Health, Travels, Work and Cheers

As i mentioned in my last post Owner received the all-clear from the doctors a few days ago. It really did come as a great relief to us both and we had been waiting over 6 weeks to hear. The intervening period saw some of my usual domestic routines take a bit of a dive as we spent a lot of time in the evenings snuggled up on the sofa watching DVDs - lovely times but it did mean that some of my expected learning and development fell by the wayside (no Spanish, knitting, sewing etc got done).

Owner has very kindly offered to extend the period of the current phase of my development to allow me to get back on track now that things are back on a more normal keel in our lives. It has also been a month of travelling as well, some of which necessitated time away from Owner which was hard. It was my Mum's 70th birthday and i took her and my sister away for a few days to the Amalfi coast in Italy. It was lovely place to visit and my mum had a wonderful time. However, i don't like being apart from Owner and missed Her terribly. Hopefully one day just the two of us will be able to go back. Here are a couple of quick photos from that trip:

Positano

Ravello

Capri

Owner and i did, however, manage to go on a little trip away ourselves this weekend just gone to Glasgow. We went to see a concert (Nick Cave) but also spent three days exploring the city which neither of us had visited before. We had a really relaxed and enjoyable time together and also got upto a bit of kinkiness as i recalled in my last entry. Owner permitted me to orgasm twice, on both occasions as She spanked my clitty hard. The first time She used a leather fly-swat that She purchased for just such a purpose on another of our travels and the second-time She used the flat of Her palm to spank my clit whilst Her other hand explored my wet pussy. Spanking my clitty hard whenever She allows me to orgasm seems to have become one of the new norms for Owner, i must say that painful as it is, i love it and become quite vocal - something She also encourages Her 'slutty wife' to be! :)

Owner also had one other surprise treat for me in the form of a full glass of Her warm, fresh golden wine (piss) that She presented to me and which i eagerly downed in one. Owner now seems to enjoy having me drink Her urine as much as i relish the opportunity to drink it.  Anyway, here are a couple of pictures from our trip:

Cheers! Glass of Owner's special wine downed in one

Owner's favourite clitty spanking leather fly-swat

 me posing

Glasgow City Centre

Glasgow Central Station

Glasgow Cathedral

Glasgow River Clyde

Whilst we were away Owner continued to choose all of my meals for me when we ate out for lunch and dinner each day. This is something that has now definitely become firmly established as another small example of Her control over my and my submission to Her. A seemingly simple but significant act, rendering menus pointless for me.

As well as this travel the past couple of months have also been quite busy ones for me with work and i have had to travel quite a bit within England to different meetings etc. Owner has remarked that of late i have become less of the stay-at-home wife (i normally work from home) that She is used to and enjoys me being. i too like to be at home for Owner so that i can walk Her to work in the morning and collect Her at the end of the day and do some domestic chores for Her during the day. As Her wife i know that Owner should be able to have me at home where i belong more than has been the case of late and that i need to cut down my work travel. This is something i need to address.

i hope that this finds all my readers well and hopefully you should start seeing my blogging return to its normal frequency!

Owner's All Clear

Just a quick post to say that Owner finally got the all clear from the doctors a couple of days ago. Needless to say this was a huge relief to us both. i had been apart from Her for a few days as i went to Italy with my mum and sister (taking my mum on a surprise birthday trip), but we are reunited again and currently enjoying a little trip to Glasgow in Scotland.

i will post in more detail about our trip etc when we get back but realised i hadn't updated about Owner's news. In the meantime Owner has already treated me to a glass of Her delicious urine and half suffocated me between her buttocks as my tongue pleasure Her arsehole as She brought Herself to orgasm with Her vibrator. It is proving to be a wonderful weekend away!

