7th Wedding Anniversary

Today marks Owner and my seventh wedding anniversary. We have been together much longer than that, this year is the 20th anniversary of when we first met and got together, but seven years ago today saw us stood underneath the iconic 'Welcome to Las Vegas' sign exchanging vows. You can read all about that day here.

Becoming Owners' lawfully wedded wife remains the best decision in life that i ever made. Having Her as my life partner and Owner, until death do us part (or She tires of me) is such a wonderful honour and privilege. We plan to renew our vows on the occasion of our 10th wedding anniversary. This year we marked it with the simple exchange of cards and gifts, Owner bought be a beautiful heart-shaped framed map of Las Vegas, i bought Her a necklace and a Lelo vibrator (Her pleasure is my pleasure). We went out and celebrated the occasion a day early.

Firstly by going to the Linder exhibition at the Hayward Gallery, which was brilliant, ollowed by a walk along the Thames to London Bridge and then onto Tower Hill and beyond for a bit of an impromptu pub crawl. We visited a couple of different establishments before alighting on one that we liked. An amazing old-fashioned pub called the 'Princess of Prussia' where we stayed for a drink, or...ahem...well more than a two, let's leave it at that. This was us fooling about in the pub:

Today, being the 16th of the month also meant that, after serving breakfast and exchanging our presents, it was time for two sets of dice to be rolled. The first was the chastity dice. Last time the dice decided that i must spend a month continuously caged. What would be in store this time? Unbeknownst to me Owner had added a new, much longer lock-up period to the options on the dice. That is what i rolled. i will be spending the next six months caged 24/7. Her chastity dice will not be rolled again until mid-August and my clit will remain locked away until then, released only for supervised cleaning.

The second dice to be rolled were the outdoor challenge dice. Once again it decided that mid-winter is the ideal time to be seen in a pink bikini outdoors, specifically out in the street next to ours. This is how i got on with completing that particular challenge.

It was only about 3 degrees celsius outside so i didn't linger for long in my bikini! This street i was instructed to pose in is also only about 200 metres from where we live, so there was plenty of chance of being seen by a neighbour. It is also over-looked from three directions and the challenge was done at about 11am, so there were people out and about who saw me. i wonder what they made of me?

The weekend has also seen me getting on with my tasks and chores, studying Spanish and completing my exercises. Owner actually presented me with a delicious and refreshing glass of Her piss to consume after i completed my exercises yesterday. It was just the reviving tonic that i needed as i was hot, tired and sweaty from my workout;

Last night Owner also treated me by instructing me to purchase tickets for us both to go and see the band Babymetal in concert in May. i have always wanted to go and see them as i love their music and their outfits but the performances also look amazing. See for example this epic performance of their song 'Headbanger':

Back to today. For our anniversary lunch i made Owner roast chicken with vegetables, one of Her favourite dishes.

Owners' meals served on a plate

mine in my pink dog bowl - which all my meals are eaten from

Before dinner i was instructed by Owner to fuck myself with Her brown dildo for Her entertainment. i did so on all fours on the floor in front of where Owner was sat on the sofa. Whilst i fucked my hungry pussy She tested out Her new Lilo vibrator. i was careful not to get myself too excited and have an accidental leak, which Owner would have regarded, quite rightly, as unforgiveable. To lessen the chance of that happening i occasionally fellated the dildo, sucking it clean, before re-inserting it and continuing to fuck myself. Owner had set Her timer for ten minutes and occasional announced how many minutes i had left to keep fucking my pussy. i was oddly relieved when finally the ten minutes were declared to be up and i was able to show Owner my clean caged clit, not a sign of leakage to be seen. It has now been over eight and a half months, 260 days to be precise, since i last experienced an orgasm of any kind. i am truly grateful and thankful that She has kept me in a state of long-term orgasm denial.

fucking my pussy in front of Owner

All in all has been an eventful and memorable anniversary and i can't wait to spend the next year of wedded and submissive bliss with Owner. She is the best Owner and life partner i could ever have hoped for, i am truly grateful to be able to live my life with Her and be kept under Her control.

