Tied Up and Chilly

Yesterday, after i had finished working for the day, Owner tied me up whilst i was still in my work blouse and skirt and left me kneeling in the bedroom whilst She went about doing Her exercises and some other activities. Owner is good with ropes and enjoys tying me up and restraining me on occasion. Usually, She does this with me remaining in Her company. This is, i think, the first time She has restrained me and then left me to go about Her business. 

It felt appropriate that She should do so and gave me time to quieten my mind after a slightly stressful day at work and to simply think. In an odd way it felt almost therapeutic to be left restrained like that. It was also quite arousing and my mind soon wandered to imagining a variety of scenarios in which i had been restrained by Owner and then left by Her. Tied up naked in front of the window, or to a lamp post, or restrained on all fours with my knickers down. Fun thoughts. Anyway, when Owner was done and it was time for me to get changed and start preparing dinner She returned and untied me. Her i am tied up in my work blouse and skirt kneeling by Owners' bed

yes that is a gag and clamps you can see hanging from the bedpost

and yes that is a small leather flogger hanging from this bedpost

Earlier in the week the new nipple jewellery that Owner ordered for me arrived, It is a beautiful shield type design and it matches perfectly the sparkly belly piercing that She also bought me a while back. You can see the ring in situ below, i think it is super pretty

my new nipple ring

In less happy news our boiler broke down yesterday so we are currently without heating or hot water. It will hopefully be repaired on Friday when the engineer arrives. In the meantime, i have been 'benefiting' from the joys of ice cold morning showers. My already little clit shrunk to almost microscopic proportions inside its chastity cage shelter!

OMG - 50!

So today is the day that i turned 50. As i write this it is not even mid-morning here in the UK but already my day has been full of wonderful gifts, surprises and challenges, with more...a lot more, still to come.

My day started at 6am with Owner getting up and preparing breakfast for the two of us whilst i lay in bed. It is normally me that makes the breakfast and so i was feeling quite guilty lying there as i listened to Owner busying Herself in the kitchen. Owner had given me strict instructions to not leave the bed until She came to collect me for breakfast and present opening.

This is the sight that greeted me when Owner led me through into the lounge.

Cake, breakfast, presents' dice and pee

What a sight for sore eyes. Owner had got me a delicious birthday cake, made my breakfast and laid out the dice i was to roll and her presents ready for opening. She also had a special treat for me and this is what i started with first. Yes, Owner had provided me with a delicious glass of her piss for me to enjoy, and enjoy it i did! It was delicious and a wonderful way to start my birthday

Cheers - birthday drink of Owners' pee

drinking Owners' pee - apologies for my mad hair!

Pee drunk it was time to blow out the candles on the cake and move onto the next order of business, dice rolling. The first dice to be rolled was the chastity dice and i struck lucky. i am henceforth being locked back into chastity for a period of 3 months

the outcome of my chastity dice roll

Next up was the monthly outdoor challenge dice roll. i ended up with one of the 'easier' potential dice combinations, namely to pose wearing shorts and trainers outside the cafe in our local park. If you read on you can see how i got on.

Dice rolling completed it was then time to move onto the main order of business, present opening. Boy, did i do well! First, up Owner is gifting me a new tattoo that will clearly state that i am owned by her. She has come up with a design and now all i need to do is make an appointment to get the tattoo done. She is currently considering whereabouts on my body She would like it to go. Her current preference is for it to go on my right inner thigh, opposite where Her previous tattoo is which says my nickname. She has also considered getting it done on my arse but thinks it might be too big. This is Her design - it's wonderful, i love it!

Owners' design for my next tattoo

The next present was a real surprise. This weekend Owner is whisking me away for a weekend trip to Paris, including a visit to Versailles (which we have always wanted to see) as well as an evening performance at the Moulin Rouge. i am super excited at the prospect of seeing the show. We are having a meal beforehand and then we have a night of high kicking, bloomers and stockings wearing girls ahead of us. Oh how i wish i could join them on stage. But Owner has thought of that too. Though i won't be joining in the cabaret the last of my birthday presents were a pair of amazing heeled shoes, a basque, frilly knickers and a fascinator to wear for a photo shoot in our hotel the next day. i will, after all, get an opportunity to dress as a show girl. i am super excited at the prospect. Here's a sneak preview of my amazing new shoes

Last, but not least i also got a beautiful pair of ear-rings to wear. They are silver with a small red stone inset and are completely gorgeous, i love them

my beautiful new ear-rings

Owner also has one more treat planned for my birthday. She is taking me to dinner tonight to one of our favourite places which has amazing views across London. We're both really looking forward to it.

