Bugger, Bursitis

It was all going so well. Our holiday may have been over but i was once again at home and happy keeping Owner's home clean and looking after Her.

There was even the prospect of receiving a beating as well as being electro tortured by Owner.  Her frozen shoulder is now fast 'thawing' and She advised me that She hoped to be able to resume caning, paddling and whipping me.

On Wednesday I had been instructed to fuck myself for five minutes (Owner set Her timer) with one of Her cocks whilst Owner looked on.

Fucking my pussy under supervision 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 Owner had also advised that She would  be fucking me with Her huge tentacle dildo whilst I deep-throated one of Her cocks. I may be kept in chastity and in frustrated denial but Owner likes to ensure my holes remain loose and in good condition for fucking and deep-throating, like a true slut.

Anyway, like I say it was all going so well and then...disaster. My hip started to feel weird and painful and within a matter of hours I could barely sit or stand with any degree of comfort. The only pain-free position I could adopt was flat on my back.

Which is where I have remained.  Owner is taking great care of me as I apply heat treatment and pop anti-inflamatories to combat the bursitis in my hip. However, at present I can barely move save hobble to and from the bathroom on crutches (a legacy of the last time I had a problem with my leg). 

To round off my bad luck the cage of my chastity device split 😞.

 We had also been due to attend the theatre this weekend but sadly that is not going to be possible (I can't sit down). Hopefully my hip will soon heal. Until then there is not much I am able to do.

In Sickness and in Sluttiness

First, the good news. Owner has not had any more severe allergic reactions for well over a week. Yay! Hopefully, we correctly identified the culprit (Her new Vitamin B tablets) and there will be no repeat. The more annoying news is that it looks like She may have to wait until September before She is able to see a specialist to try and confirm or refute our diagnosis. Thank you to all who reached out offering advice. You are such a lovely bunch of readers/followers.

Now the bad news. Owner has Covid. She tested positive a few days ago and has been feeling truly lousy. In an ironic twist we think She caught it during one of Her recent hospital visits. i, meanwhile, am still negative and hoping it stays that way. Sadly, this means i am sleeping in the box room on my own. Which sucks.

Finally, in other news. Today is the 16th of the month which means but one thing. Yep, it's outdoor challenge day. So this is me in our local park completing this month's challenge:

But, why this outfit and why this location?

Well, the day started with me rolling the set of Owners' dice that decide what i should where and where i should take the photos. She has even bought me a special 'dice' top to wear when i roll Her dice in front of Her watchful gaze. So, this was me this morning, face mask in place to avoid catching Covid but making me look like a duck

preparing to roll one of the dice whilst wearing my 'dice' t-shirt

Action shot

Well, the dice determined that i should wear shorts and fishnet stockings in front of a graffiti covered door in our local park. The next decision was to decide exactly what to wear. This proved easy. Owner recently bought me some summer shorts and a top, new summer hi-tops and some matching black ear-rings. Those, combined with red bra and knickers and black stockings would be my outfit. Now i just had to hope it did not rain (it has been raining on and off for days and the temperature has barely staggered past 16 degrees centigrade). But i was determined not to wear a coat and go to the park dressed only in my new outfit.

Here is a little photo story of me heading out and then finally completing the challenge set for me.

All dressed up and ready to head outdoors

Here i am on my way to the park

Entering the park and passing the cricketers playing their match

Then arriving at the designated spot and posing

kisses

a cheeky bit of leg

Attempting to flaunt

Up against the graffiti door

Just a silly slut being...erm...silly

Despite the weather there were plenty of folks out in the park, it was a sunday after all. They were all dressed a bit more appropriately for the weather than i was.

Owner declared Herself to be very happy with how i had got on with my challenge, declaring that i looked 'sexy'. i worry She may have developed a fever and become quite delirious.

Anyway, i hope everyone is keeping well and thank you again for all of your best wishes and suggestions for Owner. Hopefully, She will be fully recovered soon. She really has had a shit few weeks.

