Training and Development Update and a Punishment

Some of you may be wondering what has happened with the current stage of my training and development by Owner. You may recall that Owner set out Phase 4 of Her 'Plin, Plan, Plon' - what She calls my training and development programme - just before Christmas. It was due for review in April this year to assess whether or not, in Her judgement, i had made sufficient progress to move onto the next level of development as Her wife.

With Owners earlier health scare and a couple of other things happening in 'real life' Owner kindly agreed to extend the period in which She expects me to complete the plan. In Her own words;

'the plin plan plon, which should have been completed by now it is not completed and will have to be extended. It will be extended until Owner is happy with every area. I am understanding of the situation and I don't want to make this plan to be ruled only by deadlines. Pet's development is the most important part of this plan and if more time is required to implement all the learning this is not a problem'.

i have now completed most of the outstanding items and Owner has given me a series of deadlines throughout June in which to complete the last ones. We then go on holiday for a fortnight and so it will be mid-July when Owner will make a decision as to whether i can proceed to the next level of my training and, if so, what that will involve. i am extremely grateful to Owner for granting me this extension and i hope to prove myself worthy of further training by Her.

In the meantime, i am in receipt of a punishment from Owner for three instances in which i did not meet Her expected standards when it came to meal preparation. Knowing how much i enjoy wearing make-up and feminine clothes Owner has decreed that, as from tomorrow, i will be forbidden to do so for a period of two weeks. i know that i have done wrong and i thank Owner for Her punishment and will work hard to ensure that there is no repetition of my misdemeanour. Owner has rules and expectations She expects me to follow at all times. i know what these are and, therefore, there is no excuse for failing to comply with them. i am truly sorry.

Eurovision and Anniversary Weekends

Owner and i have had two really enjoyable weekends. Last weekend we travelled to Vienna to experience the Eurovision Song Contest in the host city. i have never been to Vienna before and we both had  a wonderful time. Eurovision is the only TV programme that i watch, i am quite a fan!

This year is Owner and my tenth anniversary year and so Owner treated me to a trip to Vienna to experience the contest. Although the weather was rather damp we had a fabulous time. The trip got off to a flying start when we bumped into the legendary Irish host Graham Norton in baggage reclaim in Vienna airport. He was absolutely charming and very kindly let me take a selfie with him. He was sporting a vote yes badge for the Irish referendum on gay marriage and i was thrilled to hear the results the next day when Ireland voted to legalise gay marriage by a resounding majority in the referendum they held on the issue.

Anyway, back to the song contest. Owner and i did not manage to get tickets for the indoor event and so instead we experienced the whole thing in the public viewing area in front of the Rathaus surrounded by a happy and enthusiastic crowd of Belgians, Austrians, Russians, Germans, Australians (who were granted a one-off entry this year). Georgians, Brits, Spaniards, French etc, etc. It really was a wonderful experience and i can't thank Owner enough for organising it for me. Her wife was in her element!

We also had a chance to explore some of the city's historic buildings and museums. It was a fantastic trip and you can see some pictures from it below:

The day before the big final

Sculpture in front of Karlskirche

The Gloriette in the grounds of Schloss Schonbrunn

The big night

The crowds in front of the big screen

Today is Owner and my 10th anniversary. Yesterday, as we do every year, we went back to the restaurant we ate in near Bond Street tube station the day we first met in person (we'd met and chatted online a month or two previously). As is now our custom, Owner chose and ordered our meal for us - a delicious pizza with salad. Here i am in the restaurant:

After eating we went shopping together and Owner bought me a wonderful new front-opening bra and also let me buy a new pair of jeans. Then we headed to one of our favourite pubs for a couple of drinks and a spot of people watching. Of course, being a bit of a tart, i couldn't resist doing a quick flash (though this is just the bra i happened to be wearing that day, not the new one)

This morning, over breakfast, we exchanged our anniversary cards and gifts. i bought Owner a jewellery box

and She bought me this beautiful Tiffany silver infinity bracelet,

it really is gorgeous.

We celebrate our main anniversary in October, which marks the moment Owner first kissed me and we went from being friends to something a lot more special. This year we will be spending that anniversary back in the eternal city, Rome. We can't wait.

Oh, and talking of jewellery. Owner also permitted me to order a nipple hugging ring a few weeks ago, It took a couple of weeks to arrive but it came in the post this week. Here you can see it in situ.