Hello And An Apology And Overdue Update

i am so sorry it has been so long between posts and am really sorry to have caused concern to some to see if we are OK. In truth, March was not the best of months and it rather knocked Owners and my life a little off-kilter. As i previously posted Owner had an operation last month. The operation was a small one and went well and She has now almost fully healed but we are still waiting for the results of the tests they had to do until She gets the final all clear. This, combined with the discomfort of the stitches, meant that it wasn't exactly a month when Owner felt like doing much. She also hurt Her back and was generally feeling under the weather. It was also combined with a busy period for me at work and we also spent time visiting family in the UK and Spain. The combined consequence of all of this was that a number of the daily routines i usually undertake in the evening fell by the wayside as, instead, Owner and i spent our evenings and spare time together snuggled up on the sofa watching DVDs.

This has meant that there hasn't really felt like here has been much to blog or report about other than that sometimes life can and does get in the way for all of us at times, and that has very much been the case this past month. However, there have, nevertheless, been some notable developments that have occurred which i believe auger well for the continued strengthening and deepening of our Femdom relationship.

One of the most significant, albeit perhaps seemingly trivial, one of these was the new rule that Owner established for me when it comes to eating out in restaurants. Owner declared at the end of last year that, from now on, i was to expect that She would be the one who would take all decisions regarding what i was to be permitted to eat or not when we ate out. In short, the menu would, for me, become redundant. In truth, it took a while for Owner to establish the rule in practice. However, it has now become very much the norm. It was even the case that when we ate our with our respective parents and family it was Owner who (discretely) told me what it was that i was going to eat. It has become another example of how routine decisions about how i live my life are now made exclusively by Owner.

Last month i also completed the last of my public dildo challenges by deep-throating my dildo in a shop changing room. You can see the end result below

Each of these challenges proved great fun to do and i hope there might be other, more challenging, ones in future. It seems a lifetime ago that i wasn't able to deep-throat, now i can open my mouth and gag on a phallus quite easily...just as a good slut should :).

The end of March also marked the formal end of my current 'Plin Plan Plon' development period. It is fair to say that i have not completed a number of the tasks that i was supposed to and i will have to wait to see if Owner feels me worthy of being granted an extension or not. i will, of course, update when i know the outcome.

Thanks again to those who expressed concern about our welfare and sorry to have been the cause of concern in the first place. i will try to ensure i blog on a more regular basis again.

Hugs and kisses to you all.

Update and Staying Put

Please accept my apologies for not having posted for a while. There have been a number of things going on recently (not all good) which have kept me away from the blog.

The first of these is that Owner has had a bit of a health scare and needs to have some minor surgery at the end of next week. Hopefully that will sort out the matter. However, it has caused us both some concern and She is understandably a bit stressed about the whole thing.

A more practical issue was that, along with half the known universe, i also got the email from blogger announcing that this was to be one of the blogs they were, in effect, wanting to close down as they were going to change their rules around adult content. As i am sure was also the case for many others this led to a small flurry of activity on my part as i started to create an alternative and more secure home for my blog. What spare time i had went into trying to learn a new programme and transfer across the content from this blog and build a new site on an unfamiliar platform.

i had just about got to a point where i thought it was all starting to look good, we liked the new layout etc that was to appear on the new site, when suddenly another email from blogger arrived to say they'd changed their minds. So, to cut a long story short this blog is remaining here where it is and i am going to archive the new site i created. It was, i guess, a learning experience if nothing else.

You will, however, be pleased to hear that Owner has suitably punished me for the infractions i detailed in the post before last, namely not thinking and ordering an alcoholic drink without Owners permission when we were in a bar in Dublin before i cancelled the order when i realised, and using ingredients that were past their use by date when cooking Owners dinner. For the first (drinking) misdemeanour Owner punished me with 100 over the knee bare-bottom spankings with one of Her hair brushes. For the second misdemeanour (the food) - adjudged by Her to be the more serious i have been banned from wearing any make-up or jewellery for the past two weeks. i really have felt quite naked without these and can't wait until next week when hopefully i will be permitted to wear them again. Below is a picture taken during my spanking

A Lovely Time

Yesterday evening Owner and i went to see a screening of The Duke of Burgundy a film about two lesbian lovers, butterflies and moths and the demands and trials of the central characters S&M relationship. It is beautifully shot and worth checking out. As it was a trip to the cinema it also meant that i would be wearing a skirt in public once again. It is funny, wearing the skirt is not what makes the experience feel a little humiliating to me (which is part of the point) but rather the fact that i arrive in jeans and then change into a skirt so that anyone in the foyer waiting to go in who is paying attention must think to themselves 'I am sure that person was wearing skinny jeans a minute ago!'

