place to serve and submit to Her, to make Her life as comfortable as possible, to be by Her side and to do all i can to make myself the best wife i can be for Her. i admit that i still have a long way to go in this regard. At best i might be described as being still very much a work in progress, but i continue to try to improve and become the best submissive housewife to Owner that i can be. The control Owner exercises over me helps me to grow and become the person i strive to be and that Owner deserves. 

i do not resent Her control, i welcome and embrace it. In fact, i want for nothing more than to feel and experience Her absolute control over me, to submit to Her completely. i am extremely lucky in that Owner has long accepted me as Her subordinate, someone to dominate and control and She has displayed great wisdom and skill in strengthening Her control over me and, consequentially, my submission to Her. This did not happen overnight but has instead been the result of an ongoing project. It first began when She seduced and then moved in with me and has gradually accelerated over the following, nearly seventeen, years that we have been together, four and a half of which i have lived as Her legally wedded wife. 

For me, each step on my journey of submission to Owner has been a joy. It has awakened in me a desire to be controlled and dominated further by Her and, as my submission and Her control has strengthened and deepened it has created a bond between us the like of which i could never have imagined possible. What was once idle fantasy has become our daily lived reality and with the passing of time so that lived submission and control has grown in intensity. Yet to me ours is a relationship that feels completely normal. In no way do i or have i ever felt coerced or made to give up my autonomy against my will. Instead, it has felt like a homecoming, like i am finally living the life i am, by my nature, meant to live. A life of surrender to my Owner and control by Her. i have come to learn and appreciate that she truly does know what is best for me and to allow myself to be shaped, moulded and controlled by Her. By giving myself completely to Her i in turn can learn to better serve and submit to Her.

But for us this has not happened overnight. It has been a long, long journey and one which, i hope, still has many more developments in store. Owner and i sometimes joke that we cannot remember what our lives were like before we met and cannot imagine ever going back to living how we did before we knew each other. i for one cannot envisage a life without Her, not simply with Her at the centre of it but of Her controlling all the many aspects of my life that She does. Put simply, i live to be dominated and controlled by Her and the more She does so the happier and more fulfilled i become. Yes sometimes i might still kick back, try to resist but i have come to realise over these years is that although it might not always be easy, what i really, truly want is to be completely dominated by Her. 

For Her part Owner likes to control and dominate me. The longer we have been together the more apparent that has become. Initially i think She held back a little but with time it Her natural dominance blossomed. She stopped trying to be the person She at first thought a dominant woman should look or act like and instead grew into the dominant woman She wanted to become. A unique, strong and beautiful soul. She set about training me and shaping me to make Her own life and my life better through my service and submission to Her and Her control over me.

Owners' control over me takes many forms, some obvious others not. It is more than just sexual in nature. True, one of the first ways Her desire to control me manifested itself was Her insistence that under no circumstances was i to initiate sex with Her. My purpose in bed, as explained by Her to me, was to be Her human sex toy, an object from whom She might extract Her own pleasure at places and times of Her choosing, not mine. It quickly became clear that my penis was surplus to Her requirements. Having no purpose for penetration it was re-branded by Her as my 'clit' and has not been permitted inside Her for a dozen or so years. Whether locked in chastity or not (and She does still like to poke and torment it) my clit has become pointless and redundant. A visible reminder of how much control She now exercises over me and how much i, in turn, embrace and welcome my submission to Her.

Sex and my clit aside Owner controls my daily life in many other ways. She decides what i may or may not have. i am not permitted to make purchases for myself without Her approval. My salary is paid into a joint account (to cover bills etc) from which i receive an allowance of £100 a month. When we go to restaurants Owner chooses what i can eat. Her permission is required before i can post on social media and, if Her permission is forthcoming, She must still approve the content before i post. Owner decides how Her home is run, how it is decorated, where we will go on holiday, what chores i need to do. She does still discuss things with me, asks me for my opinion, will even sometimes let me choose what to watch on TV. However, for the most part it is Her that decides and that, to me, feels exactly as it should be. 

