That Friday Feeling

Today has been quite a day. First-off Owner allowed me to go and sunbathe in our local park during my lunch break. Then, later in the afternoon She caned my backside using a new cane that i bought for Her. Finally, whilst i deep-throated one of Her dildo's Owner fucked my loose pussy with Her monster dildo. 

As She fucked me Owner reached down and caressed and slapped my unlocked clit causing me to soon start to moan like the slut i am. In fact, all week Owner has made full use of the fact that i have been out of chastity and has, on a number of occasions, teased and toyed with my clit. Today, just as She did on those other occasions She stopped as soon as i started to get aroused. i was left with a well stretched and very wet pussy and a throbbing, frustrated clit. Is there a better feeling in the world?

Accordingly, as i go into the weekend ready to be locked back into chastity i do so as someone who last orgasmed almost two months ago. What a wonderful way to start the weekend, sore, happy and denied. Thank you Owner.

Here are some scenes from my day

sunbathing in my lunch break in our local park

my bottom and the backs of my thighs painted red by Owners' cane

deep-throating a dildo as Owner prepares to fuck me

you can see the size of this dildo compared to Owners' hand

I have to say, i do love having this big cock of Owners' inside my hungry hole!

Piercings and Piss Drinking

Owner permitted me to order a new pair of nipple rings at the weekend and they were delivered today, yay! The rings themselves are bigger than my handcuff rings although the gauge is the same (14g if interested). They each have a pink sapphire gem ball closure which i think is quite pretty. It is nice to have an alternative pair of nipple rings to wear. Their size means that they would be quite easy to attach weights etc to them if required.

This is what they look like in situ

my new pink sapphire nipple rings

Today Owner had to go into Her office whereas i was working from home. On such occasions i always walk with Owner to the station so that i can carry Her bag for Her, i then meet Her at the station when She returns so i can accompany Her, and carry Her bag, back home. As i was accompanying Owner back to our flat at the end of Her day She declared that She really needed to pee.

Imagine my delight when, a few minutes after we got home, Owner emerged from the bathroom with my bowl quarter filled with Her wonderful golden nectar. i was already half-undressed, wearing only my bra, knickers, stockings and suspenders, when i prostrated myself in front of my bowl and eagerly drained it of Her gift. i sucked and slurped the contents down like the eager piss-drinking slut i am and then licked the bowl clean.

It was a lovely way to start the evening. When done i spent some 'catch-up' time with Owner before preparing dinner, then washing-up and doing my chores.

Enjoying Owners' gift of a quarter bowl of piss

Slurp, slurp, slurp

licking the last drops clean

Bottoms up!.

A Rare and Unusual Sighting

No, i am not referring to the fact that today i walked around our neighbourhood with a pair of Owners' used panties on my head...more on that later. i am referring to the fact that yesterday, for a short period of time, i had a full erection.

You can tell what a rare occurrence it is for my little clit to actually get properly (by its standards) hard by the fact that i am writing a blog post about it. This is, in part, because Owner has made it quite clear that She no need of what She has calls my 'clitty'.  The only sexual organ of mine She requires is my tongue. My clit is not needed and is never, ever used. It has not been inside Her for over a dozen or so years.  My clit has become entirely redundant, a state of affairs that to me feels completely normal, natural and appropriate. i have become, what could be called, a born again virgin. 

As befits something that is redundant my clit spends most of its time locked securely away in a miniature chastity device, one so small as it ensures it is unable to get fully erect even if it wanted to. It does, of course, occasionally swell and grow a little inside its cage but a full erection is an impossibility. As a consequence i think it has learnt, over the years, to almost give up trying.

In fact, so used to being so confined has it become that even when it is unlocked, which Owner loves to sometimes do as She enjoys tormenting it, it remains resolutely tiny, flaccid and limp. The most it will generally ever does is swell a little bit. But what about when i touch or stimulate it when i am out of chastity i hear you ask? Well the answer is simple, i do not. Just as Owner does not use or need it for Her own pleasure, so too have i come to ignore it.

