Belated Merry Christmas and Happy New year

Just a very brief post to wish everyone who reads this blog a very belated Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. Sorry the posts have tailed off a little this past month, it has been a very disrupted time, what with the builders (who've still not quite finished) etc. However, i hope you've all had a fantastic one. Owner and i have been with our respective families over the festive period but will be re-united tomorrow...i for one can't wait!

Meanwhile, i leave you with a picture of the Christmas cake i baked for Owner.



Big hug and see you all in 2009.

poppet
x

p.s. and nobody mentioned THAT list! :)

Kitchen Installation Chaos

Owner and i have just come out of a period of total chaos - yes we've had a new kitchen installed! Oh god, the dust, the debris, the noise and the hassle such a seemingly simple task can involve when you only live in a one bedroom flat. At one stage the old ceiling collapsed and the builders uncovered a host of additional problems which delayed everything by a week but now it is, almost, done. Once the builders had cleared away i re-painted the kitchen and installed a few more small units/pictures to try and get the place looking pretty again.


But we're both pleased with the results





i'm certainly delighted to have a decent oven at last in which i can bake and prepare nice food for my Owner! The downside, though, of having the kitchen installed, aside from the chaos, is that i have started to slip out again of some of my duties - it being difficult to be a sub slut when you are sharing your flat with builders! The whole episode also left Owner and i very tired and drained and so it has been a struggle to get back into my little routines of service and submission. However, now the kitchen is basically complete i know i have no excuse and so will be working hard to get back to my old submissive self. An added incentive is that i have my next six months appraisal coming up after Xmas and i don't want a repeat of the last disastrous one - especially as i think i had been improving since then.

Everyday Items = Some of the Best Toys

i was reminded this weekend how, no matter how much we may all fork out small fortunes for the latest disciplinary or other implement to hit the market, sometimes cheap and cheerful everyday items can trump them every time. Owner and i went away for the weekend and as we were staying with relatives did not take along any of the usual toys that Owner likes to inflict on me (and if i'm being honest i love too!). However, this morning when we had some time to ourselves Owner soon had me wriggling and moaning in painful ecstasy courtesy of three items that together probably cost little more than a pound. The items in question were two elastic hairbands and a plastic hairbrush. Owner wrapped one hair band through each of my pierced nipples and then pulled them tight and taught and tied them off to each other, before commencing to pluck and play with them. Meanwhile, She used the plastic hairbrush to devastating affect on my testicles, slapping and scratching and generally giving them a good old beating. It was one of the most 'intensely experienced' testicle and nipple torture experiences i have had for a while, and all using cheap everyday items. In these credit-crunched times it is worth remembering that cheap can be extremely effective!

Meanwhile, no further mention has been made by my family of the infamous 'list' i emailed to them (see previous post) - and i'm certainly not about to raise it with them, so let's hope the matter can quietly die away and my embarrassment with it. Although this evening, whilst putting out the recycling in my skirt and blouse, i did rather surprise my neighbour when she came out to do the same and saw me so attired. i do get the sense that i'm probably the only male in the neighbourhood who dresses fem. Mind you, it could have been worse, at least i wasn't wearing my frilly pink, backless and extremely short maid's outfit!

Oooops! - secret's out

Oh dear, yesterday i managed to make a very simple yet very embarrassing mistake. As it is the run up to Christmas i decided i would email a list of some things i would find useful as gifts to my mum, dad and sister. However, my dad very quickly responded saying that he didn't know where he could get a 'cock and ball clamp/stand' from!!

OH no! i sent the wrong bloody list!!! Oh how i wanted the earth to open and to swallow me up. i'd accidentally emailed my family a list containing some of the items that i would love to receive from my Owner, including the aforementioned item alongside a list of women's clothing and accessories that i would like. Oh god, how embarrassing.

Thankfully my family are quite open-minded and my dad's response was very jokey. However, i've not yet heard back from my mum or sister. i have a feeling that i am never going to be able to live down this little episode. Oh well, i guess i could get some interesting presents when i go to stay with my sister for Christmas!

i am someone who likes humiliation....but had never intended it to happen this way.