Then there are the countless other little signs of Her control over me. When She says 'tea' She gets a fresh cup of tea, when She says 'water' Her glass is re-filled, 'toenails' and She gets a pedicure. 'hair' and Hers gets done, 'massage' and out comes the oil and lotion and so on. i strive to be attentive to Her needs, to care and look after Her. It is not, however, all one way traffic. When i am unwell Owner takes care of me until i am well enough to return back to my duties and serve Her. She also regularly canes, spanks or beats me, has me clamped, stands me in a corner, sometimes uses me as Her footstool or has me eat from my bowl on the floor, drink Her urine and many other things, including having me permanently marked with symbols of Her authority and control over me. All these things i love to do for Her. if anything i would love for Her to strike me harder, be stricter with me and treat me more harshly so that i might continue to grow and develop in my submission to Her and that She in turn might further extend and exercise Her domination and control over me. i would never have imagined how happy being treated like this could make me feel but it truly is the case that the more i am dominated and controlled by Her the happier i become.

i am, therefore, truly blessed by the fact Owner continues to tighten or strengthen Her control over me. She still finds new ways to exert Her authority and further reduce my ability and opportunity to act or behave autonomously. Two recent developments illustrate this wonderfully. The first of these occurred a month or so ago and saw Owner initiate a new level of control over me. The second is about to start next week.

The first such development is the fact that now, with the exception of when i need to leave Her flat for work purposes or to run errands for Her e.g. to do the shopping,  i am now required to formally seek Owner's permission in writing in order to leave the flat unescorted by Her. For example, if i want to meet friends or family on my own, or do something without Her i now need Her consent. On such occasions i now have to submit a written request stating where, when, why and who i will be meeting and volunteer a punishment to receive in return for being allowed out Her flat by Owner.  When i am allowed out i make sure i am not out for long and that Owner knows where i am and who i am with. Conversely, not that this happens often but i like waiting up for Owner when She goes out. i like when She messages to say that She and Her friends have finished their meal and have gone for drinks. i like not knowing when She will message to say that She is on Her way home so that i might meet Her at the station and carry Her bag for Her whilst She tells me about Her evening. i love the times when She is out enjoying Herself and i am left waiting for Her at home. It feels right that i am at home and She is not.

As Her submissive wife i know that it is important that i spend my time at home where i belong as much as is practicable. i therefore agree that i should only be allowed out unescorted by Her with my Owners' prior permission and that it is right that i be punished in return for the privilege of being allowed out without Her. Owner would, of course, also be perfectly entitled to refuse any requests submitted by me. Any such a refusal on Her part would, in turn, be a powerful reminder to me that i belong to Owner and must do as i am told by Her. Now, had you said to me twenty years ago that i would be at my happiest in a relationship where i had to seek permission to leave the house unescorted other than to go to the shops or to work i would have thought you mad. But here i am and I have never been happier. One of the things i will look forward to when i eventually retire (assuming that one day i am able to) is that i will have one less excuse to be allowed out without Her.

This 'outdoor' rule was only introduced quite recently and within a matter of weeks of it being introduced i became quite unwell with Covid and so was housebound anyway. However, there have been two occasions to date when i have sought permission to leave home unescorted. Both requests were graciously granted by Owner and i was punished accordingly for the privilege. i really welcome this new requirement. It is a clear extension of Owner's control over me and it reinforces my status as Her submissive housewife. It is a powerful reminder that, my place is at home. As my Owner i know She would be fully justified in refusing me permission to leave Her house.

This new 'outdoor' rule felt like quite a significant development in its own right. However, i am really excited to report that Owner is about to combine it with a new 'indoor' requirement as well. Left to my own devices i am prone to becoming lazy and unfocused. Time that i should be spending doing housework, studying Spanish or just generally developing my skills and abilities as Her housewife gets frittered away online etc. Things reached a head just before i became ill when Owner warned me that the situation had become unacceptable and that things would have to change. However, the implementation of the change was then delayed due to my ill-health. Now that i am fully recovered, however, Owner is starting to put Her new 'indoor' plans into action.