So, didn't i do well!! i got some absolutely amazing presents from Owner and i am super excited about our weekend away to Paris. What additional excitement could the morning possibly bring? Well, completing my challenge for one thing.

The dice had decided that i was to wear shorts and trainers outside the cafe in our local park. With Owners' permission i selected some pretty shorts and my heeled trainers to wear combined with over-the-knee socks, a bra and top. It is currently 9 degrees in London so i also needed a coat to wear. This is what my outfit looked like:

my dice challenge outfit

Preparing to leave the house

heading to the park

outside the park cafe

old lady and dog

One thing i have realised with these challenges is that i ought to invest in a selfie stick, there is only so far my far can extend!

Owner was pleased with me when She saw the photos to show Her that i had completed the challenge. i am already looking forward to next month's one! What a wonderful way to start my 50th and what a lot of amazing presents, treats and surprises i received.

You Have to Start Somewhere + A Final Warning

One of the challenges Owner set me as part of my ongoing development was to start publishing 'erotic' short stories. i posted my first attempt at such a story on this blog a few months ago and i am pleased to say that it is now available to also buy online as an e-book short story. i published it on Lulu.com and the the story can also be downloaded from Amazon, Kobo and Lybrary at present. Of course you can read it here for free but if you do purchase it (and it costs less than $1) any monies received go to Owner (not me) - so it is going to a good cause :)

This weekend i also registered to sit the Diplomas de Español como Lengua Extrajenera (Diploma in Spanish as a Foreign Language - DELE) exam in late November. i will be sitting the entry level exam. Those that have followed this blog for a while will know that Owner is Spanish but whilst Her English is excellent (better than mine) my Spanish was none-existent. In fact, although i am reasonably well educated (i have a PhD) languages have always been an utter disaster for me and i have no language qualifications at all and have never had the confidence to even try to sit a language exam. Well, all that will soon be changing because part of my training and development as Her submissive and more recently as Her wife has also been an expectation that i will study and learn Spanish and prepare for a DELE exam. Though i will only be sitting the basic level this really is a big deal for me as anyone who knows me will know what a struggle i have found learning any language to be (and in the past i have also tried French and German). There is, of course, no guarantee i will pass but even to have got to the point where i feel confident enough to pay to sit a language exam is quite a milestone for me. i know i will never become proficient in Spanish but hopefully i can at least get a basic qualification.

Meanwhile, talking of starting somewhere, on Saturday morning Owner demanded that i lick Her arse whilst She masturbated Herself to an orgasm. i was out of chastity and She also instructed that i make my clitty hard as my tongue probed deep inside Her delicious anus. It was a wonderful way to start the day - licking Owners arse is, in my view, both a privilege and an honour as well as being exquisitely delicious. But to do so and be made to make oneself hard but not permitted any form of release was pure torment, it was wonderful! It has now been 37 days since my last orgasm and i can honestly say that there is nothing i crave more than the opportunity to continue to pleasure Owner whilst i am kept denied myself (either in chastity or out). To be kept aroused and horny but frustrated and denied is to be very happy indeed!

Later in the day Owner and i headed into town and visited a fantastic bead and charm shop, called Beadworks, near Covent Garden for me to purchase some materials with which to start making some more jewellery. Owners plan is that i am eventually to make enough jewellery for me to open a little shop on Etsy. i have made Her a couple of small items (earrings and a bracelet) but i think i have quite a way to go before i am ready to open an emporium to the world! :)

Last, i also have to report that during our recent visit to Edinburgh i again broke one of the rules i should always adhere to, specifically i ordered an alcoholic drink without having Owners permission to do so. This is the second time i have broken this rule - something we both know is completely unacceptable. Owner should expect Her wife to be behaving as She ought to be at all times and to only drink alcohol if and when Owner has permitted it.