Talking of control. Owner has not had cause to be upset or disappointed with me during this, the second week of the trial. i have, therefore, not needed to add any new entries into my punishment book. Fingers crossed my performance will continue to be regarded as satisfactory by Her such that, when the trial period concludes in March, i might be considered worthy of having my life and actions more tightly and rigidly controlled by Her. i love my life as Owners' submissive wife.

The Trial - A Progress Update

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Tripple Treats

Owner really treated me yesterday afternoon. After i made lunch, washed the dishes and finished cleaning out the fridge She gave me permission to order two new cleaning smocks to wear. My current ones are a little faded and no longer look smart. Owner also let me order a new mini-skirt, to replace the one i usually wear when working from home, as it too has gone to the great recycling scheme in the sky on account of it looking somewhat past its prime. i can't wait for my new smocks and skirt to arrive.

Owner also presented me with a lovely full, fresh glass of Her freshly decanted piss early yesterday afternoon which She handed to me to drink. On account of it having been poured slightly later in the day Her amber nectar was light and fresh, the colour of white wine but with a better taste, a real palate cleanser.

It was consumed with relish. i truly love drinking Owners urine, whether it be Her rich and full-bodied dark amber early morning servings or the lighter, crisper white wine coloured urine She dispenses later in the day. All are delicious. It is a drink i have come to crave.

She was not, however, done. More bodily treats were in store for me. With Her fresh piss drunk by Her eager slut Owner then instructed me to strip off and wait for Her naked in Her bed. After a few minutes She joined me under the sheets, the difference being She was fully clothed whilst i was naked.

Owner instructed me to lie on my side so that She could fondle me properly then went to work, groping, molesting and caressing me. She fondled, stroked, squeezed and mauled my breasts, my caged clit, my pussy whilst i groped me Owner also took the opportunity to rub Her crotch against my buttocks and my legs, using my body as a tool for Her pleasure. But it was not just Owner who was getting aroused, i was too. Especially when She then cupped my caged clit in Her hand, exposing the vulnerable twin lobes of my swollen labia which She then began to spank with Her free hand. 

She struck each softly at first before striking them harder and harder, causing me pain which swiftly morphed into excited arousal. Would Owner continue hitting me down there until She forced me beg to be allowed to orgasm? On the very rare occasions that She does make me cum, this is typically how Owner does it, by beating my exposed bits so hard that i quite literally howl in anguished pleasure as i beg to be allowed to orgasm. Thankfully, however, Owner also knows that orgasms are not good for me and so was careful not to hit me so much as to make me cum, just enough to ensure that i became highly aroused and animalistic. She also rightly expects the focus of such sexual encounters to be on Her, Her orgasm, Her pleasure and needs. 

Accordingly, stopped beating my swollen bits, removed her trousers and knickers, took Her vibrator from Her bedside cabinet and began to pleasure Herself with Her mechanical toy. As She did She rolled onto Her side, lifted Her knees to Her chest and instructed me to lick out Her arsehole.

My response was eager and immediate. i positioned myself behind Her in a reverse spoon position, She lifted Her leg so that my tongue had full access to Her anus, then gripped my head between Her thighs, locking me in place. Feeling horny as hell i spread Her cheeks apart with my hands then began to feverishly lick and lap Her backside, revelling in the scent and the taste of Her bottom as my tongue pushed deep inside into Her delicious butthole. 

As Her submissive slut wife and human sex toy Owner has long since denied me access to the holy shrine of Her pussy, and quite rightly so, She has no need of me there. That is a private shrine reserved for Her vibrators or anyone She might ever choose to invite, not me. My place, my task in helping Her climax, is worshiping and pleasuring Her butt with my tongue. It has become what She expects of me and i, in turn, have become obsessed by it. i love and adore it, crave the opportunity to smell and taste Her divine anus, lubricate it with my tongue, probe and devour it. i love feeling Her sphincter muscles quiver and contract as Her vibrator brings Her off in a manner that i cannot. 