In chastity or out it is not unusual for me to feel horny and aroused. In fact, the longer it has been since Owner last drained me of semen then generally the hornier i become. This goes some way to explaining why i personally would choose to be kept permanently denied being allowed to orgasm, much as i might momentarily enjoy the rare occasions when i am permitted to ejaculate. However, whereas some people might masturbate in order to 'scratch their itch' this is not something i would even consider as an option, even when i am unlocked. Masturbation can lead to orgasm, which is not allowed. Instead, when i feel horny the most that i will do is push up my bra and caress my nipples or perhaps lightly spank my labia, no more. My clitty remains untouched and so rarely ever gets 'hard'. Quite the opposite of my nipples in fact which, unlike my clit, are quite big and plump and stiffen quickly and easily at the slightest touch.

So, the fact that i had what can only be described as a little 'hard-on' yesterday was very rare indeed. What caused my minor erection was that, under Owner's supervision, i was fucking my pussy with one of Her larger dildo's whilst at the same time She was gently striking my uncaged clit with a selection of Her canes and crops. My labia were already throbbing and sore from having having earlier had 20 mini wooden pegs attached to them and after which they were spanked one hundred times with Her leather fly swat whilst the mini wooden clothes pegs were still in situ. It was a painful experience and one that had left my clit and labia sore and throbbing. Accordingly, when Owner then began to cane my clit as i pumped Her large brown dildo in and out of my pussy my clit responded and started to stiffen.

It was, and is, an odd-sensation to see something come to life that spends most of its existence in a dormant state. It was a physically pleasurable experience, albeit one that also felt not quite right (more of that later), and i was soon starting to breath a little heavily as She brought Her canes down against my swelling flesh whilst i pushed Her fake brown cock deeper into me. i was positioned on my back on the sofa, legs spread and knees bent with Owner stood to one side so that She could more easily strike my clit and i could fuck myself. This continued for a short while and the more She struck my clit the harder and stiffer it became until it eventually grew to its full four inch potential..

Owner could tell by that point that i was clearly starting to get excited and aroused, always a dangerous thing. Although She does occasionally permit me to cum this is restricted to just a few times a year as it really is no good for me and my behaviour to be allowed to cum that often. Personally i think that never being permitted to ejaculate might really be best for me, however, Owner likes to occasionally force an orgasm out of me, possibly because of the noise i make when i do cum 'loudly like a whore' as She describes it. However, this was not to be such a time and my current run of just over 50 days since my last orgasm was not about to come to an end. Sensing my growing arousal Owner stopped caning and instructed me to stop fucking myself. Out of my pussy slipped the dildo, away went the canes and crops. After i finished cleaning up She instructed me to trim Her toe nails.

So yesterday was one of the (very) rare occasions when my little clit got hard. It was especially memorable because Owner allowed my clit to get fully hard before She stopped, making the denial that followed that much sweeter. However, seeing my clit like that also felt odd, wrong even. i am so used to seeing this tiny little thing (often hidden in its cage) that the sight of it was strange, almost as if i was looking at someone else's cock, albeit a small one. i have got to the point mentally where i don't really associate myself as having one anymore and it has long ceased to serve any purpose. It is totally redundant other than a toy for Owner to sometimes tease and play with. God, how i am rambling on!

i guess what i am trying to say is that my 'happy place' is very much one in which i am kept in a state of aroused denial. Orgasms do not do me any good and i always feel somewhat disappointed if and when i am permitted to cum, as physically enjoyable as that might briefly be 'in the moment'. It also feels wrong to see anything other than my little chastity device or a limp, flaccid clit between my legs. That is why it felt 'odd' to see my non-flaccid cock. Small as it is, even when fully erect, i am just used to seeing it in its limp state. Don't get me wrong, i don't ever want to lose my 'clit', have no desire to replace it with a different set of anatomy. But if if could shrink it further, make it smaller still somehow then i happily would. A micro clit with big, squishy labia/testes that were easier still for Owner to hit, now that would be good :)

i made a reference at the start of this extended thesis (and well done for getting this far if you are still reading) to wearing a pair of Owner's used knickers on my head. Well that is what i was instructed to do today, to walk around our block with them on top of my head. It was a good job that Owner secured them in place with some hair grips as it is quite windy today and they nearly blew away at one point! However, they stayed where they were and none of the people i walked past pointed and shouted 'look, person with panties on their head'. i do love it when Owner sets me these little 'challenging' things to do. 