The first substantive change She is introducing is that, starting next week, my access to the internet is to be severely curtailed. In future i will only be allowed to go online between the hours of 6-8am and 5-7pm Mondays-Sundays. Outside of these hours i must unplug and put my laptop away and handover my mobile phone to Owner (unless i am out of the house of course). Secondly, again starting next week, i am to study Spanish daily for a minimum of fifteen minutes per day and keep a record of what i have studied. Thirdly, i will only be allowed to watch TV with Owner once i have completed my chores and studies for that day and then only from 9pm onwards, not before. Just as if i want to leave the flat unescorted i must now submit a formal request to Owner in future if I wish to use the internet outside the allotted hours or use my mobile to make a phone call outside these hours or request that i be allowed to postpone that days chores for a particular reason then, once again, i need to seek Owners permission in writing.

The above is all intended to reduce the amount of time that i waste when i could instead be studying or doing housework or other chores. Again, this represents a further extension of Owner's control over me and is one that i greatly welcome. i know that i need to be more focused and learn to be a better and more productive wife for Her and i think this new indoor rule will greatly help with my development.

However, this is not the only change Owner is introducing. To complement the above 'indoor' rules Owner is also revamping my performance reviews. At present She gives me a daily score out of 5 which then gets averaged each month to monitor my behaviour. She has now devised an online assessment (using Microsoft Forms) against which my performance will be scored by Her against a set of fixed criteria. This should result in a more objective and thorough assessment of my performance. Rather than daily this assessment will happen on a weekly basis. Previously my performance score did not result in any consequences for me i.e. i was not punished etc for a low score. Owner has informed me that this will change.

Finally, Owner is actively considering other ways in which She might further extend Her control over me. This includes the possible use of a dog cage for me i.e. something to lock me up inside of, amongst other possible developments. It feels like exciting new chapter in the evolution of our relationship may be beginning. i just hope that i live up to Her expectations. Thank you Owner for controlling me as you do, i am truly the luckiest and happiest person alive.

Data Points and Panties

The eagle-eyed amongst you may also have noticed a new set of statistics appear down the side of my blog in the form pf a 'Performance Rating'. As i have mentioned in the past back in November Owner started to provide me with daily feedback on my behaviour/performance in the form of a daily mark out of five. She emails me my score for every evening. i have taken these scores and then averaged them for the month to display on the blog so that there is a public record of how Owner thinks i have done/behaved that month. Obviously, an average score of 5 out of 5 is what i should be aiming for. At present i am averaging about a 4.6 out of 5.

This feature may or may not be of any interest to anyone but Owner congratulated me on a good use of data and it now sits along side the information about how many days i have been in continuous chastity and how many orgasms i have had each year. Incidentally, on the latter i wonder if i might see these further restricted this year? i had none all year in 2019 but then had four in 2020 and three last year - so i am currently averaging 2.33 orgasms a year. Personally, i think it would be good for my development to keep that average trending down. Perhaps i am odd thinking this, but then whoever said i was 'normal'? :)

Changing subjects, here is a gratuitous photo of me in one of my new pairs of panties

my new knickers

i never know what to ask for when my family say to me 'what would you like for your birthday?' In truth there is little/nothing i actually need and the things i would quite like tend not to be the things one can ask a family member to get, even i have never said, actually yes i'd like a really big butt plug or a pretty new dress! As a result, each year i tend to end up getting vouchers. The advantage of these, at least, is that i can specify the kind of shops i would like vouchers from. Guess what, i always suggest ones that have  women's clothes i like.

Anyway, this year my mum bought me some vouchers for H&M and so, with Owners' permission, i was able to do a little online shopping. Owner, of course, still vetted (and vetoed) some of my suggested purchases and also picked out an item She had seen that She wanted me to wear. To cut a long story short this week i took delivery, courtesy of my mother, of a lovely new skirt, a cropped t-shirt, V-necked sleeveless jumper (also cropped) and some pairs of the lovely knickers i am wearing above

i am very pleased with them and Owner remarked that they look very cute. i also have a new pair of pretty pink slippers, courtesy of my dad.

Meanwhile, in other developments. On Monday Owner required that i complete my evening cleaning chores (cleaning the bathroom from top to bottom) whilst gagged and sniffing Her used panties. i must say i do think i look about as unglamorous as i possibly could, although the scent of Owners' pussy is definitely preferable to the smell of cleaning disinfectant!

me looking like something out of a B horror movie

Tonight, after i have made and then washed up and put away the dinner i need to do some more cleaning chores and then have an hour of study to complete. After that is done and only then will i be able to join Owner and relax with Her. But that won't quite be the end of my tasks. i have been instructed to practice deep-throating Her silver dildo whilst we watch TV together. In short, i have a busy evening ahead but  keeping me busy, useful and learning new skills is all part of my continuous development and training as Owner's wife and slut and to be honest i would not have it any other way.

