Halloween, Learning and Development

Just a quick update to wish everyone a very spooky Halloween. Hope you all have fun. These are the pumpkins Owner and i carved, can you tell who did which?

This week i started an embroidery course as part of my ongoing development to become Owners ideal wife. i was supposed to start it the week before but i wasn't well so started a week late. It is in the same venue and with the same teacher as i had for my knitting classes at the start of the year. Hopefully it will be another string to add to my bow and i will soon be able to start adding some pretty designs and patterns to tops.

Meanwhile, on Monday Owner will start reviewing the progress i have made in the current phase of my training/development. It is the moment when She decides whether or not i have made sufficient progress to proceed to the next level of training and development or not. i really hope that She judges that i have made sufficient progress to proceed. i feel that strong foundations have been laid from which to further my development and my submission to Her.

i will, of course, update on the outcome and write about this in more detail shortly when i know the outcome of my review. i am nervously hopeful.

Dirty Dancing

Owner and i enjoyed a wonderful night dancing at the ever excellent Magic Theatre last night. This is by far and away our favourite London club and it is held in a fantastic old art deco ballroom that is only about 2 miles away from where we live. It is a great night of dressing-up fun with people of all persuasions and ages, straight, trans, students and pensioners letting their hair down and their inhibitions go. Here are pictures of the two of us getting ready to depart for the evening;

Owner striking a suitably stern pose

Me looking more gurly - and yes, i am wearing my wedding dress

Owner has a new camera which we are both still getting to grips with so we didn't come away with any really great pictures at the event but the one below does gives a 'somewhat impressionistic' sense of what a gorgeous venue the event is held in, the magical Rivoli Ballroom

Anyway, we both danced our proverbial tits off and had a wonderful night.

Last week i spent three days off sick and, as often seems to happen to me, this made me feel hornier than usual. We have concluded that this may be a seasonal thing as Owner has noted that this often seems to happen at this time of year, namely i have a couple of days when i don;t feel well but do seem to be super horny. i tried to make constructive use of my over-sexed state of mind by channelling my arousal into writing another erotic short story. In truth, the end result was a bit of a dog's dinner. It is over-long and not that coherent and so i do need to re-visit and edit it before publishing. However, one aspect of it seem to have struck a chord with Owner.

In the story i made a number of references to sniffing Her used knickers and how much pleasure this gives me (which is very true) and then coming up with some imagined scenarios involving some element of this. Well, this morning after breakfast we both retired back to bed whereupon Owner almost immediately retrieved a pair of Her worn knickers and draped them over my nose. Over the course of the next ten to fifteen minutes Owner then teased and taunted me with a series of ideas and suggestions for how She might incorporate my love of Her scent into aspects of our lives and routines. Ideas such as having me sniff Her used panties on a regular basis, be made to sit between and Her legs when She returns from work and just sniff Her sex, having Her wet Her panties and them me suck them dry or having to spray my face with a perfume diffuser filled with Her piss before going out.

Of course, the more such ideas and suggestions Owner whispered to me the hornier and more aroused i became. Owner then proceeded to clamp my titties before commencing some intensive flogging and spanking of my clitty and then having me lick out Her wonderful arsehole as She pleasured Herself to an orgasm with Her vibrator. Then to my surprise and delight Owner fisted my pussy and permitted me to cum, to a loud shuddering climax which She then scooped up and fed to me.

It was a wonderfully dirty start to the day to top off a great evening spent dancing the night away.

Anniversary Slippering

Owner and i had our belated anniversary weekend stay at the Charing Cross hotel this weekend. Our relationship first went from 'just friends' to a little more at Charing Cross station nine years ago and, ever since, we have often celebrated our anniversary with a stay in the hotel. It was also at the Charing Cross hotel where i became Owners 'wife' last year.

This year we missed staying on our actual anniversary as Owner was in the midst of Her final studies for Her course (which She passed) and then immediately afterwards we had Her parents over to stay. This it was that it was this weekend that we finally got to re-acquaint ourselves with the hotel. It has just changed owners and we were delighted to see that, after a few years of gradual decline the grand old girl has been given a much needed makeover.