In no time at all Owners hips began to rythmically rock back and forth, Her bottom bouncing against my straining tongue as it probed deeper inside Her whilst She clamped Her vibrator hard against Her clit. My own arousal increased, my clit throbbing in its cage as Owners backside grew wet with my saliva, smearing and smudging my makeup. She climaxed with my tongue deep inside Her arsehole as Her vibrator buzzed and pulsed millimeters from my nose, held fast against Her long forbidden (to me) sex.

Afterwards, as we lay in each others arms, i thanked Owner for allowing me the privilege and the treat of licking and tasting Her anus. i also thanked Her for having spanked my labia hard to ensure that i was left highly aroused but denied and frustrated whilst was sexually satisfied. It is how i love to be and feels right and appropriate for us both. She can take and receive pleasure whenever and however She chooses. My own goal, sole purpose and main pleasure in life is in ensuring Owner receives the pleasure She expects and deserves.

i am a very happy and contented, even though sexually frustrated, horny but denied, arse licker. i adore the smell and the taste of Owners anus and cannot think of a place i would rather be or a thing i would rather be doing in life than tonguing Her divine backside. It was a wonderful afternoon. A day of treats and delight. Just as i love drinking Owners piss i hope one day to also get to become Her full toilet slave, my tongue and mouth entrusted with ensuring Her backside is always spotlessly clean.

Owner has also changed what She expects from me during the current trial period She has placed me into. Rather than have me request each Saturday that She sit on my face She now wants me to ask Her how i might please Her as Her sextoy every Saturday? We both agree that this feels more appropriate and a truer recognition of my purpose to Her

The Trial Week 1 + A Broken Beehive and a Thank You

Well the first week of my month month long trial was successfully navigated without any slip-ups or failings (that i know of) on my part. i have ensured everything is spotlessly clean, have always used my lanyard to request permission first before talking to Owner, have greeted Her naked whilst prostrating myself and kissing Her feet when She has returned from Her early morning walks. i have also been organising some repairs to be done in the flat. [EDIT - Owner has just highlighted that there is limescale on the bathroom tap that has not been removed, i have entered into my punishment log]

Last night, at the end of the first full week of the trial, i did as i am now instructed to do every Friday during this period and asked Owner if She would electrocute me. She gladly obliged, but warned me that She was in a bad mood. Owner secured me to the bed before electrocuting my nipples, my clit, my butt cheeks and my 'pussy' as i flinched, bucked, twisted and squirmed. Owner's mood seemed to improve as a result of Her torturing me.

tied-up with a variety of electro-torture devices to hand

Meanwhile, i have stuck with my regular daily chores, prepared a variety of different meals during the week, kept up with my Spanish studies and provided Owner with daily head scratches and back massages on Her request. In short, i have been kept contentedly busy. Owner even gave me some tasks to complete during the day whilst i was working from home. The first of these tasks was requested on Monday when She pissed into a transparent water bottle and told me to take it to the park and then drink Her piss. This i did whilst sat in front of the park cafe - which seemed an appropriate location.

drinking Owners' piss in the park

It was delicious.

The next challenge came yesterday (Friday) when i was told to remain gagged between work meetings. It being a Friday i did not have that many calls so i wore the gag for extended periods. It was quite a challenge to avoid drooling spectacularly down my blouse whenever the gag was removed to join a Teams call with colleagues or clients.

gagged - also wearing my 'permission to speak' lanyard

working away

So, so far, so good. This weekend i need to get on with de-cluttering etc but hopefully i will continue to maintain my current, improved, performance for the duration of this trial period and Owner will deem me worthy of being yet more strictly controlled by Her.