And We're Back

Owner and i are now back in the UK after our trip to Spain to stay with Her family for New Year and Dia de los Reyes (Three Kings' Day). We both had a great time although it reaffirmed Owner's view that we really should buy a flat out there so that we have our own place to stay, rather than stay with Her parents, both of whom are lovely but Her mother is very much queen of her house and requires that anyone staying in her presence follow her rules to the letter. Owner's mother is a quite remarkable woman and one in whom it is easy to see where Owner gets Her dominant traits from. Not, that i am suggesting She dominates her husband in the same way that Owner dominates me, but she is very much in charge. In fact, all of the women in her family are very strong-willed and independent-minded. Owner has excellent genes in that regard!

It would, however, be wonderful to have our own place out there in which we could stay, if nothing else it might mean we could also be our 'usual selves' with each other. That is not to say that our own Femdom relationship 'switches off' whilst we are staying there, but it does definitely go into 'silent mode'. It would be marvelous to have a place of our own in which i could live according to Owner's rules, rather than her mothers'. 

That said, Owner did continue to rate my performance each day and, except for one day when my performance was ranked as quite unacceptable, i continued to get good feedback from Her. i was also in chastity throughout, as i will remain until at least mid-march when Her dice will decide my chastity state again.

One thing i immediately did, however, when we got back home was, after i had unpacked our suitcases and put the washing on, to re-apply my make-up and put my padded bra back on. Visits to Owner's family are now the only times when i do not wear make-up or a padded bra (having worn both to see my own parents in 2021). Owner did, however, make a passing reference to my feminine nature in the gifts She bought for me as part of Her family's Amigo Invisible ritual that plays out each year at Three Kings when gifts are given 'in secret' to a family member chosen at random at the start of December. It means you don't know who has got you your gifts as you all open them together until the mystery 'invisible friend' is revealed. The only rules of the ritual are that gifts should value approximately fifty euros i.e be affordable for all and not be extravagant.

This year, unbeknownst to me, Owner had got me as Her 'amigo invisible. However, it quickly became apparent to me when i opened my gifts with the rest of her family that they must have come from Owner. The reason? Well, i don't know who else in Her family knows my belly button is pierced and would have thought to get me a pretty piercing, or a gorgeous little coin purse or a pretty but practical rucksac. Not the sort of things all 51 year old men might expect to receive as presents, but ones that were ideal for me and which i loved and was happy to show-off to the rest of Owner's family - including with the new piercing in situ.

Anyway, we are now back in rainy London. i hope 2022 proves to be the year the world finally beats the pandemic and, who knows, perhaps it might also be the one in which Owner and i can start to plan for a place of our own in Spain as well.

Advent

Today marks the start of advent and for me it saw the opening of the first of the advent 'boxes' that Owner has created for me. Each box contains an instruction from Owner that i must follow. Today's instruction, kicking off the 24 day advent period, was that i must attend an online work meeting naked from the waist down. It was a fun one to complete, little were my colleagues to know that, just out of sight, i was sitting there wearing just my chastity device under my blouse. i will be opening a new box each day up until the 24th December. It promises to be a fun month.

Owner also has Her own advent calendar's - a chocolate one and another that i created, so it is not just me that has something to open each day at breakfast.

Owners' advent calendars and my advent box for the day

The instructions inside my advent box

me completing my day 1 advent challenge

In other news, i ended up having a slightly unusual doorstep conversation yesterday. i had ordered a grocer delivery and when it duly arrived i trotted downstairs to take in the boxes of groceries from the delivery driver. i was dressed as i usually am during the day i.e. stockings, skirt, bra, blouse and shoes. The delivery drivers usually tend to be men but last night it was a woman. As soon as she saw me she complimented me on my skirt and we struck up a brief conversation about skirts. Nothing remarkable perhaps about that but it is the first time i have chatted away to a stranger about skirts whilst wearing one.