Anyway, it is a teensy bit of public humiliation fun that i greatly enjoy as you might be able to tell from this photo that Owner took.

i adore my new skirt

Talking of Owner She has really now got into Her stride when it comes to choosing and ordering my meals for me in restaurants. Me looking at the menu has really started to become a pointless exercise. Last night before the movie She we went to an Italian restaurant where She ordered me a risotto. When the waitress came to take the orders Owner even used the phrase 'and he will have...'. i could have melted. i was in public displays of ownership and control heaven! i love the fact that little by little Owner continues o extend Her complete control over me.

Earlier in the afternoon we had a bit of a wander around the areas near to St Paul's Cathedral and went up once again to the viewing area near the shopping arcade next to it which affords great views of the cathedral and that part of London. You can get a sense o how close you are to the Dome of the Cathedral from the following picture

St. Paul's Cathedral

 And a rare shot of Owner!

After visiting the viewing area we dived into a coffee shop for a couple of hot chocolates. It was quite a cold day and, as you can see from my expression, i think i was quite pleased that we were both back inside in the

warmth.

Gagging in the Rain and Other Escapades

The other day Owner and i both went to the park for me to complete another of my public dildo deep-throat challenges. So far i have completed these challenges in the heart of City of London, in Canary Wharf, in a pub toilet and so on. Now it was time to complete one in our local park. It was a rainy day, hence the umbrella, but Owner announced Herself pleased with the results. You can judge for yourself how i got on from the following two pictures:

poised and ready to swallow

enjoying a mouthful!

Recently Owner also permitted me to purchase a new pretty apron to wear at home when i am cooking and baking. The apron was ordered from The Sunday Girl Company who are a UK-based company specialising in adults and children's aprons, i think it looks super cute

Meanwhile, i am delighted to say that my new tattoo has fully healed and the scab has now completely done. We are both really thrilled with the final result and i can't wait for the warmer weather to arrive to be able to properly show off my princess crown in public. You can see what it looks like now it has healed here

Talking of pretty things, i now also have a wonderful new pair of nipple rings. They are small silver keys adorned with little pink stones. They are super cute. The only drawback to them is that both of the pair face the same way as the gems are both on the same side. Ideally you would have them so that each key could face the other. That said, i really love them. We don't have a good picture of me wearing them, however, the image below, taken from the Etsy retailer i they were purchased them from (Bohemian Body Jewellery), shows you how pretty they are

However, there have been a couple of failings lately on my part that i am embarrassed to report and for which Owner will be rightly punishing me. The other weekend we went to Dublin and had a great time. However, on the Sunday at lunch i totally forgot myself and ordered a pint of Guinness when we went to a pub for lunch without Owner having given me permission to drink alcohol. i realised i was wrong to do so and quickly cancelled the order and had a Coke instead. However, it was a serious failing on my part and i deserve to be punished for it.

The other two incidents happened in quick succession and both involved food. As you will know i do all the cooking at home (unless Owner chooses to). On Sunday i prepared meatballs but used mince meat that had been lurking at the bottom of the freezer since last July. Owner has a strict rule that any food that has been in the freezer for longer than three months must not be used and should be disposed of. Thus was clearly a major breach of that requirement. To compound matters the following day i then was going to make a sweet and sour chicken but the soy sauce had already been opened and i hadn't kept it in the fridge but rather had returned it to the cupboard. Again, this breached Owners food hygiene standards. Owner was rightly annoyed with me as these are standards She has repeatedly set and this is not the first time i have been in breach of them (my last such infraction was about 18 months ago). It was made worse by my breaking these rules twice in successive days and demonstrated a very lax attitude on my part.