On a separate note, my learning as Owners submissive continues to develop a pace and i have now got into a steady routine, since my disastrous contract appraisal back in September, of cooking, cleaning, massages etc. i have asked Owner if the list of things that she would like me to do on a daily/weekly basis for Her could be extended further and have put forward some suggestions in the journal that i keep. i shall just have to be patient and wait and see.

Right, off now to start preparing the Christmas cake. Have a good weekend all and remember....check your email attachments carefully before sending them through to your family or vanilla friends!!!!

Halloween or Samhain

Halloween, or as Owner described it the night that Owners get treated and trainee pet's get tricked. Yes, the night of the dead is always a fun and exciting evening and one that Owner and i greatly enjoy. The evening commenced with me dressing up in my Morticia outfit and then preparing Owner some traditional Halloween fayre, 'Soul' cake followed later by 'Colcannon'. After we had consumed some of the cake it was time for trainee pet to follow his Owners instructions for the evening which were wrapped up in little notes adorning our Halloween poster.

The instructions read as follows:

'1 -Samhain is considered a time to eliminate weaknesses, it is advised to write your own weaknesses onto a piece of paper and then burn them

Little pet to do a list of his weaknesses and how he is going to improve them - on his knees and wearing nipple clamps - then hand to Owner

2 -Samhain allows you to come to terms with your past year and leave all your mistakes and regrets behind you, in order to move on. Look forward to what the future holds.

Little pet to be spanked as many times as the number of punishments accrued in the past year (98 according to my punishment book!) - this will allow him to leave his mistakes behind

3 - The name Jack O'Lantern derives from an old Irish tale of a villain who after he died could not enter heaven or hell - a damned soul. So he was condemned to wander the land with only a candle to see his way placed inside a gouged out vegetable to act as a lantern

Little pet to walk up and down the corridor carrying only a candle 10 times wearing his spiked parachute harness and weights suspended - this will necessitate the temporary removal of your chastity device

4- Bobbing for apples was a classic Halloween game. In 'bobbing for apples' girls used to name each apple after a different suitor. The girl would kneel over the tub, shut her eyes, put her hands behind her back and try to catch an apple with her teeth. The one she could bite would be her future husband. A variation was to hang apples from the doorway. The first one to finish eating the apple gets married next

Rather than using a doorway Owner will hang apples from little pet's parachute device.

5 - By candlelight go alone to a mirror and eat an apple before it, whilst combing your hair. Your future lover will be seen in the glass over your shoulder

Little pet will go to the corridor mirror and will eat one of the apples hanging from his parachute...maybe his future love will appear behind him and give him some instructions'

i was so lucky, as predicted Owner appeared in the mirror next to me! She led me back into the kitchen and had me bend over the kitchen table where she fucked me hard and repeatedly with a large dildo whilst also masturbating me and spanking my testicles really hard with a baton - Her halloween ball buster.


Very soon i was moaning loudly like a truly ghoulish slut and begging to be allowed to come. Owner edged me in this manner repeatedly until i thought my testicles would burst and then stopped and instructed me to return to chastity. How wonderfully and deliciously frustrating!

Hope you all had a wonderfully wicked Halloween, or Samhain. i know i did!

Rainy Sunday Accidental Milking

Owner has had me out of chastity over the weekend for some more fun and games. Today was a really wet and overcast day in London, the perfect day for playing indoors. So this afternoon when i had completed my chores Owner and i retired to bed. It wasn't long before Owner had me on all fours beating and slapping my testicles so that i was moaning like a true slut! Owner then proceeded to moisten my pussy lips before inserting one of the large ribbed butt plugs into me. Owners intention was to have me plugged whilst She continued to tease and torment me, but events proved otherwise. No sooner had the plug sunk all the way in and Owner had started to tap and twist the base than....oh my what's that drizzling out of me!

