Pink, Piss and Pissed

Owner and i have enjoyed quite a relaxed day today. After completing my studies, exercises and chores the two of us headed out after lunch to a local cafe for some much needed caffeine. This was followed by a spot of shopping before we returned home.

After unpacking the shopping i stripped off down to my stockings, attached a pair of clamps to each of my nipples and then presented myself to Owner to be caned. She used the thin cane on me today and left my bottom and the backs of my thighs looking a little blush.

Caning completed i thanked Owner by giving Her a back massage.

Later in the afternoon Owner presented me with a delicious glass of Her urine to drink. It was lighter and less aromatic than Her morning piss which tends to be darker and more robust. i eagerly knocked it back in one. i really do love drinking Her pee and consider myself to be very lucky to get to drink it as regularly as i do

Meanwhile, Owner continues to have fun with the electro-shock device that is now attached to my clit at all times when i am at home, night and day. Yesterday, after we had both finished work, Owner invited me to have some drinks with Her in the lounge. We both got a little tipsy and She amused Herself greatly by zapping my clit repeatedly. 

Today She zapped me as i was bringing Her a glass of water that She had requested, causing me to spill Her drink in the hallway. i was suitably apologetic and quickly mopped up the spillage but consider myself lucky not to have been zapped again for allowing Her drink to spill in the first place. Owner definitely seems to love knowing that She can electrocute my clit whenever She feels like it and She clearly enjoys doing so. For me, it is proving to be an excellent means of ensuring that i am constantly aware of Her authority over me as well as being a great way of Her getting my undivided attention whenever She wants it. Wherever i am in the flat She can now summons me to Her side at the mere click of a button.

i hope everyone else is having an equally enjoyable weekend?

Lock-Up The Slut

Today being the 16th day of the month means two things, chastity dice and outdoor challenge dice day. Yippee! First the former. The roll of Owners' chastity dice determined that, as of today, i will remain locked in chastity 24/7 until the 16th May 2024 i.e for the next six months. So it is a case of bye-bye clit, see you (maybe) in late Spring/early Summer.

The next dice to be rolled were the outdoor challenge dice. This time the dice threw-up a combination that i have had to do before, namely wear shorts and fishnets and pose wearing them on a specific street that is about ten minutes walk from where Owner and i live. The previous time i had to do this was back in the Spring and i wore my shredded shorts and fishnet tights as you can see in this previous post. However, as i have done this challenge before i felt that i should push myself to try and make it a little harder, a bit more of a 'challenge' to complete this time around. It took me a few minutes but i soon came up with a plan.

Firstly, i realised that i could make my outfit a bit more risque by wearing fishnet stockings with the same ripped shorts, as opposed to fishnet tights. i could also engineer it so that instead of a 'normal' top i just wore a bra and basque under my coat. i also realised that i could wear some sluttier footwear. Next i then debated what jacket to wear. Would a short jacket and ripped shorts and fishnet stocking look too slutty or should i play it a little safe by wearing a slightly longer jacket that covered my bum? In the end i played safe and went with the longer jacket, in part because i also varied my route and instead chose to deliberately walk to the location along a busy main road instead of my usual backstreet route. i promise that if i do end up doing this challenge again in the future i will endeavour to do so wearing the shorter jacket for the walk along the main road. But this time i played safe.

So, how did i get on i hear you ask? Well, i was seen by quite a number of people but still posed as a street walker regardless. i feel much more confident and at ease posing in public dressed like a slut these days and i think that is starting to show in the pictures.  On receiving the resulting images Owner congratulated me and also described the images as 'hot stuff' - which made my day. You can judge for yourself below;

on the street corner with passing traffic

Incidentally, i do like this picture if i may say so myself. i think it makes me look a bit like a street corner prostitute which is what i hope the car driver thought i was. Anyway, back to the images;

do you like my cute back pack?

more cars passing

hello person staring at me from their doorstep behind me

hello passing person

As i mentioned, the route i took to get to the above location was along a much busier main road (it's a main bus route) and so i was seen by many, many passing motorists, truck drivers and people on their way to work etc. i stopped briefly to pose outside a corner cafe i passed

being overtaken by a trucker

outside the cafe, cars passing behind me

So you can see why i opted for the slightly longer coat this time. Maybe another time i might have the courage to wear a shorter coat whilst walking in stockings and shredded shorts along this same, very busy, road.