The Saturday night we spent in a pub in Holborn doing one of our favourite activities - namely people watching. Then this morning after breakfast we retired back to bed where Owner commenced some of Her other (and mine) favourite activities - namely teasing and playing with Her wife. First, Owner bound my wrists together then She grabbed the knickers She had been wearing the day before and secured them across my face so that my nose inhaled the pungent aroma - filling my head with Her gorgeous scent. After teasing me about how much i loved the smell of Her urine - which is true, She then grabbed a hotel slipper and began to spank my exposed clitty.

Owner teased me like this for a while until i was extremely aroused - it had been over 70 days since my last orgasm so it didn't take me long before my clitty was throbbing excitedly. Then She stopped, grabbed Her vibrator and sat astride my waist so that Her pussy was grinding down onto my swollen clitty and began to pleasure Herself with Her vibrator. i was helpless as She twisted and writhed and ground down against my clitty as She concentrated on Her own pleasure. At one stage She bound my clitty with the cord of the hotel dressing gown to ensure my clitty remained swollen and engorged as She rubbed against and across it until finally She came.

i lay there thinking that that might be the end of things now that Owner had received Her own sexual pleasure but She had a special treat in store for me. She pushed one hotel slipper into my mouth like a gag, placed Her vibrator underneath my clitty so that it lay across it then switched the device onto full power and then took the other hotel slipper and began to strike my swollen 'dangly bits' hard. Owner spanked my clitty harder and harder this was until soon i was begging Her to be allowed to cum. With an instruction that i was to beg to be hit harder still, which i happily complied with, Owner then told me to cum like a whore. 70+ days of denial surged up and sprayed out across my stomach as my hips heaved and bucked in the air and Owner continued to rain blows down hard against my pulsing, pumping clitty with the slipper. The flood of semen spilled across my waist and pooled between my legs. Owner scooped some of it up with Her vibrator and had me suck and lick it clean.

It really was a wonderfully enjoyable start to the day, a heady orgasmic mix comprising the scent of Owners well used knickers and being struck hard and repeatedly across my exposed bits with a hotel slipper. Owner certainly knows how to pleasure Her wife! :)

A Good Week

Just a quick update to say that Owner and i have both had a very good end to the week. Yesterday Owner sat the exam for Her work that She has been studying hard for over these past few months - and She passed with flying colours. i am so proud of Her, She truly is a woman of many talents.

Meanwhile, i also had a studious day yesterday, albeit more of a practical one-day course rather than a formal exam. Yes, yesterday was the day of my one-day facial course. Just me, the tutor and five women, all of whom were working in the beauty industry in some shape or form. Anyway, we all seemed to get on together well and, most importantly, we all passed the practical test! i even have the certificate to prove it;

i am now fully accredited to give facials. Owners parents arrive for a week later today but as soon as our household returns back to normal you can be certain that i will be testing out my new skills on Her. After all, these courses i have been doing are supposed to be for Her benefit!.

Last but not least. Owner and i celebrated our ninth anniversary this week. It really does seem that we have been together for longer than that and i struggle to recall how life was before i met Her. i love my Owner with all of my heart and thank Her for the best nine years of my life and look forward to many, many more years to come with Her.

Nothing Much To Report

Sorry for the lack of posts of late, it's just that there has not been a lot to update about. Owner and i have both been busy with work and Owner is in the midst of studying for a work-related exam which She is sitting next week. We had a great long-weekend in Spain last weekend visiting some of Owners family and Her parents are coming over to visit for a week at the end of next week so we will be busy entertaining them.