Talking of strictly controlled. There is a blog i follow written by the wonderful sklave in stahl documenting his life as the 24/7 slave of his wife and mistress in their beautiful country home in Ireland (they are a German couple and the blog is written in German so, if like me you speak no German, you will need to translate each entry). Anyway, i find their lifestyle, although different in many respects to Owners and mine, to be inspiring. i have also struck up an occasional email exchange with him. Anyway, i have recently spoken of the current issues Owner has with Her frozen shoulder which is causing Her a lot of discomfort at times and restricting what She can do. Well the kind mistress of sklave in stahl generously permitted him to be briefly released from the metal chains he spends much of his time secured with in order for him to record two little instructional videos with some shoulder exercise suggestions for Owner. It was such a lovely gesture and Owner was very touched when She watched the videos that someone should go to such trouble and be so helpful. We were truly grateful.

There are a number of followers of this blog that i am in correspondence with and one thing always strikes me. All of them, without fail, are such wonderful, lovely people. Quite the antidote to some of the shit going on in the world right now. i feel blessed and lucky to have got to know them through this blog.

Anyway, back to the week that was. In less good news my new beehive chastity device broke quite dramatically at the start of the week - the cage split in three different places. Owner and i cannot think of anything we did that might have caused it to break and i can't believe my little clit is that powerful when excited to be able to break it when trying to get aroused. Unless, that is there was a flaw in the cage. Anyway, i am back in my old pink plastic nub device whilst we see if we can get the beehive replaced. 

That's about it for now. i will see later on if Owner might treat me again by sitting on my face and letting me worship Her divine backside. 

The Trial Begins + A Pyjama Party

Yesterday (1st February) marked day one of the trial period that Owner has set me. i must demonstrate to Her during this month long period that i am worthy of being more tightly controlled and dominated by Her by improving my performance and submission to Her.

As mentioned in previous posts, although the trial actually started yesterday, i have been implementing some of the changed behaviours Owner expects of me since earlier in the week to give me the best chance of 'normalising' them so that i do them as a matter of routine. Well, twenty-four hours in and so far, so good. 

i did my usual chores, but also remembered to not speak to Owner when She was listening to Her audio books without first seeking Her permission to do so. i also made sure that the shower tray and kitchen sink were both kept spotlessly clean. i also set about doing one of the tasks Owner set me for the month, and the one i find most difficult. Namely, clearing out some of the clothes that i don't really wear, or which are a little tired etc. i am a horder, especially when it comes to clothing, and don't like throwing items away. However, i filled a large refuse bag with clothing ranging from blouses and jackets to skirts and panties, all to be recycled. It was hard to do, but i did it.

The first day of the trial fell on a saturday which meant that, as per Her new rules, i could also ask Owner if She might grant me the wonderful pleasure of sitting on my face. She did much more than just that. Owner took me to bed and slowly stripped me until just my bra remained. This She also then removed but tied it around my head so that each of the cups covered my eyes, serving to blindfold me. It was most effective. Owner then donned Her strapon, pulled me off the bed and onto my knees before Her and had me fellate Her 'cock' whilst She brought Herself off with Her vibrator. It was a wonderful treat to be able to suck on Her cock as She pleasured Herself, thrusting Her phallus in and out of my throat leaving Her cock slick and wet with my saliva.

Satiated Owner then had me get up and lie on the bed, still blindfolded by my bra. She then positioned Herself astride my head, lowered Her hips down until Her backside was positioned just above my mouth and instructed me to worship Her delicious anus with my tongue as She once again positioned Her vibrator against Her pussy and began to pleasure Herself once more. i love and adore licking out Owners anus and was soon in seventh heaven with my little clit straining futilely in its cage as my tongue roamed, licked and explored, revelling in Her scent and taste. It was not long before the combination of my tongue and Her faithful favourite vibrator induced another orgasm for Owner, Her thighs clamping hard around my head as She climaxed. My tongue continued to gently lap Her sphincter until She had recovered enough to start to pleasure Herself with Her toy once again. Soon She was riding my tongue hard as it pleasured Her backside as Her toy brought Her to Her third climax.

