Bloomsbury Bacchanalia

Owner and i are just returned from a fun overnight stay at the Bloomsbury Hotel in central London. Although we live in London we also enjoy occasionally treating ourselves to a decadent stay. This time it was my little treat for Owner, a treat She more than returned by photographing, flogging and fucking me whilst we were there. But, i am getting ahead of myself.

We checked in yesterday afternoon and, before heading to the cocktail bar for some lubrication, Owner had me pose for my first photo shoot of our stay. Owner had instructed me to bring my new slutty bodycon dress and to combine it with my red stripper heels. We were both super happy with the resultant pictures. What do you think?

the dress makes my waist disappear

Owner declared Herself to be really happy with the photo shoot and remarked that i have become a much better muse over time. She says that i pose better than i used to and that i have come less 'plank like'. What do readers think?

Anyway, photo shoot completed we decided to head to the cocktail bar some some pre-dinner libations. Owner had Her usual rum and diet coke (She was delighted to discover Her favourite rum, Goslings Black Seal, was available). As for me i went for a pink coloured cocktail (have i mentioned how much i love pink coloured drinks?) with the wonderfully gothic name, Summers Blood. It comprised Chase Gin (i am quite partial to gin), Coconut, Beetroot Wine, Lemon and Wild Cherry Ratafia (i have no idea what ratafia means either). It was delicious.

the cocktail bar

our drinks - mine is the one on the left

We retired back to our room after the meal and then rose early for breakfast this morning (sunday) before returning back to our room. It was then that Owner made it clear She had plans for me. First, She started to tickle me remorselessly, then She flogged me and whipped me on my derrier before having me go on all fours and fellate a dildo whilst inhaling the scent of Her knickers which She had draped over my head.

my bum mid-whipping

fellating a dildo whilst sniffing Owners' knickers

Next She went to beat the exposed 'labia' of my caged clit with the metal tenderiser. i confess i was a complete wimp and had to be forcibly restrained by Owner at this point. i am genuinely quite scared of this implement which makes quite an impact when the heavy metal head connects with soft and sensitive flesh. Owner chastised me for becoming 'fluffy' as She pinned me down and struck my bits, insisting that i count each blow out loud. She then whipped me some more before giving me the option of being whipped further or tickled. i made the mistake of asking to be tickled, which She did with relish. Luckily, my breakfast stayed down!

Now it was Owners' turn to really enjoy Herself. She had me lay on my stomach, fellating the dildo again as She took out Her vibrator, straddled my naked warm and freshly whipped buttocks and began to run Her sex against them as She pleasured Herself and brought Herself off. No sooner had She done so than i was instructed to roll onto my back so that She could 'ride my face'. My tongue quickly went to work licking and probing Her anus as Owner pressed Her vibrator against Her clit and enjoyed Her human sex toy. When spent She rolled exhausted off me and onto Her side, inviting my tongue to work its magic again on Her backside. i adore pleasuring Owner this way. My own little clit throbbed with delight as my tongue pleasured Her anus again.

Owner, however, was still not done with me. First, She strapped attached Her strapon to Her harness and had me kneel on the floor between Her legs and worship Her fake phallus, which i eagerly did. Then She instructed me to return to the bed and position myself on all fours. She then moistened, mounted and fucked my loose pussy with Her cock whilst again pleasuring Herself. I eagerly thrust my hips back and forth as Her cock thrust in and out of me. 

We eventually collapsed in each others arms in the bed. Owner satiated and spent, me frustrated, denied and aroused. It was a wonderful way for a slut like me to start the day :). However, more was still to come. It was time for my second photo shoot, this time outside of the bedroom and with a different, more casual, outfit on.

All too soon it was time to check out and head home. It was a wonderful and memorable stay, nice hotel too :).

Return to Chastity & a Challenge

After spending the past 3 months unlocked at Owners request, the longest continuous time i have spent out of chastity in a long while, i am back to chastity 24/7 until at least the 16th September. My locked state will then be decided again via another roll of Owner's chastity dice.