What A Day

This morning Owner provided Her wife with a wonderful ruined orgasm. First She pleasured Herself with Her vibrator and had yours truly play with my own little clitty before She rubbed Herself against it with Her wet pussy and vibrator. She then applied Her vibrator to the head of my clitty and then withdrew it and re-applied it to Herself just as my little clit got over-excited and spasmed helplessly into thin air.

Then after breakfast as i was completing my morning exercises Owner again left me with a delicious glass of Her pee to down when i had finished. i was quite worn out by the time i had completed my exercises and so it was with great delight that, once again, i was able to down Owners wonder fluid in one. We have now agreed that we will always keep a glass next to the toilet so that Owner has a glass to hand whenever She feels like having Her wife drink Her piss.

Next we headed out (it was another lovely day here in London) to Greenwich Park. Owner requested that i complete another challenge. We have a little routine for this which comprises me drawing a challenge out of a bag full of slips of paper, each of which contains a challenge which is always hanging from the door of our fridge (no idea why it is there). it is a kind of lucky dip - neither of us ever knows quite what i will end up having to do. Anyway, today i drew out a 'wearing a dress in public challenge' (yippee!). Owner suggested we should complete it in the park and that i should wear my wedding dress without wearing either panties or shoes. You can see how i got on below, it was great fun to do!

posing in front of the spring blossom

look, no panties or chastity!

It was a wonderful photo shoot to complete and Owner congratulated me on how i did not appear shy at all and happily stripped off and got changed in the park, albeit with a little difficulty, as you can see below

struggling to remove my panties!

Photo shoot completed we then continued on for a lovely walk, which included a pit stop for ice cream and then later for cider/beer and people watching. It really was a wonderful day.

Sports Supplement

This morning as i was coming to the end of my morning abs and butt workout Owner stuck Her head around the door and announced that She had prepared a drink for me, and placed a glass of Her warm, fresh pee down on the worktop. What a wonderful surprise! Less than a minute later, with the last of my exercises completed, i eagerly swallowed Her drink down in one. Personally speaking i can't think of a better way to end a workout.

Meanwhile, i have also acquired a new skill which Owner seems to be pleased with, namely hair dyeing. Owner has very long hair and sometimes struggles when touching up Her roots. However, on the last few occasions i have dyed Her hair for Her and She seems pleased with the results. She has even asked me to investigate a basic hair cutting course for me to complete so that Her wife can help Her maintain Her style.

As i draft this (for Her later approval or otherwise) Owner has gone out to meet-up with former colleagues for lunch. In the meantime, i have some knitting to keep me occupied and then i need to do a couple of errands in the shops before i head across town to meet-up with Her again. i hope you all have enjoyable weekends.

Hard Clit Spanking

This evening after work Owner administered a hard clitty spanking, delivering 120 strikes across and against my exposed bits. The spanking was a consequence of my having the privilege of being able to sniff Her used panties on four occasions last week, Owner has a rule that each tie She permits me to sniff Her used knickers i receive 30 spanks on my clitty in return.

This afternoon Owner instructed me remove my chastity device and tie a bow around my clitty so it looked pretty in preparation for its beating. Then when we had both returned home from my having met Her at the station She instructed me to strip and lie on the bed as She disappeared to the bathroom. To my delight She returned with a fresh, warm glass of Her urine which She handed me to drink, confessing as She did how much She enjoys preparing Her special drinks for me, as to do i love drinking them!

Infact, to side-track for a minute i cannot enough say how much i enjoy drinking Owners pee. It comes in a variety of different colours, flavours and aromas, from crystal clear to golden and complex. i would love to be able to have a glass every day and become a true connoisseur. Today's was a golden honey in colour and delicious. i downed the glass as if it were my first drink in days.

But back to the clitty spanking. Before commencing Her attack Owner took a picture of my clitty adorned with its ribbon

And then mid-way through delivering the 120 strokes with Her leather fly swat - Owners current favourite implement for spanking my clitty - you can see it resting against my face in this picture below

See how excited i become! Owner made sure, however, that there was no unfortunate accidents by me and would have had me return straight to chastity were it not for the fact that i developed a bit of a bruise on my clit which She wants to inspect in he morning before i am locked back into chastity again.

It was particularly gratifying to me how Owner seems increasingly comfortable and happy to deliver hard spankings, She really had me squirming in pain this time round. It is great to see Her continue to become ever more confident in Her willingness to hit Her wife where it hurts hard, and repeatedly. Thank you Owner.

On a final note. Owner ended the session by asking if i was working from home tomorrow to which i replied i was. She then asked what i would be doing. When i replied that at one point i would be running a webinar with some colleagues She immediately told me that She wanted me to be naked wearing just my chastity device and a butt plug for the duration of the webinar. What a lucky wife i am!