Owner collapsed, seemingly spent and rolled panting to Her side. i was hot with frustrated desire and passion. My mouth and nose filled with the exquisite taste and scent of Her derriere, my face smeared with the forbidden juice of Her sex. i rolled sideways but rather than just lay panting in each others arms my tongue was directed to Her backside one last time. With my head between Her legs, as She lay on Her side on the bed, my hands spread Her butt cheeks apart and my fevered tongue went back to work as She worked Her vibrator across Her clit one last time. My tongue lapped, circled, swirled and probed Her backside as Her pleasure grew until the muscles of Her thighs quivered and gripped my head like a vice as Her final orgasm ripped through Her.

Later, as we lay flushed side by side Owner teased me about how difficult it must be to have my little clit so aroused but denied in its cage. It is frustrating but the opportunity to taste and pleasure Her anus is so wonderful i would happily remain denied for eternity just for the opportunity to worship Her divine backside. 

The above all happened a little after lunch. When we had recovered Owner and i went for a walk to the shops in order that i might get the last of the items i needed for the pyjama party that i hosted for Owner later in the day.

Owner regularly likes to have me entertain or organise things for Her and last week She advised me that She wished for me to arrange a pyjama party for Her. With Her permission matching outfits were ordered, party games were selected and an invitation was designed and sent to Her for a party starting at 5.30pm. In town i bought a selection of magazines for us to read and some matching friendship bracelets. When we returned i prepared the food and laid out pillows and put on some party music. Owner advised that i was allowed alcoholic drinks and so She prepared rum and coke for her and limoncello and lemonade drinks for me.

The party was a great success, Owner loved it and has said that She wants to have pyjama parties more often. Here are some pictures:

in our matching PJs

table set with food, games, drinks and magazines

Eagle-eyed viewers will note that i bought three different types of magazines for the party, gossip, fashion and one with images of male hunks. We enjoyed them all!

Electrocution

The month long trial period that Owner has set me, to determine if i am worthy of being dominated by Her more strictly than i currently am, may not start until tomorrow (1st February) but we have already begun to implement Her new regime in advance. An effort to help me be prepared for when the trial itself starts in earnest.

Accordingly, after work today i went up to Owner and, after obtaining permission to speak with Her, requested that She electrocute me. This is to become a weekly Friday night occurrence. Owner graciously obliged and so, after i put the food in the oven for dinner, i returned to Owners bedroom to be tied up and then electrocuted by Her. She used a combination of the electro-torture device attached around my clit and Her handheld electric tazapper. Can you tell from the pictures below which one was taken before She started to shock me and which was taken when She had finished with me?

i am pleased to report that Owner had a thoroughly enjoyable time. As for me? Well, mine was quite shocking :)

Permission to Speak?

So, it is still a few days away until the Trial period that Owner has set for me commences. This period being to see if i can demonstrate to Her that i am worthy of consideration of becoming more tightly controlled by Her. However, there is no time like the present. To get myself used to some of the new requirements and rules She has specified for me i am attempting to implement them all now.

Accordingly, i am spending more time checking that the shower tray in the bathroom is spotlessly clean and that the inside of the kitchen sink is wiped down and sparkly after i have done the washing up. i am also trying to implement Owner's new requirement that i do not disturb Her when She is listening to Her audio books and instead indicate to Her that i wish to speak and then wait until She indicates whether or not i am permitted to do so.

To that end Owner has made me a wonderful lanyard that i now wear around my neck all the time at home to be used to seek permission to speak to Owner. It has a super cute image of a manga style schoolgirl character raising her arm as if seeking permission to speak in class. Owner designed it Herself (with the help of AI). This image is what i must show to Owner whenever i wish to talk to Her and She is otherwise occupied. The challenge is that Owner uses small wireless ear buds which are completely concealed under Her hair when She is listening to Her audio books so i actually cannot tell if She is listening to Her book or not. i have concluded that it is best to assume that She might always be listening and simply to use the lanyard at all times and raise it to Her if i wish to speak with Her. Having my ability to communicate with Her restricted like this is a wonderful new form of control.  The lanyard is also super kawaii, i simply adore it.

permission to speak lanyard close-up

in my housework smock with my permission to speak lanyard

Another change that i have implemented 'early' is that now when i greet Owner when She returns from Her early morning walk, by kneeling and kissing Her feet, rather than do so wearing my dressing gown i now do so naked. Again, this is a new rule Owner has introduced for me.