On Thursday coming i have my all day Facials course which i am looking forward to and then a couple of weeks later i start crochet evening classes at the same place where i did my knitting classes so that should be fun. i am pleased to report that there has been no repeat of my recent misbehaviour and i am continuing to study and do my butt workouts. i hope all is well with you all

You Have to Start Somewhere + A Final Warning

One of the challenges Owner set me as part of my ongoing development was to start publishing 'erotic' short stories. i posted my first attempt at such a story on this blog a few months ago and i am pleased to say that it is now available to also buy online as an e-book short story. i published it on Lulu.com and the the story can also be downloaded from Amazon, Kobo and Lybrary at present. Of course you can read it here for free but if you do purchase it (and it costs less than $1) any monies received go to Owner (not me) - so it is going to a good cause :)

This weekend i also registered to sit the Diplomas de Español como Lengua Extrajenera (Diploma in Spanish as a Foreign Language - DELE) exam in late November. i will be sitting the entry level exam. Those that have followed this blog for a while will know that Owner is Spanish but whilst Her English is excellent (better than mine) my Spanish was none-existent. In fact, although i am reasonably well educated (i have a PhD) languages have always been an utter disaster for me and i have no language qualifications at all and have never had the confidence to even try to sit a language exam. Well, all that will soon be changing because part of my training and development as Her submissive and more recently as Her wife has also been an expectation that i will study and learn Spanish and prepare for a DELE exam. Though i will only be sitting the basic level this really is a big deal for me as anyone who knows me will know what a struggle i have found learning any language to be (and in the past i have also tried French and German). There is, of course, no guarantee i will pass but even to have got to the point where i feel confident enough to pay to sit a language exam is quite a milestone for me. i know i will never become proficient in Spanish but hopefully i can at least get a basic qualification.

Meanwhile, talking of starting somewhere, on Saturday morning Owner demanded that i lick Her arse whilst She masturbated Herself to an orgasm. i was out of chastity and She also instructed that i make my clitty hard as my tongue probed deep inside Her delicious anus. It was a wonderful way to start the day - licking Owners arse is, in my view, both a privilege and an honour as well as being exquisitely delicious. But to do so and be made to make oneself hard but not permitted any form of release was pure torment, it was wonderful! It has now been 37 days since my last orgasm and i can honestly say that there is nothing i crave more than the opportunity to continue to pleasure Owner whilst i am kept denied myself (either in chastity or out). To be kept aroused and horny but frustrated and denied is to be very happy indeed!

Later in the day Owner and i headed into town and visited a fantastic bead and charm shop, called Beadworks, near Covent Garden for me to purchase some materials with which to start making some more jewellery. Owners plan is that i am eventually to make enough jewellery for me to open a little shop on Etsy. i have made Her a couple of small items (earrings and a bracelet) but i think i have quite a way to go before i am ready to open an emporium to the world! :)

Last, i also have to report that during our recent visit to Edinburgh i again broke one of the rules i should always adhere to, specifically i ordered an alcoholic drink without having Owners permission to do so. This is the second time i have broken this rule - something we both know is completely unacceptable. Owner should expect Her wife to be behaving as She ought to be at all times and to only drink alcohol if and when Owner has permitted it.

Owner was justifiably upset and demanded that i show Her that i was committed to changing my ways and to ensuring that i never break this rule in future. Specifically, She stipulated that i provide Her with a written commitment that showed contrite i was and which showed that i was serious about never again breaking this rule (you may recall i also broke it back in July when we visited my fathers). To prove to Owner how serious i was i tried to think of something that i considered would be a severe punishment, something that i would really hate to have to do and which would demonstrate my determination to never let it happen again. i am pleased to say that the suggestion was accepted by Owner. Therefore, if i ever have another alcoholic drink again in my life without Her having first granted explicit permission to do so i will not be permitted to wear makeup or a skirt for a period of three months as punishment. A second offence will double the duration of this punishment, a third triple it and so forth. i sincerely hope my lesson has been learnt and that Owner never has cause to enforce such punishments in future.

Castles, tartan and clamps

Owner and i have had a busy few days. We have just returned from a wonderful short trip to Edinburgh. We stayed at a fantastic luxury B&B called Number 29 which really is stunning and which we would both thoroughly recommend to anyone visiting. We re-visited (we've both been to Edinburgh in the past - but never together) many of the cities sights and Owner also used the opportunity of the stunning interior of our bedroom at the B&B to do a quick photoshoot. Here are a few photos from our trip. First, me in my little tartan dress in room;

 As you can see, the room was amazing! i so wish we had that bedroom at home.