Location posing over it was time to head home but not before a couple of final photos.

The whole excursion took about 30 minutes, with me walking in my heels the whole time. It was also raining slightly and i had forgotten to bring a brolly so i was a little wet when i got back home. 

However, i am pleased with how i got on and like to think that people who saw me may have thought that i was hanging around trying to solicit some 'business' from a passing punter :). Yes, i am a shameless, exhibitionist slut. [You are shameless- Owner]

The Next Level in Control - Life with my Remote Control Clit Shocker

It is now a few days since i started to wear the remote control electric clit shock device that i bought for Owner as part of Her anniversary gift. It sits secured snuggly around the base of my clit, the metal contacts pushed against the soft, thin skin of my labia. All the while the remote control transmitter is never more than a few feet away from Owner's hand. All it takes is just one little movement of Her fingers to deliver a powerful electric shock straight into my labia. It can be a light shock or it could be an extremely intense one, or it might simply vibrate. The choice is Hers. For the first time ever She has a means of instantly getting my full attention whatever i am doing, whether i am stood next to Her or am at the far end of the flat. It is already having a very positive affect on our lives, both mine and Hers.

In this it appears we are not alone. It has been great to read the comments from Misty's sissy husband Bella and the transformative and very positive benefits a similar such device that Bella wears brought to their lives. In particular, how her wife uses the device to summons Misty whenever she is needed by delivering an electric shock to her clit.

For me it means that, with the device in situ, Owners control of me now feels absolute. i now live with the knowledge that if i was ever to do anything that really annoyed Her She has the means at Her fingertips to instantly inflict very serious levels of pain. In other words, the potential consequences of me stepping out of line or displeasing Her have suddenly got a lot more immediate and serious. i know that were She to choose to zap me using one of the higher power settings the result would be quite unpleasant. That thought certainly helps to focus my attention on doing things well - something that of course i should have been doing anyway but this is an easy and simple way for Owner to enforce Her absolute control. 

electro-shock device secured around my caged clit, contacts touching my 'labia'

The device has a range of shock settings from 1to 100. i am not very good at tolerating electric shocks and so, although She has now shocked me with it many times, Owner has always just used the lowest setting - still enough to make me wince and double up and almost drop to the ground. As i said, i am not good at tolerating electrical pain. But even that lowest setting definitely gets my full attention!

Owner can zap me from wherever She is in the flat as the remote works even if i am at the opposite end of the flat to Her (yes that was extensively tested!). i ensure the remote is always next to Her so that She literally only has to reach and click i will end up flinching or bent double in another room. 

i am hopeful that the use of the device might help me to become a better wife by getting me to listen more attentively to Owners' instructions and not have Her have to repeat things (which i know annoys Her intensely). It might help me to learn not to interrupt and disturb Her, to keep quiet, to complete tasks quickly and be more responsive to Her needs when She wants me. To come to Her straight away whenever She requires something of me.

a clearer view of the clit shocker in situ

The device also has a vibrate mode that She can choose to use if She simply wants to get my attention and summons me from, say the kitchen to where She is sat in the living room. Of course She can also zap me to get the same response. So far She has used both. She seems to enjoy the latter. What it means though is that i now need to quickly report to Her side to see what She wants or risk being zapped by Her again.

The other benefit of the device is that it has also provided Owner with plenty of opportunities to indulge Her more playfully sadistic side, an opportunity She has fully embraced. Owner actively enjoys zapping me for no reason other than the pleasure that doing so brings to Her. She enjoys zapping me for fun. As a result i am now constantly on edge, knowing that at any moment She could choose to inflict some more pain on me. One minute i might be washing up, the next minute...zap.  On the toilet...zap.  Ironing....zap. Required to stop doing something...zap. Have me start doing something....zap. Zap, zap, zap just for fun. In fact, when we are sat together Owner knows that all She has to do is hover Her hand over the remote of the shock device and She instantly has my full, undivided attention. Which of course is how it should be.

