Fifteen Years of Submission

Fifteen years ago today Owner and i exchanged our first kiss, or more accurately She grabbed and snogged me, and began our journey together. What started as a strictly vanilla relationship quickly morphed into the start of a Femdom one when i wrote Her a letter asking if i could submit to Her. The rest, as they say, is history. Twelve of those fifteen years have been documented here on this blog as our relationship developed and evolved and my submission to Her deepened. Two years ago i became Owners' wife. i can honestly say that these have been the best 15 years of my life and i feel truly lucky to have met Owner and to share my life with Her.

Owner presented me with this card this morning to mark our anniversary, which i think is wonderfully appropriate as She does enjoy doing exactly what the card says;

This coming weekend Owner is taking me out to dinner and has also ordered me a pretty new 'O' collar for me to wear on a permanent basis. In return i bought Owner a pretty ring and a Lelo 'smart-wand' vibrator - which i hope will provide Her with many hours of pleasure, plus a mystery (i know what it is but cannot say here as Owner checks what i write before i post) present for Her which is still to arrive.

Despite it being our anniversary today has been a normal working day for us both. Well, i say normal but i was perhaps one of only a small group of people who were presenting at online conferences today where the view just out of shot from the laptop camera (and thus the delegates) was as below, oh little did they know what their presenter was wearing below the waist!

i also 'discovered' a very different type of domestic uniform for sale on-line (at what, incidentally, looks to be a great shop). i sent Owner the link to see what She thought of it and i am delighted to say that She liked it too and has given me permission to purchase it. This is what it looks like;

It is very different from the more formal uniform i was also allowed to recently purchase, definitely sluttier i think you will agree! i can't wait to get it.

Owner has also started to review Her dices. The first dice She has updated is the chastity dice. The options that have been loaded into the chastity dice (which will, once again, be rolled on the 16th of each month unless the dice determines otherwise) are as follows:

- wear for 3 months without break then roll again

- wear for 2 months without break then roll again

- wear for 1 month without break then roll again

- wear for 3 months weekdays only then roll again

- wear for 3 months weekends only then roll again

- wear alternate weeks for 2 months then roll again

Owner is also reviewing the home challenge dice and i will be re-commencing the monthly outdoor challenge dice rolls, also on the 16th. So, the dice are returning! Yippee - i have missed them.

Normal Service Resumes

After a wonderful fortnight away in Wales, Owner and i returned home this afternoon. Whilst we were away a couple of the items Owner permitted me to order arrived, specifically my new domestic service uniform, the new socks Owner bought for me and some replacement knickers She permitted me to buy.

 You can see me in my new uniform below

My new household uniform

New knickers and cute socks

 

And yes, that is a chastity device you can spy through my knickers. As discussed and agreed with Owner i am back locked again. i am very pleased to be locked back up. For any readers trying chastity for the first time during 'Locktober' remember the key to a happy chastity experience is a small device, the smaller the better. It may seem counter-intuitive but they really are the most comfortable for long-term wear.

This coming week it will be the 15th anniversary of when Owner and i first became 'an item' all those years ago back when we were still in our 30s. What fun we have had since then and how our relationship has evolved! We started off totally vanilla, but that did not last long i am pleased to say.

Autumn Outdoor Posing

Well today has been a very memorable one. After getting fucked by Owner this morning whilst the rain beat down outside the skies cleared briefly this afternoon allowing us an opportunity to re-visit the vantage point we discovered the other day for a quick outdoor photoshoot. 

It has been quite a while since i have done an outdoor photoshoot and i felt the familiar rush of excitement as i flaunted myself in public whilst half expecting someone to walk by at any minute.

As you can tell we have been having a great holiday! Thank you Owner for making today such an enjoyable one.

A Rainy Lazy Morning

One of the great things about being away on holiday is the ability to wake up but then, after breakfast, decide to return back to bed. This is exactly what Owner suggested we do this morning after concluding that the weather looked to wet to go walking. So at about 9am i found myself, back in bed being spooned and cuddled by Owner.