Poppet at Repose (not in a good way)

This past week has not exactly gone to plan in that i went down with a case of the lurgy and ended up confined to bed. Meanwhile, Owner has been super busy with Her work whilst also looking after me. This always makes me feel very guilty as it should be me looking after Her. Owner, however, is always clear with me that She needs a healthy wife and sub and so whenever i am an ill She insists that i do not do anything and She sweeps in and takes full care of me. i am so lucky having an Owner as wonderful as She is.

The good news is that i am feeling a lot better than i was and so hopefully i will be permitted to resume my normal service and duties. There are three or four days worth of cleaning that i need to catch-up with together with my Spanish studies and exercises to resume. Luckily, or perhaps conveniently, it is a weekend so i have plenty of time available to me.

This coming week i turn 54, which makes me feel rather old. i know Owner has a few things planned for me, both on the day itself and the following weekend, which is super exciting. The day itself is also the 16th of the month which, as regular readers will know, means an outdoor challenge, something i am also looking forward to completing.

Oh, one final exciting bit of news. In my last post i mentioned that Owner and i had looked at some flats in Her home town in Spain when we were there together over the New Year. Well, we put in an offer and that has now been accepted. Fingers crossed within a few months we will have a place there too. Owner is already saying how nice it will be to have me installed there whenever we are visiting. Having our own place there will be good for me as it means i can maintain my routines and chores etc irrespective of whether we are at our London flat or the one in Spain. This i know will be good for my own development and will also provide Owner with a more relaxing and enjoyable environment for Her. 

Longer-term i know that Owner will relocate us to Spain on a permanent basis. This will happen when Owner judges that financially there is no longer any need for me to bring in money by undertaking paid work, allowing me to finally become Her full-time submissive housewife. This is something i have long wanted to be. i really look forward to that day arriving. i know it will require some adjusting to on my part but it is an exciting prospect. 

Finally, i came across excellent blog (note - the original is in German) by sklave in stahl (slave in steel) about his life as slave to his wife/Mistress. It is an inspiring read, especially for people like me who aspire to submit completely to their partner.

Red Bra in Park - Poppet Is a Tart

i have not been feeling fab this past week. i have been super tired and at one point kind of lost my voice as well. My get up and go also got up and buggered off. As a result i've kind of just been moping about and sleeping and not dojng much at all beyond listening to air traffic control at JFK airport (you didn't know i was a secret plane nerd did you) - my go to activity when i am unwell.

Anyway, as i began to feel a bit better towards the end of the week i knew i had to try and snap out of my lethargy and get back to normal. i had a dice roll and an outdoor challenge coming up but even that didn't illicit the usual rush of excitement. In fact last night i actually felt quite nervous and anxious about the challenge, wondering what i might have to do and whether or not i would, which is quite unlike me. Usually i am well-up for a bit of public exhibitionism :).

Anyway, fast forward to this morning and dice were rolled. With regards to chastity i got what Owner Herself describes as the best of both worlds for Her. i will be locked on weekdays for the following month but released at weekends - affording Her opportunities to further tease me. As for me, well i am still struggling to adjust to being unlocked so often after having been locked permanently for so long.

But, what about the challenge?? Well, it was to flash my bra at the mini 'henge' in our local park. It is not an old stone circle but a very modern one that was put in place to mark the millennium. It tends to be a popular spot for people to picnic or exercise in which meant there would be a fair chance of there being an audience for my challenge. Add to that it is Saturday and the weather is warm and sunny so there would likely be plenty of people in the park. i was only partly wrong.

i chose to wear a pair of black lace shorts and a semi-sheer white blouse with red bra (just to make it obvious) with trainers for my trip to the park. i also put on my biggest hoop ear rings and an ankle bracelet and my collar to complete the look. i tied my hair back in a pink scrunchy. 

i was correct about the park being busy, it was also full of kids with parents as there was some sort of children's football competition going on. Luckily the stone circle is the other side and so out of the way of the munchkins. The circle itself was actually devoid of people although there was an outdoor exercise class taking place next to it. My thought that i might have a full audience proved wide of the mark. But there were some people.

Anyway, enough of me blathering on. How did i get on? Well, judge for yourself. Here are some pics of me posing in the stone circle in our local park

This was me on route to the park

and doing a cheeky little bra flash on the way home

After sending Owner the pictures (She is out meeting a friend for lunch) She messaged me back to commend my efforts. She also said that i was clearly feeling much better!