And a couple of photos of the city itself;

View from Edinburgh Castle

Top of Calton Hill

View from Calton Hill

Water of Leith

Meanwhile, before we went away not being in chastity for the past few days also enabled more clamps to be attached to my clitty when cleaning. i sported builders clamps AND weighted table cloth clamps - 16 clamps in total, whilst cleaning and dusting our bedroom. Believe you me they make their presence felt as all contain little plastic teeth at the 'clamp' end which dig into flesh.

12 x builders clamps + 4 x weighted table cloth clamps in situ

grin and bear it!

However, i understand that wearing such clamps at least once a week is good for developing my pain tolerance and i am grateful for Owner for allowing me such opportunities to wear them as i dust and clean. Hopefully, i will be able to continue to demonstrate improved pain tolerance with practice. Currently i wear such clamps when cleaning/dusting one of the rooms on my weekly cleaning rota.

Depending on the day of the week and, consequently, the room being cleaned this could take between 10 -30 minutes. It took about 15 minutes to clean the bedroom and my clitty certainly knew it had been clamped hard by the time i had finished! i hope over time to be able to increase the severity and intensity of the clamping and to be able to handle a clitty spanking/paddling from Owner at the same time.

A Lovely and Relaxed Weekend

After recent weekends which have been spent travelling or dealing with work being done on our flat is was wonderful to have a weekend with Owner of just doing as much or as little as we wanted and just enjoying each others company.

Saturday morning started in fine style with Owner inviting me back to bed after breakfast where She proceeded to caress me, pull and twist my nipple and spank my clitty before applying Her vibrator to Her sex and having me lick and prove Her arse as She brought Herself to a happy and shuddering orgasm. i was in heaven as She toyed with and spanked my clitty hard (i have been out of chastity since our trip to Copenhagen) and rubbed Herself against my swollen clitty but left me deliciously and deliriously denied. As we snuggled i begged Her to be left in this state of denial until at least Christmas. Of course, the decision as to whether or no i will be prevented from or permitted to orgasm is Hers and Hers alone but i have to confess to adoring the feeling of  frustrated arousal. i love watching and listening to Her cum, playing my part in bringing Her pleasure and satisfaction, being told to lick Her arse (one of my all time favourite acts to perform) whilst all the while aching and throbbing but being kept denied myself. To me sex really doesn't get any better than that.

Anyway, where was i? Oh yes, the rest of Saturday was spent with me catching-up on some overdue tasks about the flat, doing a further edit to a short story i submitted for publication via Lulu.com (apparently a fully naked cover image isn't appropriate :) for an 'adult' short-story) and then watching TV together in the evening.

Sunday started equally brightly. As i was washing up from breakfast Owner grabbed the paddle that hangs near to the sink for just this reason and began to paddle my naked buttocks as i cleaned and scrubbed the dishes. Owner then reached underneath me o start paddling my exposed 'bits'. This evoked happy muffled groans and grunts of delight from your s truly (i always wear a ball gag when washing up - hence the muffled sounds). i spread my thighs as wide as i could  as Owner paddled my testes hard before hanging the paddle back on its hook next to the sink and leaving me to dry and put away the dishes and enjoy the hot throbbing between my legs.

Next i cleaned and dusted the lounge, albeit this time i did so with my clitty adorned with builders clamps and weighted table cloth weights. By the time i had finished and the clamps were removed my clitty had acquired a bright shade of hot pink and was marked by a series of 'teeth' imprints from the serrated plastic clamps. Combined with the earlier paddling ensured that my clitty remained wonderfully 'hot flushed' and sensitive for the rest of the day.

The afternoon saw us both walking to Greenwich where we looked (unsuccessfully) to try and find some beads and other charms etc for me to turn into jewellery. i have ordered a load of basics from Etsy and now need to start producing some actual items with a view to potentially opening a shop on Etsy to sell them through. Then we headed to the cinema where Owner had bought tickets for us to watch a thoroughly enjoyable Danish noir thriller called 'The Keeper of Lost Causes'. Being a trip to the cinema mean that, of course, i was expected to change into a skirt to watch the movie. Here's a picture of me waiting for us to be able to go into the screening

not the prettiest of legs and not sure the socks and flats were a good idea

and inside waiting for the movie to start - and yes a few more people did arrive before the film started!