Meanwhile, my performance rating continue to be quite good. i have received a 5* rating for the past nine days on the trot - writing this probably means i have now sunk my chance of making it ten days in a row.

Anyway, back to advent. Do any other readers have fun traditions or activities that you get up over the Xmas period?

A Glass of Cold Piss and Other Updates

Owner has established a new weekend routine which requires that, on Friday night, i place Her special 'Owners' piss slut' glass into the bathroom for Her to fill the following morning. This then provides me with my first drink of the weekend, a large, nourishing glass of Her nectar. Today we slept in by our standards, we did not get up for breakfast until 7.15am. 

However, Owner had woken briefly during the night as She needed the loo, before She returned back to bed. This meant that when i stumbled bleary eyed into the bathroom there was already a drink waiting for me, a cold amber glass of Her special gift. Cold piss tastes quite different to its more usual warmer cousin but down the hatch it went. Three gulps later and the glass was drained. i do love this new way i start every weekend with a glass of Owner's finest served warm or cold.

What else have i been upto? Well, Monday saw me stood facing the wall, half naked for thirty minutes with a pair of Owner's used knickers on my head as She sat and read Her book. This is the second time She has required this of me, it is actually also a surprisingly good way to decompress at the end of the working day. Here i am, in situ so to speak

Wednesday saw me despatched to collect Owners' prescription from the pharmacy with a butt plug firmly embedded inside me. Meanwhile, Owner has continued to provide me with new daily performance ratings as described in my last blog post. This is still a beta test pilot but i am delighted to say that i have been awarded a number of 5* reviews this week which brings my performance stats to date as

As Owner would be quick to point out, obviously only a 5* performance is acceptable but, i think my average has improved. i received no 3* ratings this past week - the one in the bar chart is from the week before.

Oh, and something quite unique happened this week. For the first time in almost two years i presented for work in front of real people at a conference with a real audience (and one online). During the pandemic i have become very accustomed to presenting online, it therefore felt quite thrilling to present to a room full of real people rather than just to be staring into a Zoom or MS Teams screen. i was, however. determined to stick to my vow of wearing my padded bras to work not just my non-padded ones (as used to be the case). Anyway, the audience got to experience me in my (almost) full glory with my makeup on, nails painted and padded bra on under my blouse. Unlike when i present online, however, i wore trousers rather than stockings and a skirt. i have never worn the latter to work.

As for this weekend, well Owner and i have a little trip to Oxford planned. We have not chosen the best weekend to travel (there is a storm sweeping through the UK at the minute) but there is an exhibition we wanted to see and we decided to make a weekend of it. The hotel we are staying in is quite unique. i won't say anymore in case the storm disrupts our plans but we are hoping it could provide an opportunity for a slightly unique photo shoot. i will, of course, update on our return.

Finally, next week sees the start of December which means the start of the advent calendar. Owner has spent hours creating one for me. i have no idea what it will contain but, if last years is anything to go by, it promises to be great fun with something to nervously look forward to every day.

Beta Performance App

Owner has started experimenting with a new way to provide daily feedback to me on my performance. She is using a combination of a free online survey app, called SurveyHeart and Colour Note (to generate the daily survey reminders).  Every day at 8pm it sends a performance rating request to Her mobile phone. She then gives me a performance rating of between 0 - 5 to reflect my performance that day.

Owner's response is then sent to the same app that i also have installed on my mobile phone. With this Owner and i are able to track and assess my performance over the week. We can use it to ascertain how well or otherwise i have done, monitor trends etc. It also has the benefit of providing me with daily feedback in a form that minimises the amount of time and effort required on Owner's part.

It is still an experiment, Owner only started to use it last weekend. She may choose to discontinue it, or add more questions and details. She may of course also choose to set me punishments or rewards depending on my overall or individual daily ratings. 

It is possible to customise the survey interface. This is how the survey appears on Her mobile

And this is how the app displays my performance over the past week. As you can see, there was one day when i only received 3 out of 5, clearly not acceptable.

It is just an experiment but it could be a potentially useful tool to aid my development.

Meanwhile, i leave you with some pictures taken mid-week of me cooking with my heavy metal butt plug with the furry tail snuggly embedded in my pussy.