It was fun to do and i do think it has helped me get my mojo back a little.

In other news. On Monday chaos descends on our little flat when builders start re-doing our bathroom. Owner and i are temporarily moving into an AirBnB nearby so we can still shower etc and work from home. It may mean you don't hear much from me, if so i apologise in advance. 

Oh, i also decided to up-cycle two pairs of jeans i had (one blue skinny fit and the other a black slim fit) that had both developed tears in the crutch. i did this previously with another pair of grey jeans that i transformed into a hyper-sipped pair of short shorts which were subsequently worn outside (see below) for a previous outdoor challenge back in April.

Well, what do you think of the latest additions to my hyper ripped fashion range. i have kept them full-length but not much fabric remains, especially on the blue pair - i have kept the black ones relatively modest. Below are some front and back pics of each. What do you think? i would love to be allowed to wear both of these out :)

non-modest front

modest front

i hope everyone is keeping well.

Too Warm and Feeling Blah

This is just a very quick update blog. Owner and i are both fine, well i am a bit under the weather, but we are struggling in the unseasonal London heat - it was 26C in our bedroom overnight and 32C during the day!

i was not feeling well yesterday and spent a lot of the day either asleep or just generally moping about. Owner was wonderful in looking after me and making me meals etc. She also drew this on my arse whilst i was in bed which might amuse readers.

i hope others are all well? Normal service and updates will resume shortly.

New Clitty Cage & Accessories

i have some exciting news to share. This morning Owner instructed me to order a new, smaller, pink chastity device. The cage She selected for me is the Cobra Nub Chastity Cage (micro size) from the House of Chastity: the home of all things sissy. It is bright pink and has a cage 'length' that is a little shorter still than my current chastity device, being 'micro' size rather than 'stub' size. This is what the device looks like (taken from sellers site)

i am super excited at the prospect of my new, smaller cage and i love the colour which i think is very me! However, that was not the only surprise Owner had in store for me this morning.  Her second surprise was an instruction to book an appointment to receive a genital piercing.  Specifically, to get a guiche piercing done so that, once fully healed, She can attach bells to permanently suspend between my legs if She chooses to.

A guiche piercing would be sufficiently out of the way to not catch on my Chastity Cage as it will be located on the patch of skin mid-way between the base of my scrotum and my anus (or the base of my clit and the entrance of my pussy). This is Owners favourite patch of skin, She loves to stroke me there. Soon it will be adorned with a ring She can suspend things from. We are both excited at the prospect. Still wondering where on earth on my body i am talking about? This illustration may help

i am booked to have my piercing done on the 12th February.  This will actually be my second genital piercing. Before i met Owner i had a Prince Albert done, but the ring traveled and i had to remove it meaning i was left with a permanent little shower head at the end of my clit. Wish me more luck with this one.

In other news i finally felt well-enough to actually leave the house for the first time in a week. Owner and i went to our local park for a bit of a walk and then had a coffee together in the cafe. It was lovely to finally be outside again, even if i did need a but of a lie down when we got home. Such a wuss.

After snoozing for an hour we then sat and watched a movie together. It was actually one of the best films i have seen in a long time and would highly recommend it if you don't mind a smidgen (not too much) of gore and horror. The movie was released last year (we watched on Netflix) and is called Bones and All. It is essentially a teenage coming of age, road trip tale of first love, except the two main protagonists are...er...cannibals. Anyway, go watch, you will thank me.

Owner to the rescue, again

Well, it is fair to say that the weekend hotel break that Owner organised for my birthday didn't quite go as planned,  it didn't actually go at all.

On Friday, as i eagerly awaited Owners return from a two day work event, i packed my side of the suitcase for our little 'excursion'. i had made sure to pack the new pink dress and heels She had bought for me together with a selection of Her favourite toys and implements. i even packed the new electric torture device She bought as i am determined to learn to get better at withstanding it and advance beyond the lowest possible power setting. 

At about 5.30pm Owner messaged to say She was on the train to our local station, my cue to head down to greet Her and carry Her bags back home. When i was walking to the railway station i felt very cold but just put that down to perhaps not having dressed appropriately for the weather (who would have guessed) and thought nothing more of it.