Greeting Owner on Her return from Her walk

In position, naked and waiting to prostrate myself before Owner

Of course, what will really prove to Her whether i am capable of submitting even more deeply to Her and being controlled more rigidly by Her (as we both desire) will be my ability to keep Her home as spotlessly clean and organised as She desires. i also need to arrange for the last of the home improvements to be done, de-clutter the flat from top to bottom and throw out some of my clothes (which will be hard to do). This whilst keeping up with my daily and other chores, ensuring i cook healthy, pleasing meals, that i don't over order and check no expired foodstuffs are ever in the house. Oh, and  i need to ask to be electrocuted by Owner once a week. i don't really like being electrocuted but i also know i must learn to endure it. In return for this She might grant me the wonderful privilege of sitting on my face. What utter bliss!

i really do hope that i pass my February trial and that Owner grants me the honour and privilege of taking my daily submission to Her and Her control of me to the next level. It truly is what i desire above all else in life.

Meanwhile, Owner also set me some other tasks to do this week, part of the random series of tasks She assigns to me on a weekly basis which are decided through the drawing of cards. This time i was instructed to a) wear my butt plug for the duration of an online work meeting and then b) perform 50 Russian twists whilst 20 mini-pegs were clamped to my 'labia'. Here's how i got on:

It is now also well into my second week of being locked 24/7 into my new beehive mini chastity device. Things continue to go very well and Owner and i are both delighted with my new cage. This is me having my first weekly supervised shower, an opportunity to shave then clean my clit. The latter is done with a nail brush to ensure no accidental arousal during the cleaning process. i made sure that i scrubbed my bits thoroughly. Owner took the picture whilst overseeing the process from Her perch on the toilet seat.

supervised shower whilst i scrub my clit clean before returning to chastity

In other news Owner requested that i organise a pyjama party for the two of us. My plan for this is currently coming together. There will be snacks, party games, a movie, a nail salon,  drinks for Owner and perhaps for me if i am allowed and, most importantly, matching nightwear. i asked Owner if She could select a matching pyjama set we could each wear. This She did and the outfits were ordered and arrived just a few days later. They are great, each set fits and i can't wait to wear them with Her when we have the party.

That's all for now.

The Trial

This year marks Owner and my twentieth anniversary together, it is quite a milestone. With that also comes an opportunity to review and and further develop the relationship we have, Her control over me and my submission to Her. Ours is already a relationship in which i submit to Owner and She controls much of my life, but there are always opportunities to develop our Female-led relationship further, to extend Her control over me and deepen my submission to Her. This is what i truly desire.

This weekend Owner has been considering whether or not to grant me the honour of submitting myself to a deeper form of Her control. However, before moving forwards it is also of great importance to Her that i demonstrate that i am capable of properly doing and executing the level of submission and service that She expects from me now, let alone taking that a step further. She rightly expects me to prove to Her that i am, indeed, ready to be developed and trained further by doing the things She already expects of me to the standard She requires. In that regard She has found a number of aspects of my submission to Her wanting and my performance to be below Her expectations of me, Her submissive wife. Accordingly, She has given me a period of one month, from the 1st to the 28th of February in which to improve my performance, raise my game and prove to Her that i am, indeed, capable and worthy of being taken further under Her control.

Owner has pointed out that whilst i do routinely complete my chores i do not routinely complete them to the standard She expects. There have also been some other lapses and failures on my part and there are things i do that irritate and annoy Her and which i must learn to stop. Failure to do these things during the one-month trial will mean that i will not be permitted to have the honour of being developed further by Her at the end of the Trial. In short, only when i have, in Her own words to me;

'mastered the foundational tasks to Owner's satisfaction.'