After the movie ended i headed back to the toilets to get changed back into jeans for the journey home. Unusually, all the cubicles in the gent were bust so i had to wait for a while until one become free, all the time getting some curious looks from guys at the urinals!

When Owner and i got home the remainder of the evening was spent with me doing some more cleaning whilst Owner listed to the football on the internet and then i did some Spanish studies before we both retired to bed.

It really was a very enjoyable and relaxed weekend

Sex-Toy Currency

i meant to include this in my last post but completely forgot. However, the photo below is of an upside-down 100 Danish Kroner note. Owner and i couldn't help but notice the remarkable similarity of the image on the note to something else...can anyone guess what? :)

Travels, Trello and Butt Development

Owner and i had a wonderful bank holiday weekend break in Copenhagen and Malmö. Both are wonderful cities which are very easy to explore on-foot and, being only a 30 minute train ride apart are both easy to visit when staying in either one or the other (Copenhagen airport is equidistant between the two by train). Both cities have some beautiful old and modern architecture and fantastic waterfronts and canals, Malmö even has a beach. We spent most of the time walking around or pausing in cafes, restaurants and bars for some refreshments - i particularly enjoyed the danish pastries! We both love Scandinavia anyway but this was our first visit two these two particular cities, i suspect we will be going back. Anyway, here are a few pictures from our weekend;

Copenhagen

Copenhagen

Malmö

Malmö beach

Copenhagen

Copenhagen

 

 

And the following are some pictures of me out and about in both cities

Windy day on the beach at Malmö

Permitted to have a beer

There was one amusing incident at the end of our holiday. Our plane had landed back at Heathrow and all the passengers were getting up and removing the luggage from the overhead lockers when a little girl who had been sitting in a seat in the opposite aisle stared long and hard at me and then enquired 'Are you a boy or a girl?'. On hearing her daughter's question her mum turned scarlet and quickly told her daughter to be quiet which was a shame as it was a reasonable question. However, it did make my day and made me smile, especially as it was the end of a long day and i was certainly not looking my best!

Meanwhile, back to my training and development. Things seem to now be back on course and now that the works to our flat have been completed Owner seems to be happier with how i am progressing and is pleased to see me enrol on additional courses, including registering to sit a formal Spanish exam later this year. Owner has also identified a potentially useful new tool to help with my development and Her monitoring of my progress. The new tool is called Trello and is an on-line tool that enables people to set and view and share tasks between themselves and monitor the progress being made. i currently fill in and complete a series of spreadsheets for Owner where i record my daily activities and progress in completing tasks She has set for me. Owner reviews these regularly. However, Trello offers the opportunity to develop a live on-line tracker which Owner can dip into and out of at Her leisure, set tasks etc when She chooses. She has indicated that if i am successful at completing this stage of my development She will move to using Trello for he next stage so we will hopefully have an opportunity to test out how useful a tool it is.

Last, and i know this seems incredibly narcissistic and probably is but i just wanted to update on how i am getting on with developing my butt. As i reported a while back i began an exercise regime designed to try and develop and enhance my glutes to give me a shapelier and more rounded butt. i did a lot of research on Youtube to identify some routines to do and since then have progressively incorporated weights into my exercises. All of my exercise is done at home rather than at a gymn but i have become quite religious about ensuring i complete them. In addition to my daily 10 minute stretches routine i now do between an hour and an hour and a half of focused glute work using  ankle weight and dumbbells about 3 to 4 days a week. Using weights are important to help build muscle and add bulk, but whereas guys tend to focus their efforts on their upper body i have no interest in building that up, i just want o develop a bigger, more attractive and more fuckable butt.

Owner has expressed Her delight at my developing 'pillows' and i have really started to notice that my jeans are now tighter and snugger around my butt and that it has started to take on a more rounded and firmer shape. My ambition is to develop wider hips and a big, round, butt. Of course, ultimately your anatomy determines what shape you can/will develop so i will just have to see how mine develops but i am very happy with my progress so far. You can see how my butt currently looks in the photo below

Incidentally, i was thinking of maybe making a workout video, would anyone find that of interest?