Out and about with Owners' used knickers on my head

the hairgrips stopped the panties flying away!

Stay safe everyone and sorry this was a somewhat rambling post!

Golden Shower

This morning i was kneeling on the floor, worshiping Owner's divine body with my mouth as She reclined on Her chair when She announced that She needed to pee and then asked if i wanted Her to piss on me. Why of course, i crave Her doing that. Although i regularly get the privilege of consuming Owner's wonderful amber nectar it is always from another vessel, served in a bowl or a glass. Never, until today, have i been allowed to drink direct from the source.

This morning, however, Owner filled my mouth and drenched me with Her wonderful nectar as She stood astride me in the shower, me on the floor gazing up, mouth open at the cascade of liquid that streamed out of Her and into my open mouth. How wonderful it was to be pissed on by Her like this. i was in seventh heaven.

Owner's bladder was evidently very full as i was quickly having to gulp down the seemingly endless stream that poured forth from Her. It went up my nose, drenched my hair and chest and dribbled out of my mouth as i swallowed mouthful after mouthful of the wonderful liquid. When eventually her bladder was fully drained and She had expelled the last few droplets of amber nectar She then had me get onto all fours and lick and slurp up the pools of urine that covered the shower floor. As i cleaned the floor with my tongue Owner set about kicking my locked clitty with Her foot and caressing and teasing the entrance of my pussy with Her toes. How i would have loved Her to have pushed Her foot inside of me. The whole experience was wonderfully humiliating and deeply arousing and seemed to greatly arouse Owner too.

Instructing me to carry on cleaning the shower floor with my tongue She left the bathroom and fetched Her vibrator and the pink suction-cup dildo. On returning She handed the dildo to me and instructed me to stick it to the shower floor and fellate it. i knelt down, secured the cock to the floor and began to suck and swallow it, taking it deep-down my throat.

As i knelt on all fours and feasted on Her pink phallus Owner stood astride me and pleasured Herself with Her vibrator.  Soon it was not just piss that coated my face but spittle and saliva too as i took Her cock deep down my throat, gagging, slurping and drooling on it, covering my mouth and chin with mucus, it even leaked out of my nose. All the while Owner stood astride me and pleasured Herself with Her toy until She climaxed.

However, more excitement was to come. Owner then instructed me to stop what i was doing, get on my knees and lick and worship Her anus. i eagerly obeyed, splaying Her butt cheeks apart to work my tongue deep into Her backside as She stood, legs spread wide apart with Her vibrator held clamped against Her clit in one hand whilst She steadied Herself against the shower wall with the other. i feasted on Her delicious derriere, penetrating Her beautiful arse with my tongue. As i did Owner climaxed hard and permitted me to continue to worship Her backside after She came before eventually instructing me to drop to all fours and re-commence fellating Her pink cock. 

As i took the phallus into my mouth Owner placed Her foot on the back of my head and pushed my head down, forcing the cock deeper into my throat. With Her foot pushing my head down, impaling my mouth on Her cock, making me gag and drool once again Owner took Her vibrator and brought Herself off one final time. All the while i choked, gagged, drooled and gurgled like a true slut at her feet as Her foot pushed my head down, forcing the cock deeper down my throat.

It was truly the most wonderful start to the day, pissed on until i was drenched, throat-fucked and also given the opportunity to pleasure and worship Owner's anus. Wow! i loved looked up and watching Owner empty Herself into my waiting mouth. i loved when She pushed my head down onto Her cock with Her foot. i loved how slutty and degraded i felt. i craved more. My cock was left throbbing in frustration inside its tight little cage. Most importantly, Owner really enjoyed Herself which, after all, is the only thing that matters.