Owner has yet to determine what punishment i will receive for these misdemeanours but i recognise they were unacceptable on my part and that i deserve to be punished for them.

Learning and Development - Some Small But Significant Steps

The past few weeks have seen a couple of small but significant steps in my own learning but also in the progression and further deepening of my submission to Owner and Her control over, and treatment of, me. i will talk about the latter in a bit, first though i have some news concerning my own learning.

Anyone who has been reading this blog for a while will know that my Owner, and love of my life, is Spanish. Regular readers will also know that i have been trying (pretty unsuccessfully) for years to learn to speak Spanish and it has become one of Owners long-term projects and expectations of me. Under normal circumstances this might not be a big deal but for me it is as i have been an utter failure with languages throughout my life. Although i managed to do fairly well academically in other spheres (i have a history doctorate) when it comes to languages i have failed at every turn. Over the years i have tried French, German and even Arabic once all with the same results...failure. Although the rest of my family are all linguistically gifted i am not.

However, last year Owner laid down the challenge and expectation that, as part of my continuing development and training to become Her ideal wife She expected me to prepare for and enter a formal Spanish language exam. Specifically, the official Diploma of Spanish as a Foreign Language (DELE). This would sit alongside the other skills and learning She expects me to acquire ranging from giving facials, reflexology, massage, manicures, to knitting, embroidery etc, etc. In short, skills that might be useful to Her for me to have. Me knowing Spanish would, of course, be very useful/essential if She ever decided She wanted us to move to Spain, as one day She might.

i confess that i initially didn't have any expectations of passing but then as the months of practice passed i began to entertain thoughts that maybe i might. We agreed i should enter the beginners exam and see how i got on. The exam was held over two days in November last year and at the end of it i was convinced i had, once again failed. Owner tried to be positive but i didn' think i had done that well and started to try and psychologically prepare myself for a re-sit sometime this year. Imagine my delight and surprise then when the results arrived just over a week ago. i passed!! i was thrilled and amazed...for the very first time in my life i had actually passed a language exam! Owner was really pleased as well, However, we have already agreed that i will not be allowed to stop there but must now prepare to enter myself for the next level Spanish exam this autumn. There are many things that our relationship has helped to teach me and i have acquired a number of new skills. However, never in my wildest dreams did i imagine it might also help me start to learn a new language. Just another example of the many advantages an FLR/Femdom relationship can bring!

This weekend i also had an opportunity to demonstrate one of the other skills that i have started to acquire courtesy of Owner, namely jewellery making. Owner had me attend an introductory jewellery making course last year and now Her expectation is that i will produce a minimum of three new items for Her a month. This weekend i made Her some ear-rings. 

Meanwhile, this weekend also witnessed another small tightening of Owners overt control over me and Her treatment of me as Her slut. There are already many practical ways in which Owner exercises complete control over aspects of my life, these include;

• For many years now all decisions about what clothes i am permitted to wear and purchase have been Owners. i can suggest things to Her but am not allowed to buy anything unless She approves
•  Most purchases by me need Owners prior approval and all expenditure by me needs to be documented on a daily basis and made available to Owner to check at any time (we use Trello to document this and all other aspects of my submission, development and training)
• Any facebook posts (and of course blog entries) by me need prior vetting and approval from Owner before uploading
• i am only permitted to drink alcohol if and when Owner says so and am not permitted to try to seek Her approval to have a drink (this initially took a while to adjust to, especially when staying with family)
• Owner decides to what, when and where we go out - i may make suggestions but the decision is Hers
• We have got rid of/recycled most of my possessions
• All meal preparation, cooking, cleaning and other housework is my responsibility. Owner may help if She chooses but the expectation is that it is my job to do.
• Owner expects me to present Her with daily options for what i might prepare for dinner for Her to decide from
• An expectation that, unless She specifically says otherwise, i should always be doing something constructive and useful in my free time
• having an orgasm only if and when Owner permits me to (i spend much of my time in chastity) and accepting that my body is Owners to use for Her sexual pleasure

All of the above have gradually developed as part of my submission to Owner over the years.