Will She consider developing me further. To that end She has set out some very specific requirements for me to fulfill and demonstrate to Her satisfaction during the month of February in addition to the usual daily tasks and chores She expects of me. These are:

- check for and dispose of any expired food daily - i.e. She should never, ever find food items in the house that are past their use by date

- talking of food, to always provide Owner with daily healthy meals that meet with Her approval. i like to think i am fairly good at doing this already but there are occasions when i forget to consult Owner before starting cooking or where the meal turns out to be below Her expectations. Neither of these are acceptable.

- thoroughly clean the kitchen sink. Owner has pointed out that She has a magnifying glass with which She can check to see that the sink is completely spotless. She recently had cause to tell me off for not ensuring that the sink overflow and the drain was not spotlessly clean

- ensure that the bathroom is kept similarly spotlessly clean. i clean the bathroom daily but the shower tray sometimes has stray hairs and the tap sometimes has a build-up of calcium

- make sure that i only order food/groceries that are needed and that i do not over order. i am responsible for getting all groceries and there was a recent unfortunate incident in which i ordered salad leaves and tomatoes even though we had plenty. i need to check thoroughly what we have at home before i order.

In addition to the above, and tired of me disturbing and interrupting Her when She is listening to one of Her audio books, i must in future obtain Owners' permission to speak to Her when She is reading. Owner is often to be found listening to Her audio books, even when She is busy doing other things, and hates it when i suddenly start talking to Her causing Her to have to stop Her book. In future i must always indicate that i want to talk to Her and then wait for Her response. To this end She is making me a sign which i must hold up to Her when She is reading to indicate that i wish to speak to Her. She may choose to simply ignore my request or allow me to speak but i must not disturb Her and speak to Her without authorisation.

Owner is also in the habit of going for daily early morning walks around our local park before She starts work (when She is working from home). It is already expected of me that i greet Her return by waiting at the top of the stairs as She comes in and then prostrating myself and kissing each of Her feet. It is a wonderful little routine that we both really enjoy, it reaffirms Her and my status. In future, Owner expects me to be fully naked when i do this.

Furthermore, Owner also expects me to use the month of February to organise the last of the home renovations that need doing (to the staircase) and to present Her with a plan for organising the small communal 'garden' area at the front of the building our flat is in.

She has also instructed me to de-clutter the flat and the loft and dispose of/recycle items that are no longer needed and to do the same with my clothing, removing items that are not necessary, not used or not in a good condition. i am a bit of a hoarder and always find getting rid of clothes to be quite difficult, but i know i must do.

As Her current frozen shoulder prevents Her from caning or beating me, Owner has instead instructed that i am instead to present myself to Her every Friday and request that i be electrocuted by Her. i hate beign electrocuted but know that i must learn to tolerate it. For Her part Owner loves it and really gets off on being able to inflict pain to me. One of the things She expects is that my current low pain tolerance when it comes to being electrocuted is improved in the same way that She eventually got me to tolerate being caned, whipped or beaten compared to when She first administered these to me. Owner really misses not being able to beat me, it is something She came to really enjoy doing. Hopefully Her shoulder will eventually be fully recovered but electrocuting me gives Her the opportunity to inflict the pain and discomfort to me that She enjoys doing without having to use Her damaged shoulder. 

One of the things that Owner has also stated She expects of me during this trial period which is a real and unexpected surprise is that She has said that on Saturdays i am to request that She sits on my face. i love it when She does this and it will be a wonderful treat and more than i am sure i deserve.

Throughout February Owner has said that i am to keep a record of each and any failure on my part to do any of what She has asked and also record any other misdeeds and misdemeanours on my part. Sundays will then see me told to read out any failures on my part in order that i might be suitably punished, including having the period of the Trial extended. 

So, unlike the character Josef K in the Franz Kafka book, The Trial i do know what is expected of me if i am to pass the trial that Owner has set me. i truly hope that i prove myself worthy and She considers me ready to be further dominated and controlled by Her come the end of February.