So the device does, i think, have the real potential to take Owners control over me and my submission to Her to the next level. She can get my attention, inflict pain and discomfort at any moment and without any need for physical activity on Her behalf. She can and does still enjoy wielding Her whips, paddles, canes, crops etc against my bottom but that involves physical effort on Her part. This device does not. Just the touch of a button and pain is administered at a level selected by Her.

In short, it offers the possibility of becoming a very effective training and disciplining (if needed) tool as well as a device that is bringing Owner a great deal of pleasure, albeit at my expense.

the velcro fastening keeps the shock device in place

But, i hear you say. You could simply take the device off and render it useless. Yes, of course i could, it is after all only secured in situ with a velcro strap. But, why would i want to do such a thing? That presupposes that i don't want to be controlled by Owner in this way, when in reality nothing makes me happier than being so. Ours is a dance of control and submission in which i am a very willing and active participant. Over the years we have been together Owner has established greater and greater control over all aspects of my life and i would not want it anyway. My sole desire in life is to submit as completely and absolutely to Her as is humanly possible, whilst still staying the silly, fun-loving couple we are and still being each others best friend, which we are as well.

Just as i remain convinced that being in chastity and kept denied orgasmic release makes me a better person and submissive wife to Her so too do i think that the clit electro-shock device has the potential to make me a better and more submissive wife for Her

i genuinely can't wait to see how this device might further shape us, both my submission to Owner and Her domination of me. i am certain it will further strengthen and reinforce Her control over me and that is something i don't simply welcome, it is something i crave.

Exciting times.

Dance of the Sugar Plum[p] Fairy

What do you mean you have never seen an unflexible 53-year old attempt ballet? As readers will know Owner likes to have me perform for Her and entertain Her at least once a month. This time She requested that i complete a 5 minute ballet routine for Her.

Well, i have never attempted ballet in my life (just in case you could not tell :)). But hey, there is always a first time. i also did not have a pretty pink leotard or tutu to wear, let alone ballet shoes, so i had to improvise. 

Is it a bird? Is it a plane? No, it's ballet dancing poppet

i did, however, choose what i think was an appropriate piece of music, namely Tchaikovsky's Waltz of the Flowers from the Nutcracker Suite - featuring the sugar plum fairy. Obviously i smashed it (lols) - actually Owner congratulated me and seemed genuinely happy with my first attempt at ballet. You can judge for yourself below

i could definitely do with a few more lessons i think you'll agree.

Meanwhile, earlier in the day Owner had me stood facing the wall for 30 minutes naked, wearing nipples clamps and with a pair of Her used knickers draped over my head so i could inhale the scent of Her sex. It is a wonderful aroma and one that nearly distracted me from the discomfort of my clamped nipples, nearly but not quite. 

Afterwards She took me out for a coffee in a new cafe that has opened up not far from us. We indulged and both had a slice of lemon cake as well, which was scrumptious.

Enjoying coffee and cake

Returning home i was allowed to watch TV with Her for a little bit before having my bottom paddled hard whilst my uncaged clit was festooned with 30 mini clothes pegs. 

freshly paddled buttocks

fully clamped (temporarily) uncaged clit with electro device also in situ

i was wearing my electro clit shocking device and Owner followed up my paddling with a number of controlled shocks to my labia that had me jumping about despite my best efforts to keep my legs spread open like a good slut.

In fact, Owner has had a lot of fun zapping me when i least expect it throughout the day. My gift to Her seems to have been very well received and will now be worn by me at all times at home. It is an interesting mental adjustment spending your day knowing that at any given moment you could be electrocuted in your clit, as i have been numerous times. i am just pleased She did not zap me during my ballet routine. However, i can see it becoming quite a powerful and effective training tool.

Brought to Heel

Owner loves to zap me and give me electric shocks. It is not something that i am a huge fan of but She derives such obvious sadistic pleasure when electrocuting me that observing Her doing so gladdens my twisted submissive heart. i love being Her plaything, even if being so involves suffering on my part.

Accordingly, when thinking of what to get Her for our anniversary last month i latched upon the idea of a remote control electro-shock device that could be affixed around my clit and which would enable Her to zap me, Her wife, in my most sensitive bits whenever the mood took Her whatever i might be doing at the time. Essentially, a dog training collar for Her human pet....me.