This is me afterwards, hair wet with piss and happy as larry

piss-drenched hair and bikini tan line

Sunshine Safety Advice for Sissy Sluts

All of us living in Europe can't help but notice that it is hot, unusually hot. This is not 'normal' summer heat this is climate change induced heat. It is forecast to be 40C in London tomorrow. That. Is. Not. Normal.

For sissies sweltering in pretty outfits and chastity devices here are my top tips for making it through the heat.

1. wear foundation with in-built sunscreen (mine is factor 30)
2. wear light, loose-fitting clothes - a great excuse to flash your bra and be fondled by your Owner
3. stay hydrated - urine is good - a glass of Owner's is great - but water is probably (marginally) better
4. ensure your body has the salts it needs - semen has plenty if you have a local provider, otherwise crisps are on OK substitute
5. wear sun tan lotion - you'll smell so great and people might lick you
   
6. complete your outfit with sunglasses and a hat
7. swap your heels for flip-flops (provided they are pink)
8. keep your caged clit cool with soap and cold water
9. avoid going out at the hottest time of the day - nobody else will be out anyway so it is not like you will be missing anything
10. suck on an ice lolly - like really, really, suck, suck hard

Seriously though. Stay safe. This was me out earlier today following some, but not all, the above advice

loose fitting top and shorts (tick), sunglasses (tick) - but headphones not a hat (no tick)

loose fitting = bra flashing :)

Just to prove this is London - look a London bus!

Owner, meanwhile, was far more sensible than me and, after going for a walk around the local park first thing whilst it was still cool, spent the rest of the day inside.

Worshipping Owners' Arse

Regular readers will know that i have a bit of a 'thing' about licking out Owners' arse. It is a service She expects from me whenever She so desires and it is one that i love to provide. Tonguing Her arsehole is the only way that i am allowed to penetrate Owner and it is something that i could quite happily do for hours on end.

A particular favourite position of Owners' is to sit on my face and have my tongue tease and explore Her backside whilst She brings Herself off with Her vibrator. Owner is very petite but in this position She is able to put all of Her weight on my face and smother my nose and mouth completely, leaving me struggling to breath as my tongue feverishly worships Her glorious sphincter. At times i cannot breath at all. Another favourite position of Hers is to lie on Her side and 'present' Her anus for me to orally worship whilst She pleasures Herself with Her toy. In both positions Owner often crushes my head between Her thighs and i can feel Her sphincter muscles quiver, flutter and contracts when She cums, 'gripping' my tongue.

This morning Owner had me bring Her off in both such positions,  permitting me to lick, lap, probe, taste, savour and worship Her wonderful anus as She pleasured Herself with Her favourite toy. i was like a kitten with a fresh bowl of cream, lapping eagerly and contentedly and loving every minute.

The experience was heightened further by the fact that Owner had already spent some time ensuring that i was fully aroused before She sat on my face.  She started by removing Her knickers and placing them over my face, positioning the aromatic gusset under my nose so that i inhaled Her wonderful scent. She then had me worship Her feet with my tongue, toyed with my nipples, spanked my now swollen and engorged 'labia' and my nipples with one of Her leather paddles and bit me hard on each butt cheek whilst pinning me face down under the heel of Her foot. She even ground Her pussy against my caged little clit and permitted me to caress Her beautiful breasts.

As you can imagine, after experiencing so much pleasure by the time Owner sat on my face this morning i was horny as hell. My caged clit was throbbing in excitement and my 'labia' were heavy and swollen. That is how they remained. i am Owners' human sex toy, my purpose is to give Her pleasure. It is a role i love.  i derive great pleasure from giving Her pleasure. It is quite normal for me to be left highly aroused, denied and frustrated, it is a state i hugely enjoy. That is how i was left this morning when, after Owner was fully satisfied, i was dismissed and instructed to prepare Her breakfast.