Back in my happy locked state

Today being the 16th of the month also means it has been another outdoor challenge day. Once again, my task was decided by a roll of Owner's two outdoor challenge dice, one for the location and the other the outfit. Today i went back to one of the bus stops, this time at the far end of the park, wearing my Hideri Kanzaki outfit from the manga Blend S. The outfit is a long-time favourite of mine and Owners and is one i have worn in the past:

     - on stage 

     - in a hotel corridor 

     - at a different bus stop 

     - in the park. 

It was fun to slip the outfit on again, and it still fits me 😀. This time, however, Owner instructed me to dispense with the wig, so out with my natural and normal hair i went. The bus stop i was instructed to pose at is one at the far end of the park, which itself is about a five minute walk from our flat. My first stop to take a photo was at the top of our street. Owner actually really likes this picture. It is a mysterious silhouette as the camera phone was facing directly into the sun;

The silhouette shot shows off my head band

Minutes later i was nearly at the park:

 Then i followed the road around to the far bus stop. Here are a few of me next to the stop

Hello passing driver

What time is the bus to slutville? :)

All in all it was a really fun challenge to complete and Owner declared Herself to be very satisfied with the results when She saw the pictures. The owner of the local dry cleaners also saw me in a new light when i walked past him on the way home.

Prior to this Owner and i have both been working and travelling quite a bit. Owner headed out to Spain leaving me to get on with decorating our London flat before i headed out to join Her. This was me mid-way through the painting:

i then flew out and joined Owner and we were able to sort out some more things for our flat in Spain. It is now in a state where next time we go we will both be able to stay there rather than staying at Owners' parents. In Owners' own words, She is looking forward to 'installing' me there.

i have also been keeping up with my chores, studies and exercises etc i.e. generally trying to be a good submissive wife for Owner.

i hope readers are all keeping well?

Slut Life and Sadness

There are multiple facets to my relationship with Owner, Her 24/7 domination and control of me and my submission to Her. Some are more recent developments, others have been there from the very start of our Female-led journey. Me being expected to be Her sex toy and a slut is one of the latter.

From the moment all those years ago when our, initially vanilla, relationship became an FLR one Owner made it clear that my body belongs to Her. She can access it and use it in any way that She sees fit whenever She wishes. i must make myself available to Her whenever She desires. My body exists solely for Her sexual pleasure, amusement and enjoyment. For my part, i must never under any circumstance attempt to initiate a sexual act with Her nor am i permitted access to any part of Her beautiful, gorgeous body unless She expressly allows it.

Owner regularly exercises Her rights over my body by teasing, touching, fondling and groping me. She enjoys sidling up behind me and pulling down my knickers then walking off. Sometimes She goes further and slips Her hand up between my legs to caress my 'pussy'. When She does i automatically spread and open my legs for Her like a good slut, making myself available to Her. 

The reason that Owner sometimes likes to leave me out of chastity is so that my little clit becomes available for Her to touch, torment and tease. Naturally, i am still not permitted to touch it myself and, in truth, i have no real desire to do so. She, however, likes to caress, slap and play with it a little and, when She does, i obediently part my legs for Her. My legs are like warm butter - they spread easily!

At home, when preparing to make dinner and commence my evening chores i first remove my panties before changing into my cleaning smock. The hem of the smock barely covers my buttocks. This ensures i am accessible to Her. Later, after i have completed my chores and i am permitted to sit next to Her on the sofa, i fully unzip my smock (each is front fastening) so that Owner has unfettered access to me. Then when we go to bed, i always wear a nightie and sleep on my side, affording Her easy access to my 'pussy'. Owner often likes to fall asleep gently stroking my 'cunt' leaving me aroused and frustrated. i love being molested by Her. She in turn enjoys having my body available at all times. i am Her always available slut and whore.