Well the spooning and cuddling did not last long. Soon She was biting me and caressing me, then She bound, gagged and flogged my exposed and helpless clitty whilst tormenting my nipples with the clover clamps. After toying with me for a while She then settled Herself into one of Her favourite positions, squatting over my face so that i might lick Her anus whilst She pleasured Herself. i must say, it is one of my favourite positions too! Licking Owners' arse is such a delicious treat.

bound and gagged before Owner removed the gag and sat on my face

However, Owner wasn't done. After pleasuring Herself astride me for a while She then untied one of my wrists so that i could rotate onto all fours, pussy open and exposed for Her to have fun with. Owner produced one of Her dildos and had me go down on it whilst She lubed my pussy and began to stretch it with one hand whilst simultaneously pleasuring Herself with a bullet vibe with Her other hand. With me gobbling eagerly on Her 'cock' Owner brought Herself off as She slid Her fingers in and out of my welcoming pussy. Her (and my) fun wasn't over though. She then grabbed hold of the dildo i had been happily fellating and slipped it deep into my moist and welcoming pussy, then reached around and began to masturbate my clit as She fucked me with Her cock.

'Cum like a whore' She instructed, and i did, loudly, very loudly as i thrust my hips back and forth, burying Her cock inside me. i adore the sensation of being so deeply fucked and am so grateful to Owner for gifting me such an intense and explosive orgasm. As i am to be locked up in chastity again when we get back i know that that may be the last time i experience having my clit masturbated to orgasm for a while.

In contrast to the weather today, yesterday was a glorious day and Owner and i went out for a lovely long walk. The scenery was quite stunning

The walk also provided an opportunity for me to pose in my t-shirt and bra - such a slut!

In my supergurl t-shirt

Can you help me find my way to my top? It appears to have fallen off!

A New Collar and Continued Adventures in Wales

In my previous post i mentioned that next month will mark 15 years since Owner and i first started 'dating'. Followers of the blog will recall that ours started as a vanilla relationship but then quickly morphed into a female-led one. Anyway, this morning as we were about to head out for a days walking in the hills Owner announced that She had something She wanted to discuss with me about our anniversary when we returned. As you can imagine i spent the whole day wondering what it might be.

Anyway, when we returned all was revealed. Owner has been researching a new collar for me to wear. The one i currently wear is made of twisted steel cord. You can see it in most pictures of me. i wear it all the time, including to work, visiting family etc. The only times it comes off is when we pass through airport security (it trips the machines), sometimes for photo shoots when Owner decides its slightly industrial aesthetic is not appropriate, and each night before going to bed. Owner became convinced i might somehow accidentally strangle myself with it during the night. In short, i wear it most of the time but it is starting to look a little worn.

Owners' announcement was that She has found a company that sells adorable 'O' ring necklaces that can be permanently locked shut and even have little messages created and attached hanging from the lock. They are super pretty. The person that makes them is actually based in Wales, albeit in the North not the South where we are staying. Her shop on Etsy is called Starlight and Shadows.

It will take a while for my new collar to be made and delivered and i have no idea which style Owner will choose for me to wear but i am super excited at the prospect as the designs in the shop are really pretty. i also love the fact that they can be permanently locked and Owner has already said that She expects me to wear the new collar all the time, including to bed. 

In the meantime, Owner and i had a great day out on the hills amidst the swirling mists, although at one point we did have to beat a hasty retreat when faced off by a bull.

Castle in the mists

Action Owner

Owner and i

Wales Cont'd and a Renewed Sense of Purpose

Owner and i continue to have an excellent time here in Wales. We have (touch wood) so far escaped being caught up in the various local Covid-19 lockdowns and have been able to freely explore the coast, castles, waterfalls, mountains and caves that this part of the world has to offer.

A period away has also provided a much needed opportunity for reflection, the main one being that when we return i need to get back into my old routines pronto and get back to being the pet and wife that Owner deserves. The last few months saw us both consumed by what felt at times like an avalanche of work, worries and stress (especially for Owner). Our usual routines were obliterated as we both adjusted to the strange new world of being at home most of the time and i am afraid to say that i let some of my duties slide. It wasn't just updating this blog that i became rubbish at! i didn't stop completely, i still did my household tasks etc but not as diligently as i should have. i also stopped dressing prettily for Owner as we worked from home. The move to daily work video conferences saw me out of my dresses or blouses and skirts and into blouses and jeans. The period of complete lockdown also brought an end to my monthly outdoor challenges, i was also released from chastity - which, as regular chastity wearers will know can quickly lead to a loss of focus.