Barbie Goes Walkies

Today was a lovely day here in London town and so Owner decided we would go for another Thames walk after lunch. This time we walked from our flat across to Greenwich and then down under the foot tunnel to Canary Wharf and along to St Katherine's Dock near Tower Bridge. A walk of approximately 9 miles.

We also incorporated a little challenge for me along the way, namely that i would walk the length of the Greenwich foot tunnel in a pair of heels. i am delighted to say i completed this to Owner's satisfaction (see below). As it was a warm day i wore my 'barbie' t-shirt. Now there once was a time when just wearing this combination would have been a challenge in its own right, not anymore - again as you can see. Anyway, below are the photos Owner took of me on the walk together with a  little video

'Barbie' in Greenwich Park

Mmmmm ice-cream!

Putting on my red heels in the tunnel

Heels on - actually i think they look quite good with my skinnies

 

Queueing for the lift at the other end

Back on the surface - shoes still on

enjoying a non-alcoholic cocktail in a bar at the end of the walk

And here's a little video of part of my tunnel walk, it's a little out of focus i'm afraid.

It was a thoroughly enjoyable afternoon. However, we both returned home (by public transport - that was enough walking for one day!) a little jaded and so Owner has postponed the clitty spanking i am due until tomorrow. She has, however, instructed me to return to chastity - i have not been locked-up for the past two months.

River Thames Walks With Owner

These past two weekends have seen Owner and i enjoying a couple of great walks along parts of the River Thames in London. Last weekend we did an 8 mile round walk from Richmond down to Teddington Lock and back again. It was a really enjoyable day and lovely to be out having a good walk again. Here are a couple of pictures Owner took of yours truly on the day;

Enjoying an ice-cream by Teddington Lock

Posing By The Riverside at Richmond

Then yesterday we did a shorter 4 mile walk from Putney Bridge down to Barnes. This was the first time we have ever walked this particular stretch of the river. It was really enjoyable and i even was able to do a quick challenge along the route, namely to caress myself in public against an inanimate object. You can see some pictures Owner took below:

Posing with my new blouse, which i adore

mudlarking in the Thames

Commencing my challenge

Walk completed it was time to pop into a pub in Barnes for a quick drink (diet coke for me) before heading back home.

i do love my new blouse

Last week i also had to travel to Belgium for a day and a half for work. This is absolutely the last time that i hope to be apart from Owner over night for a long while as we both hate it. However, Owner had a special treat in store for me. She left the panties She had worn on our 8 mile Thames walk last Sunday in my suitcase and then permitted me to periodically sniff them whilst i was away. However, the catch is that Owner has a rule that whenever She lets me sniff Her used panties i must, in return, be spanked on my clitty. As a result i have 120 clitty spanks to look forward to, ouch!

What To Wear?

The wonderful Mistress Marie left a comment recently asking whether i wore feminine clothes and make-up all the time, even when with relatives? Though i responded i thought the question of what we wear and when was an interesting one. Owner and i also discussed the question of clothing last night whilst we were out together, albeit this time talking about how Her attire is very different from that which women are so often depicted wearing on Femdom websites etc. The subject of clothing is what prompted this post.

What i Wear and When

Nowadays, with very few exceptions (which i shall come onto), i always wear women's clothing and full make-up, my nails are always painted, my shoes and coats are all women's ones and my underwear (if i am wearing any) is women's. My body is also accessorised with women's jewellery, rings, bangles, necklaces, ear-rings, a waist chain, nipple and belly jewellery, and of course my metal collar. My haircut is an androgynous one.

It wasn't always thus. When Owner and i first met i was the epitome of the Marks and Spencer's man (my apologies to non-UK readers for whom this may not mean anything). i always wore boring male clothes - usually dark jeans coupled with brown shoes and a brown or dark green jumper/top. My wardrobe, such as it was, was minuscule and very, very dull.

In contrast, the other week i was presented with an award at an event at work. The invitation said the dress-code was 'smart-casual'. i wore bright red trainers, black skin-tight jeggings and a pink blouse coupled with a white lace bra and panties and my usual make-up and jewellery. The other men all wore suit trousers, black shoes and a shirt. The women were rather more adventurous. Ten years ago i would have worn exactly what the men there were wearing. Soon after that i might have risked wearing women's underwear under my 'male' attire. Five years ago all of my clothing would have been female and my collar would have been in view. A few years ago you would also have seen some make-up on me if you'd looked closely. In short, how i dress now is very different from how i once did.