After greeting Owner and returning back with Her it was clear She was tired and in need of some tlc. i prepared a 'comfort' meal i haven't cooked for years and sat down to eat it with Her. By then,  however,  i realised i didn't feel quite right. Unusually for us we were both in bed by 8pm and i was shivering from head to toe.

After a restless night i woke up sweaty and with a thumping headache and a temperature well north of 38 Celsius. i felt rubbish. We quickly realised that the planned overnight at the hotel would not be happening as i lay in bed (essentially where i have remained since) doing my best dying swan routine.

Owner swung straight into being my loving nurse. Whenever i am unwell She takes wonderful care of me. Instructed to do nothing and admonished if i wandered from the bed for any reason other than to go to the toilet She kept me fed, hydrated, plied with paracetamol and entertained whilst regularly checking my temperature using Her official and unofficial techniques. The former involves a thermometer under my tongue whilst the latter involves Her placing Her hand on my bum. Her theory is if it my butt is cold to the touch then i am well, if it is not then i am ill. i am advised it has been very warm.

Perhaps strangely but when i am not feeling well the only thing i like doing as i lie in bed with the duvet pulled up over my head (another tell-tale sign that i am ill) is to listen to air traffic control at New Yorks JFK airport. Now i bet not many expected to read that but i am a bit of an aviation geek and have a father who was a commercial aviation pilot. Many was the time in my teens when i would listen to him coming back from work on my little airband radio. As for why JFK? Well it's busy, there is often something interesting going on and i love the accents of the air traffic controllers as they instruct the pilots.

It is funny but me writing about how I enjoy listening to Kennedy Tower on 119.10 or 123.90 somehow feels more deviant than half the stuff I write on here!

But back to Owner. She has been, as She always is, a Saint looking after me. She is always there for me as i try to be for Her. i write a lot about our life together,  Her domination of me and my submission to Her. At heart, however,  we are just a couple in love who care for each other deeply.  She is my best friend and i am Hers. That is what makes our relationship work. Peel everything else away and what you have left are two people who love and care for each other. i will always be forever grateful to have met and shared my life with a person like Her.

So my life as Owners submissive housewife is temporarily on hold until i am back on my feet. However,  normal service will hopefully return soon. For now though i am firmly under Owners care.

12 Days Later

i am delighted to say that after 12 interminable days of testing positive for Covid-19 this morning i finally tested negative, yippeee! i also feel so much better. i am no longer constantly exhausted and just lying about in bed being waited on by Owner. 

She has been amazing. She has made all my meals, done all the housework and the shopping and insisted throughout that i not lift a finger. She even sacrificed Her bedroom and moved into the spare room with its sofa bed whilst i wallowed about in our large four-poster. Remarkably, She managed not to catch the dreaded contagion from me although that did mean us trying to stay strictly segregated from each other in our little one and a bit bedroom flat. i took all my meals in the bedroom whilst She sat in the lounge and spoke to me across the open space of the corridor that separates both rooms. Tonight for the first time in almost two weeks i will actually be able to snuggle up against Her in bed again. That has been the worst part, not being able to touch Her or be close to Her.

As for me, i was actually not that well at all and this is despite the fact that i have had three vaccines to date. So anyone that says that Covid is no longer a risk is lying. It still is and it can still be pretty unpleasant even if you have been vaccinated. So please, pretty please, if you have not had a jab get one.

Anyway, back to today. In a sign that i am feeling better than i have been this morning i changed all the bedding and wiped down and disinfected the bedroom from top to bottom in preparation for Owner returning to sleep in here tonight with me. It has been horrible watching Her working so hard to take care of me and look after the flat when it should be me looking after Her and doing all the household chores etc. Hopefully normal service can now be resumed.

Owner has indicated that my performance review, postponed due to my illness, will now take place this weekend. i am really pleased by that and have made some suggestions to Her for ways in which Her control over me might also be further deepened which i hope She might consider. i also hope that She considers me now well enough to be caned or spanked etc again. This is also something that got put on hold due to my illness but i know i benefit from being beaten and it is also something that Owner Herself enjoys to do. It will be great for us both to re-start.