Yep, yours truly was leaking semen uncontrollably in a steady stream onto the bedding. It is a weird feeling when you are milked either intentionally, or as in this instance, unintentionally. It is not at all like an orgasm, just a constant drizzle flowing out of you. Needless to say i was quickly made to lick up my mess from the covers.

However, today must have been my lucky day because after i had been accidentally milked this way i was left hornier than i thought possible...i even began eyeing the bed posts with unnatural interest as Owner pleasured herself against me. Then Owner returned her attention to me and began repeatedly slapping and masturbating me until i was urgently requesting permission to come, and to my surprise and delight i heard those magic words; "yes come like a slut" - which i duly did all over my thighs and stomach! Owner scooped up some of my mess with her fingers and had me lick them clean before instructing me to lick up the puddle on the bed clothes. What a truly wonderful way to spend an afternoon, but it is now back to chastity time again.

Why i Love The Weekend

It may seem an obvious thing to say, after all who amongst us that works Monday-Fridays is going to not like the weekend? However, for me the weekend is extra special as that is the time when i am expected and able to dress in feminine attire the whole time. Yep, Friday night sees the nail varnish go on and the nervous excitement build at the prospect of public outings in make-up and pretty clothes. i get butterflies in my stomach just thinking about it, but each time gets a little easier than the last and Owner has been encouraging and supporting me to increase my feminisation in public.

When i first started being 'forcibly-femmed' - by that i mean not just wearing pretty panties under everyday work clothes (something i do everyday and have done for some years) but wearing something that is visible to the public i was totally terrified. i can still remember the time Owner took me to a restaurant (it was my birthday) and mid-way through the meal produced a bag and instructed me to go to the toilets and put on the contents - make-up - i was mortified. i did, of course, do as instructed but didn't dare to meet anyones eyes and was a nervous and embarassed squirming wreck - albeit in a good way! i had discussed with Owner my interest in being femmed and this was my public introduction. That was followed by other little public 'challenges' - going to the shops wearing make-up or having to purchase feminine items designed to embarass me, such as try on high heels in a busy shop etc.

However, now being femmed and being able to dress feminine in public is something that i actively look forward to - although the nerves are still there, just less. Now every evening after work i put on make-up and dress pretty and sluttily for Owner, but it is only really the weekend when i get to promenade in public with Owner. It's been fascinating, from my own perspective, to see how much more confident i have become - more so than i ever felt possible - and i believe this new-found confidence has also manifested itself positively in other areas of my life. So the weekend is now a time to look forward to and relish and to put my best foot forward, hold my head high, look other Londoners in the eye and say to myself - 'i don't care what you think of me or how i look, my Owner loves me, i love her and am happy with how i am, deal with it!'

The only thing that i haven't yet tried or been asked to try by Owner is wearing a skirt in public - other than to an event. My outdoor femme experience is still limited to full make-up, pretty tops, collar, heeled boots and women's jeans i.e. no skirts to date. i hope one day that Owner will request that too. i'll be a nervous wreck again but am now confident i could do it and once done once, well as they say...a slut does like to be seen in a skirt.

Tease and Denial

Owner has been having a lot of fun with Her trainee pet lately, indeed so much fun that he feels as if he is in a state of almost permanent arousal, which is a wonderfully frustrating state to be in! The reason for my current heightened state of arousal is two-fold;

1) Owner has recently taken to slapping and spanking my testicles on a regular basis. It is a strange sensation to have your testicles regularly and repeatedly struck, although the first blows are invariably uncomfortable and your body naturally tries to move away from the source of the sensation/discomfort by about blow number 5 something strange and altogether unexpected begins to happen. You (or at least i) begin to move your hips forward and spread your legs wider so that your testicles are even easier to access. By the time Owner has finished this little slut is driven wild with desire, moaning loadly with hips thrust forward, legs spread far apart and dangerously close to orgasm (something he knows he is not allowed to do) and all from just being struck repeatedly in the testicles.