Anyway, Owner and i have discussed all of this whilst enjoying the peace and calm of our holiday in Wales and have agreed that all of the above has to change when we get back. Covid-19 is not going away anytime soon but i need to get back to the wife i was. So upon our return i will be expected to get back to my usual domestic routines (with a few additional tasks to complete added on), re-start the outdoor dice challenges and return to chastity. i am really happy. Not at the prospect of heading home in a week's time, we'd both happily stay here for longer, but at the prospect of life returning to a sort of 'normal'. i do periodically have re-lapses like this, i hate that i do and wish that i didn't but if nothing else they serve to reinforce my conviction that i am truly at my happiest and most contented when i am in chastity, dressed sluttily, making an exhibition of myself and serving my lovely Owner.

Talking of which, Owner and i will be celebrating 15 years of being in a relationship together next month. Fifteen years! From vanilla to becoming Her wife. They truly have been the best years of my life and i am beyond blessed to have met Her and have had the opportunity to share my life with Her. Owner has been going through some tough times of late, especially the past few months. She deserves a better wife than i have been of late and i intend to ensure that She gets the one She married back. It won't directly help to resolve the issues She is dealing with but hopefully Her days will be a little bit brighter if Her wife is back keeping Her home looking sparkling, serving and looking after Her and looking as pleasing to Her eye as a 50 year old transvestite can do!

On that front, as you can see, i have some work to do! Owner has started to photograph me again whilst we have been away, something She says She enjoys doing. We used to have regular 'shoots' as i love nothing better than to dress up and be photographed by Her, but then we fell out of the habit in late Spring. However, Owner has now taken a few photos of me whilst we have been away and we have another 'shoot' planned in the countryside. We have already found the location, a viewpoint in a nature reserve less than a mile from where we are staying. Until then, however, here are a selection of photos Owner has taken of me in and outside the Airbnb we are renting

poppet at repose in the Airbnb conservatory

Cheeky

In the garden of the Airbnb in my new nightie

With (tiny) Welsh dragon - sooo cute!

Me and my concave head!

Wales

Well after an eventful journey we finally made it to Wales after an epic ten hour journey. It took an age to get out of London then, no sooner did the open motorway beckon than our first hire car broke down. After standing around on the hard shoulder as traffic whizzed by we were rescued by a breakdown man in a van. He looked like an ex-member of Status Quo, checked the hire car, advised us to get another then escorted us to get a replacement. A short while later we were back on the road only to discover that the motorway was closed requiring a long and tedious detour via Slough. International readers may never have heard of Slough, suffice to say the poet Sir John Betjeman once penned a line which read 'come, friendly bombs, and fall on Slough', need i say more?

Anyway, hours later we got back to the M4 motorway and continued West, driving into the night until we passed the Black Mountain (i feel like i am describing a Tolkenesque quest penning that line) until we found, at the third attempt, the cottage in Wales which will be Owner and my home for the next fortnight. That was Saturday.

Sunday we rose reasonably early and headed up to one of the local ruined castles, had a picnic and then onto a ruined Abbey. Wales is slowly locking down again due to Covid-19 but, touch wood, the places closing are to the East of where we are staying. That said, if we do end up having to lock down here for a bit i won't be too devastated. The cottage has a little garden and a conservatory and is a far cry from our small London flat.

But back to our adventures. Today we headed down to the Gower peninsula, a beautiful area of coastline on the Southern tip of Wales. We did a lovely walk along a headland and then headed down a steep cliff path to the beach so that i could pose in my bikini. Owner was less than pleased by the prospect of a trek back up the path to the clifftop and seeing the pictures when we got home i realised that something seemed to have gone awry with my beach-ready body. My bikini would have looked better on somewhat slimmer me, maybe the 2018 model rather than the 2020 one which appears to have 'padded out; a little around the belly? Oh well.

You can see for yourself from the pictures below

In contrast to the whale on the beach, Wales itself is beautiful. Here are just a couple of pictures from the first two days, we have two weeks of this still to come, and hopefully some more photoshoots too :)

Carreg Cennen Castle

Talley Abbey

Rhossili beach - scene of the bikini pet photoshoot

Hope to update with more Welsh adventures soon

Hello and An Apology

Greetings to anyone out there who still pops by to see if there have been any updates from me, i know it has been a while since my last one and that many of you have been concerned by my absence and will have been wondering if Owner and i are ok? We're both fine it is just our lives have been preoccupied by other concerns of late. Nothing too dramatic and probably the same concerns many have been experiencing these past few months, a toxic stew of Covid, Brexit, Trump and work-related stress and anxiety.

i stopped checking in on the blog. This is the first time i have looked at it in, well months and months. So i apologise to you all for not having posted or replied to you comments. i really am sorry.

i have also allowed some of my domestic chores to slide (they still get done but i not on a daily basis) as our lives morphed into a routine of wake-up, have breakfast, walk to lounge and start work (from home), finish work, have dinner, try to relax, sleep and repeat, day after day, week after week, month after month. i know it has been the same for many and others have lost jobs but it can still be hard. i have also been out of chastity most of the time.