If i could i would worship Owners' anus every hour of ever day. i love, love, love its taste, its texture and its smell. That, coupled with the sweet, sweet pleasure of drinking Her golden nectar, of having my nipples teased and tormented  and of being kept in a state of arousal and continued orgasm denial makes me the happiest ad luckiest slut in the world. i love and adore my life with my Owner.

Summer Shopping Challenge

As mentioned in my previous post today is the 16th of the month so, amongst other things, it was time for my monthly outdoor challenge. Owners' dice were rolled at breakfast to decide the location and outfit, with the result being our local supermarket and me in a dress and heels.

Given that it is the middle of summer it was an opportunity for me to team one of my summer dresses with my pink-heeled wedding shoes. i actually walked from our flat to the supermarket in them (about a ten minute walk). However, shopping completed although i did change into flip-flops for the (uphill) journey home as they are not the easiest heels to walk in!

Owner was pleased with the pictures i took as proof of having completed my challenge, She sensibly opted to stay out of the sun in the comparative cool of our flat, leaving me to complete it on my own. You can judge for yourself how i got on below;

posing on route to the supermarket

with the funky shades Owner bought me

Then at the supermarket itself

Trying (and failing) to pose outside the store

We are on the cusp of a dangerous heatwave here in the UK with temperatures of 40C predicted on Monday. If you are in the UK, stay safe and hydrated. Unfortunately, i have an almost four hour train journey to make that day. What could possibly go wrong!

Sex Rooms, Exercises and the Glorious 16th

Owner and i have been watching the Netflix TV series How to Build a Sex Room. It is an interesting and entertaining watch as the presenter, British interior designer Melanie Rose, creates purpose-built 'sex rooms' for a series of fortunate couples and poly-families in (i think) Denver, Colorado. 

The series has sparked interesting discussions between us with Owner saying how much She would like to have a cage in which She could lock me up. i'd love that too, especially if it had a queening seat built in for Her to use. When a sybian sex machine featured in  one of the episodes Owner turned and said She could imagine how much i would like that. i confess the idea of being fucked endlessly by a machine, anally or orally (perhaps whilst in the cage), makes me wet just thinking about it!

Unfortunately, our flat is quite small, although we do have a small 'box' room so who knows, maybe we could.....remodel?  If any readers have a recommendation for a good 'collapse-able' cage i could suggest to Owner that i could get for Her, one that would be easy to store, then please drop me a line or comment below.

i mentioned in my previous post about my new exercise regime. In reality it is an old regime of mine that i have re-started in my effort to trim my waist and build my butt - it already paying dividends as Owner keeps groping my arse :) i also need to exercise my back and core to avoid a return of the back issues i have had in the past - i experienced two slipped discs about 12 years ago which left me unable to walk for a few months.

In case anyone is interested my routine divides into 2. There is a lighter routine that i do on Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and Friday and then a more intensive regime on Wednesday, Saturday and Sunday. Each regime comprises of the following

Lighter Regime

Warm-up 

5 x 5 seconds each of the following: Cobra, sphynx, superman, upward facing dog, prone arm/leg lift

20 x alternate leg crunch

80 second plank

20 second child pose

Main exercise

20 x cross-leg lunge with 5kg weight

20 x squat with 5kg weight

20 x 5-second  bridge hold with 5kg weight

50 x Russian twists with 5kg weight

100 x bicycles 

Intensive Regime

Warm-Up

Same as above

Main Exercise

20 x cross-leg lunge with 12.3kg weight

20 x squat with 12.3kg weight

20 x 5-second bridge hold with 12.3kg weight

20 x single leg lift

20 x frog pump

20 x scissors

50 x Russian twists with 5kg weight

100 x bicycles

50 x bicycle crunches

20 x side bend with 12.3kg 

50 x 12.3kg kettlebell swing

i do my weekday exercises at 6am, just before breakfast and then at the weekend i do them late morning. Owner often exercises with me at the weekend. This was me earlier this week

doing 5kg bridge holds

Anyway, enough about exercises. i am not, after all, Jane Fonda!