2) Owner recently purchased a new toy as a gift for Her trainee pet to help train his pussy and keep it nicely stretched for Her. The gift in question is a wonderful Baroque solid metal butt plug from the lovely people at tickleberry

The plug is really quite heavy and large and is an excellent means for Owner to get Her trainee pet purring. The plug combined with the testicle spanking drive this little slut wild, and last night Owner combined the two sensations with the added sensation of clamping my nipples with clover clamps, having me grip the chain in my teeth and then pulling my head right back so that the chain on the clamps was pulled extremely tight. Just to make sure Owner then grabbed my nipple rings and began twisting and pulling them hard in between spanking my testicles.

All of the above was a part of a punishment which had also seen me released temporarily from chastity and made to masturbate with an exfoliating mitten. As Owner spanked and twisted Her trainee pet was commanded to masturbate for Her amusement until on the edge of orgasm and then stop before being ordered to commence again. With each passing minute my moans were getting louder and louder. This continued for some time as Owner judged how close She could get me to orgasm without actually granting me permission. It was amazingly intense and i was so frustratingly aroused i feared that even the merest extra twist of a nipple could lead to unfortunate consequences!

i was wearing a pair of crotchless 'stocking-style' tights and Owner then proceeded to employ them to great affect as a 'holster' for her vibrator. She slid the vibrator between my buttocks and the waist of the stockings and then effectively rode me for Her pleasure. Needless to say this left me in an even more frenzied state of arousal at which point i was instructed to return once again to chastity.

i truly adore being left in this state, it can last for days on end with me hopelessly, uncomfortably and frustratingly aroused. In fact, Owner often likes to use me as a 'prop' for Her own pleasure and it truly is wonderful to be able to serve Her and please Her in this way.


i am an extremely lucky trainee pet and want nothing more than to be able to continue to serve my Owner and be trained by Her.

Belgium - boring? NO!

Well, despite my best efforts i didn't get offered a part by Owner in Her 'Plan 9 For Spoilt Pets' production. However, She did state that She was impressed by my slutty creativity and so invited me to a 'Playpet' photoshoot in Belgium.

Confused? well this is a wonderful example of the kind of fun creativity Owner loves to inject into our FLR relationship. A few months ago Owner was working hard for a course and i helped Her as best i could, proofing Her essays, suggesting some minor revisions etc. As a thank you Owner booked the two of us to spend a weekend in Bruges in Belgium. This in turn developed into a new idea of Hers, namely a 'Playpet' photoshoot with me posing for slutty pictures in the hotel and in the streets of Bruges and Brussels.

The following are some of the photos that Owner took:

Hotel bedroom slut

Hotel garden slut

Happy slut on bridge in Bruges

Nervous Slut in 'Parc de Bruxelles' in Brussels

As you can see we both had a fantastic time in Belgium, the weather was perfect and we treated ourselves to chocolates and beer. Both Brussels and Bruges have lots of pretty places to visit and a wealth of history to explore. They also have some fabulous shops. The highlight of the trip for me though was that Owner granted me permission to buy my first bra. Owner chose a matching bra and panties set which i absolutely adore. i hope you will agree that they are divine?

What A Weekend

This weekend Owner and i celebrated our 3rd anniversary with a return trip to our favourite London hotel, and the location where we first kissed. Needless to say we had a fantastic time. Owner played a wonderful game with me which had me blindfolded crawling across the hotel bedroom floor on all fours with Owner caning and spanking me and then ultimately fucking me with her strap-on.



Then when we returned home it was time for for my audition for 'Plan 9 for Spoilt Pets'



First i had to audition for a role as a zombie slut, this was my interpretation:





Then i had to demonstrate my ability to convey emotion in a scene, this was me showing my adoration for my Owner:











This was followed by me auditioning for the role of Slut Vampire Victim, my attempts were pretty feeble but here is one of my poses

After this i had to attach a tower of pain to my nipples and prepare for the pain endurance test. This involved being spanked 80 times with Owners favourite leather paddle and having metal clamps attached to my testicles whilst still wearing the tower of pain nipple clamps.

To round off an absolutely fantastic weekend i gave Owner a pedicure and foot massage. Who said that being a submissive is all hard work, it can be great fun too!!