Anyway, long story short, the first device ordered was a total disaster. It was a 'Master series Cock Shock CBT electro cock ring' and my strong advice to anyone reading this is don't waste your money with one. Neither the original nor the replacement we were sent worked. The transmitter did not pair with the receiver and the transmitter was clearly also a cheap plastic thing. The only positive was the customer service at Sinful, the company whom i had ordered the device through. They were great. They replaced the original device no questions asked and when that proved to be equally useless they instantly refunded the money.

i was, however, determined to try again. i found another device online which looked good but which retailed for a suspiciously (or so i thought) low cost. It was an Electric Stimulation Electric Shock Penis Ring ordered from Wish. After the previous experience i confess i was a bit skeptical as to whether this device would be any better and, coming direct from China, how long it might take to arrive.

My skepticism was proven wrong on both counts, it arrived promptly and worked perfectly. This is what the device looks like

Electric shock device and control unit

The build quality is much better than the Master Series device, plus both the transmitter and receiver are fully rechargeable. The device comes with a neck collar but i used the smaller velcro collar the Master Series device came with to attach it to my clit. It attaches snugly around the base of my clit with the twin electrodes pressed firm against my labia/plums. They are activated by remote control from the transmitter. The shock device can be worn with my chastity cage as well as without, ensuring that my clit can be zapped irrespective of whether i am caged or not. 

The device has a number of different settings all of which are adjustable from the control unit. It has a shock setting that starts at 1 and goes up to 100 (i am such a woos that even level 1 can bring me to my knees). It also has a vibrate mode and a flashing mode. It has a claimed range of 300m and Owner has tested it and found that She can zap me wherever i am in the flat when i am wearing it. In short, it has the potential to be the perfect device for Her to unleash Her sadistic and playful side on me.

Owner has already had great fun bringing me, quite literally to my knees by electrocuting me in my most sensitive of areas. There were a few times yesterday when, one minute i was doing some housework and the next i was doubled over or on the floor. She also playfully alternates between the vibrate and shock mode and will stand next to me, device in hand, finger on the control causing me to flinch simply in anticipation of what might be to come.

i suggested that the vibration mode could become a means for Her to summons me if She wants something from me whilst the shock mode, aside from offering Her hours of amusement, could also be used for an instant and memorable punishment if i displease Her. The device will now be worn by me at all times when i am at home and i need to learn the habit of ensuring that the control unit is always close to Owner should She need to use it. i also need to make sure both the transmitter and receiver are kept fully-charged.

We are both very pleased with the new device. Owner has the perfect tool to torment, punish or summons me whenever She so wishes whilst i get to live with another constant reminder of Her control over me and my submission to Her. In the same way that i love being in chastity because of the constant reminder it provides me of Owners control of me so wearing this device ensures She always has a way of enforcing Her domination, if needed. It also plays to Her sadistic side. 

One of the things that i have observed, and which i cherish, about our relationship is the fact that as She has grown in authority Owner is no longer averse to inflicting pain on me. Quite the opposite, She enjoys doing so. Now She has a means of doing so at home whenever She feels like it and She has already demonstrated on multiple occasions over the past 24 hours that She loves to do so, just for fun.

In other news, Owner took me out for drinks with Her after work on Friday. We both had a lovely evening and there were plenty of other people in the bar for us to gossip and chat about. Then yesterday, after completing my household chores i was sent to a cafe that is about a ten minute walk from us to go and get a coffee for Owner (She really likes the coffee they make) and one for myself. However, i was despatched with some specific additional requirements a) my nipples were to be clamped and b) my pussy plugged.

The cafe is about a ten minute walk away and on route there was a nearby quiet spot that afforded an opportunity for a couple of quick photos to show what i was 'wearing'

lifting my top and bra to flash my clamped tits

plug in place

It made for a memorable coffee run.

Later today, in addition to my studies and housework i also have a spanking and corner time to look forward to. Life is good and i can think of nothing i would rather do than submit myself completely to my wonderful Owner. i truly am a lucky slut.