To this list has now been added a new element of control that Owner first implemented this weekend. Namely, that when we eat out (as we do relatively frequently) Owner will choose what i am to eat. Owner stipulated this as a new requirement with the launch of the latest phase of Her development and training programme for me in December last year. However, by Her own admission it is something that She had forgotten to start to implement, that is until this weekend. On Sunday, for the first time, Owner decided what it was i was going to eat when we ate out.

For me it was another happily submissive and emasculating experience.  It did feel a little strange/unusual to realise that there was little/no point in me looking at the menu as the choice would be Owners entirely. However, it also felt right and as it should be. Ironically, Owner actually chose something for me that i wouldn't normally have picked for myself as though i will eat anything i have become accustomed to choosing dishes that Owner might want to eat as well in case She doesn't like Her first choice - Owners culinary tastes aren't as catholic as mine. i do hope that Owner taking control of what i may or may not eat becomes as much the norm as other aspects of my life that She now controls.

Once we returned from a day of shopping yesterday (during which Owner bought me a new bra and permitted me to buy a new blouse) we returned home for a session of bondage and torture. Owner enjoys tying me up and abusing and tormenting me and, over the years, has lost a lot of the initial reluctance She once felt about inflicting pain on Her wife. Where previously my wincing or evident discomfort would have elicited concern lest She had hurt me now Owner instead rightly chastises such responses by me as evidence of how i have become 'too fluffy'. Yesterday She bound my wrists and ankles to a chair, blindfolded me then clamped my nipples hard. Next, in return for honouring me with the pleasure of sniffing the crutch of Her used knickers, She administered 30 strikes with Her cane to my chastised clitty - directing Her strikes hard to my exposed testicles. The pain and discomfort was intense but seemed to serve only to spur Her on more. i truly do cherish Owners growing willingness to and evident enjoyment of the infliction of pain on me. It was particularly gratifying and exciting to sit bound helpless to the chair, nipples and 'bits' ablaze and listen to the sound and feel of Owner masturbating Herself to an orgasm with Her vibrator as She rubbed Herself hard against my body whilst all along my clit remained firmly (and tightly) locked in its metal chastity cage.

However, Owner took Her abuse and use of me further. She used one of Her dildo's to forcibly fuck my throat, having me repeatedly deep-throat the large rubber cock, pushing it deep into my throat, pulling my head down onto it, making me gag again and again. In between, She sprayed a small bottle of Her golden wine that She had filled in the bathroom, into my mouth, all over my face. She sprayed Her fake cock with Her golden nectar and had me lick it off, She sprayed it over my chest, She sprayed my locked clit. In short, She soaked me with Her piss as She fucked my face. It was a wonderful and degrading way to treat Her slut and it was a joy to behold and to be treated in such a manner by Her. i loved being face-fucked until i choked and snorted, loved being covered in Her urine - made to stick out my tongue and open my mouth wide to drink it, made to suffer pain and denial. In short, it was wonderful to be degraded as treated as Owners slut and whore and to experience Her inflicting pain, discomfort and humiliation as She pleasured Herself.

Afterwards, Owner again said how much She too had enjoyed Herself. Such comments, and Her evident readiness to treat and degrade Her wife this way, make me extremely happy. The greater and more overt Owners control over me becomes, the more She uses and abuses me physically, the more She degrades and exhibits me and the dirtier She treats me then the happier still i become. i truly am very lucky indeed.

Outdoor Fellatio, Indoor Torture and Piss Drinking

This weekend is barely 3/4 of the way through and it is already turning into a little classic. Yesterday Owner and i were once again out and about in town on a mission to complete another of my outdoor dildo deep-throat challenges. This time our objective was to have me perform in front of the 'Gherkin' building in London's financial heart. Personally i think the building looks more like a dildo than a gherkin - but then i guess my mind is wired slightly differently than some of my fellow citizens of this great city. Anyway, enough of my ramblings here you can see how i got on:

the Gherkin - or is it a dildo?

i say, what is that person doing?

oh i see, enjoying a big cock

Our photographic mission completed we then retired to one of our favourite hostelries for a couple of drinks and to people watch (one of our favourite activities) and gossip.