Anyway, that is about all from me for now. Take care all.

me this morning

Covid Strikes

Well, i suppose it had to happen eventually. Two days after Owner and i returned from Spain i tested positive for Covid. That was on Thursday last week and i have been in bed ever since feeling pretty lousy. It is surprising that even after 3 injections the virus still has the ability to knock you out quite the way it has done. Thankfully, Owner has remained negative.

i feel guilty as Owner has had to step in and take care of me, bringing me all my meals and generally nursing me when it really should be me looking after Her. i am ever so grateful to Her for having cared for me as lovingly as She has, i could not ask for better.

My being laid up has meant that the review She had planned of my behaviour and performance at home has had to go on hold. i hope that i might be well enough this weekend to receive Her instructions. i hope so as i know it is needed and the longer time passes the more i 'fret' about it.

In the meantime, there is nothing really to report as i have spent 90% of most days looking something like this

Day 1 = feeling lousy

Day 3 - feeling really lousy

Today - feeling a lot better but still dizzy when i stand up

i tested myself this morning again and still have two thick lines on the test kit so i am still pretty contagious but hopefully am now over the worst.  Now i just feel tired and dizzy when i stand up - so i am still lying down a lot!

On Thursday, the day i tested positive, we had a supermarket grocery delivery arrive that evening. i staggered downstairs with my mask on to collect the order and told the delivery man to stand well back as i had Covid. Despite that he very sweetly offered to carry our groceries inside for us. But i declined his kind offer and staggered up and down the stairs. i must, however, have been quite feverish at that point as it was only later that it dawned on my addled brain that the reason he might have given me a funny look was not because of the face mask that i was wearing but that apart from that all i had on was a hot pink t-shirt that barely covered my butt cheeks with the words 'passion fruit' written across my chest, my bra and a pair of crotchless Victoria's Secret knickers below which hung the silver bells that hang permanently suspended from my clit and which must have been both visible and audible! As i say, i must have been quite feverish to have answered the door dressed as such a wanton slut. Oh, wait...i.am.a.slut.

Hopefully, my next post will be a little more interesting but i just wanted to keep you updated in case you were wondering why i had not given any update about the review Owner had informed me about. It has been delayed but it will be coming.

Doctor Deepthroat's Misdiagnosis

Readers' may or may not know that, although i am a doctor (in that i have a doctorate) i am not a medical one - as will become all too apparent as you read on. i have previously worked in hospital environments but the closest i have ever been to having any level of medical training or competency is the fact that i was once a qualified first aider (now lapsed) and during my time spent in the army reserves (and i imagine the idea of me with a gun, and it was a VERY big gun, may not be something you may have expected of me) i was taught how to use and administer morphine.

In short, i have little/no medical knowledge. That did not, however, stop me from confidently concluding that the cause of the very sore throat i woke up with on Friday was nothing to do with the fact that i might be coming down with something and instead was everything to do with the fact that i had been deep-throating a dildo for ten minutes the night before. i had been practising sucking cock, therefore, my throat was sore. Seemed a logical enough explanation to me.

Fast forward 24 hours to yesterday and my throat was still sore but i was also feeling generally a 'bit shit'. Owner and i were due to travel down to see my mother the following day (today - sunday) and the thought dawned that maybe, just maybe i was ill and maybe i ought to take a covid test. Owner and i have both been triple vaccinated, but hey, it is still possible to catch and so yesterday saw us both load-up on some lateral flow tests to take when we got back home.

Well, the good news is that neither of us had covid. The less good news was that i felt increasingly shit. Our conclusion was that i had a bad cold. Owner immediately informed me that i was excused from my duties for the day and that we should spend the rest of the day relaxing and watching a movie, which is exactly what we did. We watched Raw which is a great film about love, relationships...oh and eating human flesh. Do check it out.

Today, i awoke feeling even more shit than yesterday. Owner made breakfast and announced that i was to take the day off and that She would do lunch etc and that i was to go back to bed, which i duly did but not before imbibing a medicinal glass of Her urine that She had especially provided for me. A rich, cloudy batch it was full of Her wonderful aroma and taste - not to mention a cocktail of trace elements, hormones and general all around goodness. Just what the doctor ordered (and no, Owner is not a doctor either). i swallowed it straight down the hatch like a good gurl.

me and my 'medication'

Fast forward a few hours and i have finally showered and dressed for the day. i am starting to feel a little horny again and am caressing my nipples in between typing - which is a good sign, my usual slutty self is returning.