Today is the 16th of the month which is always a 'big' day as it means it is dice day. This morning, after a breakfast glass of Owners' piss to start the weekend the chastity and outdoor challenge dice were ceremoniously rolled. The outcome? Well, after 2 months in full-time chastity i am being moved to a one week on and one-week off regime for the next 2 months.

Then for my outdoor challenge i will be heading to a local supermarket later today in a dress and high heels. We are in the midst of a heatwave in London so i am thinking summer dress and pink-heeled sandals might be the most weather appropriate outfit to wear. i am quite excited at the prospect and will update later on how i got on.

That's all from me for now.

Summertime and the Shopping is....Slutty

London is on the cusp of another heatwave much to Owners' despair. This means closing the blinds and turning on the aircon we had installed for Her last year so She has a room to stay cool in. And me? Well, when the weather turns warm my thoughts turn to little shorts and sleeveless tops and the chance to add a bit of colour to my legs. It is also an opportunity to wear the funky new sunglasses that Owner bought for me.

So yesterday this was me popping down to the supermarket a little after mid-day. i hope to also be allowed to go and sit out in the park at some point this week too :)

 my funky shades

Short shorts

in the supermarket

Owner has said that i am a show off.

Seriously though, if you do go out in the sun remember though to slip, slap, slop.

Notes from a Failing State

Apologies but this post is going to start with a rant

Well, what an 'interesting' week this has been in the UK. Our narcissistic, incompetent, lying, Trumpesque little shit of a Prime Minister has finally said that he will stand down from office. At one point over fifty ministers andMPs from his own party resigned in protest against him. Since then some temporary new ministers have been installed including amongst them a new Education Minister, who was filmed last week giving the bird to members of the public, and a new Chancellor who is under investigation over tax irregularities. Honestly, you could not make this shit up.

Now we have the spectacle of a Tory party leadership election which will pit an unedifying mix of the, completely mad and incompetent against each other to see who can debase themselves the most before the party's geriatric, right-wing membership to get elected and become the next Prime Minister. What joy! As the late, great Terry Pratchett once wrote 'There is a curse...May you live in interesting times'. Well, we certainly have been since 2016 with the self-inflicted clusterfuck that is Brexit, Boris, then Covid and a war in Europe. i mean, what else could possibly happen next?

i write all the above in what is, ostensibly, a non-political blog because it has all been rather distracting. Owner and i have sat, open mouthed all week, watching and reading the news which has been bad for my behavior and development. i have remained just about on top of my daily chores but that has been about it. Owner deserves better from Her wife.

In other news. Last night Owner took me out to dinner and then to a performance of Cosi Fan Tutte at the Royal Opera House. She allowed me to have a cider to drink with my meal and even allowed me to choose between one of three possible dishes She short-listed for me from the restaurant menu rather than simply choosing one for me Herself. The restaurant and theatre were both packed - it is good to see London 'back to normal' - and we had a lovely time. Here are a couple of pictures from the evening;

me in the restaurant with my nails on point

my gorgeous Owner

curtain call in the Opera House

Meanwhile, i am pleased to report that i have been working out daily for over a month to try and lose my belly, build my butt and shed some weight (i have put put on almost a stone/6.5kgs since last year). Judging by how frequently Owner has been grabbing my arse of late i think the butt building might be working. She particularly seems to like it when i wear shorts that She can slip Her hand inside when we are out and about - and i love nothing better than being groped by Her in public. :)

i have also, with Owners' permission, started to grow my hair long again. About ten years ago it was shoulder-length but i have worn it quite short since then. However, i miss being able to tie it up and so asked Owner the other day if i could grow it long again. She agreed and so that is what i will be doing. My hair is quite fine and i have a high hairline (which i have had since childhood) so how this will turn out i don't know. Time, as they say, will tell.

That's about it for now. i hope everyone is keeping well.