This morning saw me being tied up naked to a chair in our lounge wearing nothing except a pair of red heeled shoes. Owner then proceeded to abuse my titties and my unlocked clitty, using the latter as a sex toy to pleasure Herself with after first having delivered 30 spankings to my exposed 'bits' for the pleasure of being allowed to sniff Her used and aromatic knickers. Having satiated Her desires and left me with aching bits Owner then did something i have long fantasised about, we have often discussed but never, until now done. Yes, Owner had me swallow Her delicious urine - or more specifically She peed into a plastic bottle and then squirted some of the contents into my mouth, after i had swallowed the first, mouthful She then filled my mouth up again and then again for one final time.

i loved having the opportunity to be allowed to drink Owners wonderful wine and She seemed to equally enjoy having me drink from Her 'cup'. After providing me with Her light refreshments Owner then tightly bound my clitty and teased and caressed it before then permitting me to cum like a slut as i sat helplessly tied in the chair. It was a really wonderful way to start our Sunday. Here are a couple of photos.

Of Travels and Tattoos

Owner and i have just returned from our short trip to Munich and Bavaria. We both had a great time and i ate lots of sausages and we both enjoyed 'sampling' the local beer :). We were both quite impressed by Munich and also enjoyed a trip out to Hohenschwangua to see Hohenschwangua and Neuschwanstein castles.

Of course, there was also time for a small amount of posing by me on the trip as well (although we both completely forgot to have me wear my princess crown when we visited the castles - only remembering on the way back when it was too late). Anyway, you can see a selection of photos from the trip below.

First some 'tourist' shots:

Marienplatz - Central Munich

English Garden - Central Munich

Petersplatz - Central Munich

Inside The Residenz - Central Munich

Hohenschwangua Castle

Neuschwanstein Castle

Then of me posing

Trying to look 'elegant' in the Residenz

Posing like a tart

Showing off my new 'Kiss Me Deadly' cincher - one of my birthday presents from Owner

We returned early this week and i was then lucky enough to be able to get the tattoo done that Owner had chosen for me for my birthday present. We are both really thrilled with it . The tattoo was done at Tattoo A Go Go near Liverpool Street station in London and i would recommend it to others. It obviously still needs to heal but this is what it looked like a few hours after the tattooist had finished her work

just after removing the protective wrap - you can see the pink infill on the design more clearly on this picture

tattoo close-up though the pink is less obvious in this photo

As Owner says, i now have my own princesses crown! We're both really pleased with the result.

Fun Things To Do In the City - Fellate a Dildo

On Sunday Owner and i paid a visit to Canary Wharf in London's docklands to do a spot of shopping and also provide an opportunity for me to complete one of the public challenges She has set me, namely to 'complete a deep-throat photographic challenge somewhere in Canary Wharf'. This post is just a quick update to show how i got on.

After stopping first for a spot of light refreshments;

It was then time to move onto the main task in hand, namely me being photographed with a nice big artificial cock in my mouth.

It proved to be quite an entertaining exercise as we sought to snatch opportunities in between the passing pedestrians and cyclists for me to demonstrate what a cock-sucking little slut i am. You can judge for yourself how i got on in the pictures below but Owner announced that She was pleased with how i got on;

looking a little nervous as i prepare to start

forcing that cock in as the wind blows

mmm...cock!

i have a couple more such public cock sucking challenges that i need to complete for Owner, i can't wait!

Challenge completed we then headed back home but not before spending a bit of time having fun with some of the interactive audio-visual art installations that have been set-up at Canary Wharf. Essentially, they allow you to interact with the work to create your own work. This is me interacting with one of the installations