It is only very rarely that i will wear a dress or skirt in public but doing so doesn't fill me with terror as once it did. My attire is feminine but fairly androgynous. i don't try to pass as a woman but i don't dress like a man either. But i am very comfortable and happy with how i look - whatever that look may seem to others. Whereas once Owner used to be able to successfully punish and humiliate me by making me wear make-up in public now one of Her most effective punishments is to refuse to let me wear any make-up at all!

There are a few specific occasions though when i don't dress like that, when the make-up is voluntarily absent and you when you will find me wearing a male top (though still with women's trousers, shoes, underwear and all my jewellery on) and that is when we go to Spain to visit Owners parents and family. i suspect it would not bother them at all really if i did turn-up one day in the arrivals lounge at the airport wearing make-up and a blouse, but i can't imagine i ever would. It is not something i feel a need to do (i.e. i don't feel the need to look a bit feminine in every situation in life) and i wouldn't want to cause Owner any embarrassment either. She has been incredibly supportive and accepting of the fact that the man She first met all those years ago looks quite different from the wife She now has. It is Her that chooses or approves all of my clothes purchases, buys me make-up etc. In short, She couldn't have been more accepting of my femininity. But Her family has never seen or known me as that so why (for the sake of one or two weeks a year) make an issue out of nothing - i am happy to be in 'boy' mode in Spain.

That said, on one of my first trips to Spain soon after Owner and i first moved in together we arrived during one of the festival weeks. It was expected that you had to go out into town in fancy dress. Of course, the character i chose was female (Morticia) and so got to not only wear a dress tat night but also had Owner and Her sister do my make-up.

With my own parents and sister things are somewhat different. i make no attempt to wear 'boy' clothes (the couple of boy tops that are the only remaining males clothes i have are for Spain alone these days) and tend to either tone down my make-up or not wear any (if i am staying over i don't bring any with me). My parents have, however, seen me wearing make-up. Both have, on occasion, commented that i look a bit feminine but neither have ever made it an issue and, the last two Christmases the tops that my sister has bought me as presents have been women's tops.

In short, whereas my feminisation started 'forcibly' it very, very quickly became something that, to me at least, is completely normal. i love wearing women's clothes and make-up and, on the whole, think nothing of it. i don't look like a woman and don't try to pass as a woman but enjoy trying to look what Owner describes as 'pretty'. That said, i will and do revert to a sort of 'boy' mode on very rare and very specific occasions.

It seems funny to look back and think about how terrified i once used to be at being made to wear make-up. To illicit the same horrified (but fascinated) response now would entail being told that i had to go out and walk around in nothing but lingerie and a see-thru plastic coat. Maybe just like one of these that you can buy in Top Shop. Now there's a delicious thought!

Owners Outfits

If you believe the Internet then all dominant women in 24/7 Femdom/FLR relationships always wear tight leather/rubber skirts and corsets and stockings and heels, right? This is an unending source of annoyance for Owner who, though She does own and occasionally wear such outfits, is much, much, much more likely to be administering discipline and punishments or teasing and tormenting Her wife wearing something comfortable and practical.

At home Owner is most likely to be found in a pair of fluffy slippers, tracksuit bottoms and a loose top. In bed She wears pyjama trousers and a t-shirt and out of the house She will normally always be found in jeans, and a blouse or other long-sleeved top. If anyone at home is wearing a short skirt, heels and no knickers or a lace nightie in bed it is me, not Her. i suspect Owner is far from being alone in dressing like this. Quite rightly She wears what She likes and feels most comfortable in - just as She chooses what clothes She likes for me.

However, the Internet is replete with images of Dominant women that are essentially just male fantasies. What annoys Her most is where depictions of supposedly 24/7 Femdom relationships also have the Dominant woman wearing the same types of clothes. Maybe there are such couples out there where the woman always looks and dresses that way but i imagine the reality is closer to how Owner dresses. It is a shame that there are not sites or images that depict this as Owner, i know, initially struggled at the start of our relationship with thinking that She somehow ought to dress and look very differently to that She was comfortable with. This isn't to say that She doesn't sometimes dress-up in Her most alluring and glamorous lingerie, She does. But not on a day-to-day basis as some sites would have you believe is how a Dominant woman should always look. Dominance is a state of mind, it is not a look.

i am conscious that this is a much longer post than normal so thanks if you have managed to read right down to the end and please do let me know any thoughts or comments you may have.