By The Seaside

'Oh! I do like to be beside the seaside! I do like to be beside the sea! Oh I do like to stroll along the Prom, Prom, Prom! Where the brass bands play, "Tiddely-om-pom-pom!"'

Owner and i made a flying visit this past weekend to the Devon seaside. The main purpose of the trip was for me to see my Dad. However, Owner also had some additional plans in store for me.

Weather-wise it was typical Eng. So it was definitely a case of dodging squalls and showers between fleeting moments of bright blue skies as we took in the air along the promenade. The views were, however, quite splendid.

Here i am, fully brolleyed up, on the seafront as the rains swept in again

Whilst we were down Owner also had a couple of treats and surprises of Her own for me.

First off, on Sunday morning, i was presented with a lovely glass of Her piss to drink.

Next i was spanked and caned. Owner started with my bottom, spanking it with Her red paddle, then She caned my clit with Her riding crop.

Once She had done then She then surprised me by instructing me to go out into the hotel corridor in my nightie. Although it was early in the morning the hotel restaurant was open for breakfast so there was a chance that someone could appear at any time but out into the corridor i trooped. i looked a bit of a fright as i had not long been up and had not fixed my hair or face which you can tell from the pictures.

It made for a much more fun start to the day than i had been expecting!

Incidentally, long-term readers know i love to accesorise myself and have a thing for suspending chains or pendants from my piercings. What do you think of my latest? i have hung a pearl from my gauche piercing (just below my clit). i think it looks pretty, how about you?

Home Alone Witchiness

Living in a female-led relationship means that, whereas Owner is always free to do as She pleases, is free to go out whenever and with whom ever She might want, the same is not true for me. Of course i am allowed outside, but unless it is for work or to run an errand i must always seek Owners prior permission to do so. i have to tell Her where i would like to go, with whom, at what time, for how long and whether food or alcohol might be involved. Furthermore, i have to suggest a punishment that i might receive in return if my wish to go out unaccompanied by Her is grated by Owner.

Such need for prior permission is a further extension of Owners control and authority over me, and one that i greatly appreciate. She expects me to be at home as much as possible as Her stay at home wife. This is where i am happiest and where i too want to be. Accordingly, introducing the requirement that any solo outings by me to see friends and family require prior approval has helped me to focus my efforts on minimising such outings and maximising my time at home with Owner, where i belong.

In contrast, post-Covid Owner is starting to get Her get up and go back. She is not a social butterfly but She has been making more of an effort to get back out and catch-up with Her friends. She does this without me and i like the fact that that is the case. i find that i love being at home whilst She goes out for meals or drinks or even goes on short vacations with Her friends. i like it as it symbolises to me a crucial aspect of our relationship dynamic, one that i would not change for the world. Namely, Her freedom to do whatever She likes, whenever She likes and with whoever She likes and the absence of such freedom for me. The fact that i have to ask, that permission might be refused and that permission always comes with consequences.

Owner knows that whatever She does i will always be at home waiting for Her. Actually, that is not strictly true. i will be at home until alerted by Her that She is on Her way home. Then i will come to the station to collect Her and carry Her bag home from Her. i love that Owner has come to expect this of me, to have me live as Her stay at home wife whilst She is free to do as She pleases.

i love it even more that when She does leave me alone at home She expects that i will use my time wisely and constructively by getting on with my chores or any tasks that She has set for me. Take today for example. She has gone out for the day to meet friends for lunch and to spend the afternoon with them. i was left with my usual Sunday chores to complete, namely sweeping and mopping all of the floors. However, Owner also left me some additional tasks to keep me occupied whilst She went out.

i was instructed to clean all of Her jewellery, to remove the tarnish that had developed on some of Her rings and chains and to make them sparkle again. i was also tasked with doing some household research for Her. She wants to replace the blind on the kitchen and so tasked me with coming up with some options. She also set a little challenge for me, namely to do a Halloween-themed photo shoot whilst She was out, with at least one of the photos being taken outside. i was also expected to research and practice some ballet routines in readiness for a later performance i need to give Owner for Her entertainment. In short, i was kept busy and occupied doing things for Her, some practical, some educational and some a little more frivolous.

i truly love how our relationship has evolved into this dynamic. To be at home as Her stay-at-home wife making sure Her house is kept, completing tasks i have been set, all the while hoping She is out having a great time. This is the life i love to live. Submitting to and controlled by Owner.