During my brief period of ill health Owner allowed me to still open my advent instructions but told me that She did not expect me to undertake them until i was feeling better. As a result, i have not yet had my clitty chilled with ice cubes before having it spanked hard with a wooden spoon, nor have i been made to kneel on all fours as a human side table for Owner to rest Her tea on. Hopefully i might be able to do both later today in order that i might start the next week without a backlog of tasks to complete

There May Be Trouble Ahead

This week has definitely been a case of good pet/bad pet. The week started with me ill in bed for a few days feeling washed out and exhausted. Owner was wonderful and looked after me whilst i was unwell. i was excused from my daily duties and chores. Meanwhile, i spent most of Monday and a good part of Tuesday sleeping.

By Wednesday i was feeling better and returned to work and also re-commenced my daily chores and duties. By the end of the week i had largely caught up with all my tasks and was also back into the swing of my daily exercise routines which had also been placed temporarily on hold.

On Friday Owner administered my new weekly evening discipline, this time delivering sixty strikes on my backside with Her favourite leather paddle. It is not as severe as the cane can be but does make a great 'thud' sound as it lands against my bottom.

pink paddled bum

In another bit of good news i weighed myself this morning and discovered that i have almost reached my target weight of 140lbs (63.5kg), coming in at 140.6lbs (63.7kg). Considering that this autumn i had shot up to 151lbs (68.4kg) i am really pleased.

However, during that period when i was ill i also did something bad. When we had first ordered my new Cherry Keeper chastity device i was not sure what size base ring to order. Owner suggested large but i thought that the medium would be OK, based on previous sizings. Anyway, turned out Owner was correct. So the day i was not well i decided to do something sensible and order the bigger base ring size as the smaller size was a little uncomfortable. My mistake, of course, was ordering without first discussing with Owner.

With the exception of household purchases, essentials or gifts for Her, Owner rightly expects me to discuss and agree any purchases with Her first. In short, She must approve. Owner has financial control in our relationship, my salary going direct into our joint account that She administers and i receive a small monthly allowance that i may spend. Anyway, i used some of this allowance to purchase the replacement base ring to the chastity cage.

This morning, with the new ring in place i told Owner what i had done. She was not happy. Not that i had followed Her advice and got the better fitting ring but that i had done so independently and had not discussed or agreed the purchase with Her. Consequently, i am in trouble.

Adding to that is that the other day i bought a wheel of Camembert cheese. i love the taste but it does have a strong odour. i know Owner does not like the smell so had attempted to control it by placing the cheese into a sealed container. However, it did not work and Owner instructed me to throw the cheese away immediately and never to purchase it again, reminding me that She had indeed previously told me how much She dislikes the smell.

So there you have it, i am in double trouble. Hopefully, i will be able to get back into Owner's good books over the weekend.

Medical Bulletin Number 1

Owner is not having the best of times at the moment as She has developed a frozen shoulder which is preventing Her from sleeping much at all and has left Her in fairly constant agony. The problem with Her arm started just after i started to get renewed problems with my back. Though my own back problems are now much better after physiotherapy and acupuncture and i was able to return to work, Owners condition continued to deteriorate.

We had planned to go on holiday back in early September but had had to cancel due to my back. Instead, we booked a fortnight's leave for this week and next with the hope that i would be fully recovered and we could maybe travel to somewhere in Europe. However, Owners worsening condition with Her arm has meant that we are spending our two week vacation at home, not what we had planned but unfortunately it cannot be helped. Owner had a hydro dilation injection in Her shoulder a week ago which we hoped would ease Her condition but, unfortunately so far no change. If anything it has gotten worse.

i am trying to play nurse for Owner but don't think i do that good a job and just wish there was something that i could do that would magically take Her pain away. i hate seeing Her suffer as She is at the moment. Hopefully Her condition will start to improve soon.

Sorry this isn't the most interesting of posts, i just wanted to update and explain why you are not hearing much from us at the moment. Hope all is good in your lives.

p