Owner was justifiably upset and demanded that i show Her that i was committed to changing my ways and to ensuring that i never break this rule in future. Specifically, She stipulated that i provide Her with a written commitment that showed contrite i was and which showed that i was serious about never again breaking this rule (you may recall i also broke it back in July when we visited my fathers). To prove to Owner how serious i was i tried to think of something that i considered would be a severe punishment, something that i would really hate to have to do and which would demonstrate my determination to never let it happen again. i am pleased to say that the suggestion was accepted by Owner. Therefore, if i ever have another alcoholic drink again in my life without Her having first granted explicit permission to do so i will not be permitted to wear makeup or a skirt for a period of three months as punishment. A second offence will double the duration of this punishment, a third triple it and so forth. i sincerely hope my lesson has been learnt and that Owner never has cause to enforce such punishments in future.

Whilst The Cat Is Away.....

This mouse is busy. After a lovely weekend together with Her family Owner and i are apart for this week. i am back in the UK but She doesn’t return until the end of the week. She starts Her new job on Monday and She has had a stressful time of late and Her family have also had to deal with bereavement so it’s good that She is able to spend some extra time with them. i miss Her terribly though.

Whilst i was there for the weekend we had a wonderful time together. We visited the town where She was born and i got to see the window of the very flat in which She was born as well as the flats where Her parents grew up – both at opposite ends of the same town. Owner and i even posed dancing together for Her dad in the very spot where he used to go dancing with Her mum. 

Now though i am back alone and She is still in Spain and i miss Her terribly. The good news is though that, knowing we would be apart, Owner took the time and effort to think of something practical and useful and enjoyable that i could do. She instructed me that She had found a short jewellery making workshop for me to do. Accordingly, yesterday evening after work found me at a delightful little studio/shop in West London called Homemade London. Together with our teacher myself and three women spent an hour and a half on a basic introduction to jewellery making course. It was great fun and i am now inspired (if Owner allows me) to buy some proper pliers and then start getting crafty with chains and charms. Mind you, Owner has already warned me that, since becoming feminised i like to wear jewellery too much, so this could be a dangerous new craft!

Anyway, you can see my small little creations below, one modeled on my ankle;

       

my little anklet in situ - note to self, toenails need re-painting!

bracelet and matching earrings

i am really loving the new skills i am starting to develop. Since knitting my first scarf a while ago i have knitted one for Owner from a pattern She liked and am now onto a third. Once that is done i hope to branch out to some more challenging knitting projects! Owner has also instructed that i learn some facial techniques during this phase of my development and we are both keen that we get a sewing machine so that i can start practice sewing. We have seen some beginners courses that look like they could be good for me to enrol on and there is also a local craft place that offers dress-making courses. It’s funny but i don’t hear much mention of learning crafty and other ‘domestic’ skills on other FLR blogs that i read. i really would encourage other women to have their ‘wives’ acquire skills that could be used for their Dommes benefit and also about the home, plus they are also great fun to do. All of the other people i have met on the courses i have done to date have been lovely.

Anyway, back to the here and now. There are of course plenty of things i need to be getting on with whilst Owner is away. My development and training do not stop simply because She is not here and so i am sticking to my rota of cleaning, study and other activities that i am expected to do and which do not require Her presence to be undertaken. In addition, Owner has also sent me instructions for an additional project that She requires me to complete today and has indicated She may send a further project tomorrow. We know it is best that i am kept busy and productive if i am to become the wife She wishes.

One thing that was lovely at the weekend was that Owner had advised She wished me to stay out of chastity for the duration of my stay. On our first morning at Her parents flat She had woken up and spooned Her body behind mine and then, covering my mouth with Her hand to prevent me making too much noise, grabbed my clitty with Her free hand and masturbated me whilst whispering in my ear that She wanted me to ‘cum like a slut’. i did copiously and noisily (it was a good job She was covering my mouth with Her hand to muffle my groans). Owner then scooped up my mess from my belly and the bedding and fed it to me. It really was a lovely way to start the day.

Now, however, i am safely locked up again and eagerly anticipating Her return later this week. i so hate it when we are apart. i know how lucky i am in that we live together and do everything together as a couple but it also means that when we are apart, even if just for a few days as now, i miss Her terribly. [Sent via email to Owner for checking prior to posting online].