As a couple we love to travel and go out for meals or drinks. We were due to go to Spain to see Owner's family who she hasn't seen since Xmas but ended up having to cancel as Covid spiked in Spain again. Although in happier news my sister managed got a new job and was able to escape the sinking ship that is the UK and move to Spain.  I had also earlier booked a trip to New York for Owner's birthday which we had obviously had to cancel and then a planned holiday to Finland was cancelled when the Finns wisely (perhaps) banned entry to travelers from the UK.

On a more positive note. Owner and i did have a lovely long weekend away over the Bank Holiday. We stayed in a small town on Worcestershire called Pershore and did some lovely walks. It was also very memorable for another reason. Owner brought Her strapon and one morning, after first bringing Herself off as She sat on my face whilst i feasted on Her backside, She clamped my nipples, had me fellate Her dildo then lubed and opened up my pussy with Her hand before fucking me hard. Owner commented approvingly what a noisy and eager slut i was as i cried out in pure delight whilst slamming my hips back and forth against Hers, burying Her dildo deep inside me and cumming loudly like the true whore i am. It was wonderful.

This weekend we are heading to South Wales for a fortnight. Owner has brought me a pretty new lace nightie to take with us and i have also packed an outfit or two for some outdoor photoshoots, something we have not done since before Covid. We both cannot wait to get away and i promise to keep you all updated more often in future, that is if anyone still reads this little blog.

Take care and apologies once again from me, i hope all of you are keeping well?

The Only Super Hero That Flies Without Pants

Today Owner and i completed the penultimate of our lockdown photoshoots, next weekend's will be the last. Today's theme was Super Hero. Now, believe it or not i have long had an idea for a cartoon strip super hero. The only slight problem with my idea is that i cannot for the life of me draw so it remained just that, an idea. Without the requisite artistic skills i was never able to fully bring to life 'Super Pet - The Only Super Hero That Flies Without Pants'. That was until today. Today Super Pet came to life.

Owner managed to cobble together a super hero outfit for me from amongst my assorted collection of clothes and accessories [the 'cape' is actually one of my nighties] and, hey presto, 'Super Pet' was born. A fearless spreader of perversion who, as the title suggests, flies without pants or knickers, in fact nothing, not not even a thong.

So here we go, i hope you like the penultimate of these little Covid-19 lockdown photoshoots.

Once again Owner created a great little video montage

Music: Extract from “Heroe”, by Max Tune, https://taketones.com/track/hero, used under freeCC

Next weekend's final lockdown photoshoot will be on the theme of 'Teen Party', which promises to be fun.

Stay safe everyone.

Fifteen Years

Wow, how time passes when you are having fun. Fifteen years ago today Owner and i met each other for the first time. Both of us were going through divorces and were looking for new friends to meet and socialise with. We chatted online at first before meeting for the first time at Bond Street tube station.

In normal times we try and return to the pizza restaurant we went to on that day, but this year is not a normal year and so we will be having pizza at home. It would also take another five months before Owner would tire of me making a first move (i am actually quite shy) and so grabbed me and kissed me in Charing Cross station as i was waving her goodbye. Up until then we had just met socially for drinks or to go to the movies and both lived in different parts of London.

A few months after that She moved in with me and the rest, as they say, is history. Ours did not start out as a Femndom relationship, at first it was a very vanilla one, but it soon became one. Much since has changed. Owner became, well my Owner and i Her pet. When first we met i would never have imagined, for example that we would one day get married in Las Vegas with me wearing a pretty pink dress and Owner a suit.

We have been together in sickness and health and i can honestly say with my hand on my heart that the past fifteen years have, quite literally, been the best years of my life. i feel incredibly lucky to have met Her, to have been able to share my life with Her and to submit to Her. She is the love of my life.

We also have lots of fun together and try not to take life too seriously, as I think these e-card that Owner sent to me to mark our anniversary nicely show.

'Barbie' anniversary card

Happy anniversary gorgeous and here's to at least fifteen years more!