Anyway, enough of my ramblings. Here are some of the Halloween pictures i took for Owner. i wore my witches outfit and took some pictures in the flat and then headed out (in the torrential rain) to a local cemetery to take some more 'atmospheric' ones. Let me know what you think. First off in the cemetery

and at home

It was fun to do and i am grateful to Owner for Her having set me this challenge.

Actually, talking of all things Halloween yesterday Owner and i carved out pumpkins. Guess which one is mine and which is Hers?

Owner also bought me a pair of Halloween spider earrings yesterday whilst She was out and i was home cleaning and dealing with another builder (nothing major just something that needed fixing). The latter did, however, give me another opportunity to be flaunt myself at home, this time in a sequined mini-skirt and stockings, to the lovely builder

me and the builders tools

After the builder had left and Owner and i had had our lunch we went for a walk and then had coffee in a cafe - which provided this opportunity to show off my spider earrings

When we returned home we then both watched a movie together.

So anyway, there you have it. A long and slightly rambling post about how much i love my life with Owner, a life in which She can and does expect me to stay at home and decides whether or not i am allowed to go out. A life as well where, when She goes out, Owner expects me to keep myself productively occupied and in which She knows She can and does make demands on how i spend my time whilst we are apart.

Owner knows that She is free to live Her life entirely as She chooses and that i will always be there, at home, hopefully spending my time productively and eagerly waiting for Her summons to come and collect Her. In fact, She has just texted me now to say She is on Her way back so i will draw this post to a close and leave it for Her to review and edit at Her convenience before publishing.

Pleasure and Pain

Yesterday i was offered a very rare treat by Owner, the opportunity to fuck myself with one of Her dildos for a full 5 minutes whilst She watched and timed me. However, there was to be a twist, a painful one.

Before being permitted to demonstrate to Her what an eager cock sucking and fucking slut i am i was instructed to first attach forty (40) mini pegs to the exposed 'labia' of my caged 'clit'. The pegs were a combination of wooden and metal miniature clothes pegs. The most i have ever previously been instructed to attach at the same time was twenty. i wasn't sure i would find enough skin to attach twice that number of pegs. Spoiler alert - i did.

Pegs in position, and using my own saliva to make myself wet, i slid Owner's delightful cock deep inside my pussy and started to fuck myself with it. i paused only to briefly remove, fellate and moisten it further before re-inserting. 

All the while Owner stood at the end of the bed observing Her slut wife. She held Her stopwatch in Her hand as She timed the five minutes of pleasure She had permitted me, occasionally taking a photograph to document Her slut wife's performance. Sadly, it was over all too quickly. First She announced that i had one minute left, then ten seconds and then finally instructed me to stop, leaving me painfully (from the clamps) aroused and excited, my little clit throbbing in its cage.

However, there was more. After attaching the pegs and then fucking myself in front of Her for the full 5 minutes i was then told to present my tits to Her so that each could be caned by Owner using Her twisted cane. In fact, Owner went further still. Not only did She cane my pierced nipples (50 strokes each) but She also caned my still fully clamped clit. Ouch!

It was definitely a case of painful pleasure - not too much pleasure i hasten to add. i did not have any accidents. 

Owner declared Herself fully satisfied with how i had got on and congratulated me on enduring such discomfort for Her. Below are some pictures;

fucking myself whilst my caged clit was heavily clamped

my caged clit decorated with 40 mini-pegs

arse to mouth - moistening the cock to re-insert

between the cheeks

eyes of a slut

You can see the selection of Owner's tools of pain and pleasure that i got to experience last night below

twisted cane, dildo and 40 X metal/wooden mini-pegs

Perhaps unsurprisingly, my clit looked a little red after all of the pegs had been very painfully (taking them off truly is the most uncomfortable part) removed.

Pleasure and pain enjoyed and endured it was time for yours truly to prepare dinner. Afterwards i washed up, cleaned the kitchen and then was allowed to re-join Owner and watch a TV series with Her.

i hope your evening was as fun.