However, it is not just when we are at home or in bed that Owner expects access to my flesh. She also fondles and gropes me in public. i absolutely love it when She does this. Love it when She exercises Her right to access my body whenever and wherever She wants. Summer time offers Her lots of opportunities to do this. On warm days when we are out i am often to be found wearing little denim cut-off shorts that She has bought for me. Owner buys me ones that are short but not too tight around the thigh, loose enough for Her to be able to slip Her hand inside. Which is exactly what She does. 

The other day, as i carried Owners' bag whilst walking Her to the train station She slipped Her hand up the leg of my shorts and fondled, groped and squeezed my buttocks as we walked past early morning commuters. i was in heaven, loving every minute of having my body so publicly claimed like that by Her.

i was not always comfortable with being groped in public this way. Initially i felt self-conscious. However, over the years Owner has helped me to overcome my shyness and encouraged me to embrace who i am, namely Her slut. Now i am happy, eager even, to be be publicly groped by Her. It is more than just the reassurance that She still finds my body appealing. It is the public expression of Her total ownership of me. Whether Her hand is up my shorts and inside my knickers or it is reaching down my blouse inside my bra and be it in the street, the cinema or a bar, i now love it when She publicly gropes me like this. My head spins, i feel excited, desirable and aroused. No more do i feel self-conscious and awkward. Now i yearn for Her to go further, to be instructed to take off my top or remove my shorts. To be dis-robed and paraded as a slut, to have to touch myself for Her, be publicly ravaged by Her. In short, to be a shameless slut.

i love being treated by Owner as Her slut, love to make myself available for Her at all times, wherever we are. Sometimes She asks if i ever tire of Her touching and groping me? Nothing could be further from the truth. i am addicted to it, crave it. If anything, all i wish for is for it to happen more and more.

Owner has given me the confidence to live, act and behave like a slut. In return i hope to make Her proud by being the best slut i can be.

Sadly, however, there will not be the opportunity to demonstrate just how much of a slut i am and love to be in the coming days as Owner departs for Spain this Friday, leaving me on my own. Thankfully, our separation is not for long. i fly out to join Her later the following week before we then both return back together. Whilst we are parted there are plenty of things for me to be getting on with besides my daily chores and tasks. There is the decorating to finish, a hedge to trim, windows to clean, drawers to tidy etc and i am sure that time will fly by but i will miss Her. i can't wait until we are reunited.

Going to Spain also provides us with an opportunity to see Her new flat. Neither of us has seen it since we bought it over Easter. Owner's parents have been amazing and have arranged and supervised the few things that needed doing to it. They have also helped with furniture for the bedroom, being onsite to let deliveries in and oversee their installation. It will be amazing to finally see it, knowing Owner at last has a place in Her home town. A place which, in Her own words, She 'can install' me.

i cannot wait to be installed there by Her. London will remain where we spend the majority of our time for the foreseeable future. i cannot work from Spain whereas Owner can so She may spend more time there at first than i do. However, for Owner to finally have a place of Her own in Her home town, a place where, just like in Her flat in London, i can look after Her, serve Her, worship and love Her, a place i can clean and maintain for Her, cook and entertain Her friends and family, that will be truly special. It is a really exciting development for us both and our lives together. Previously we have always stayed with Her parents. Now Owner has Her own in which She can reign supreme. i cannot wait to start serving Her there.

Returning to the 'slut' theme. It has been hot in London the past few days with the daytime temperature over 30 Celsius. Whilst this has made things a little uncomfortably warm it has given me an opportunity to wear my warm weather cleaning outfit 😁

Finally, i leave you with a of photos of me in a new dress that i saw in a sale and which Owner allowed me to buy (provided that i got rid of/recycled some existing clothes, which i have). i think it would look better if i wasn't wearing a bra and panties at the same time, what do readers think? Suitably slutty? It is from Nii Hai. 

Take care all.

Poppet Paints

Well, decorates more than paints. This weekend found me up a ladder on Saturday and Sunday decorating the kitchen and then part of the hallway. Owner has requested that every room in the flat be repainted so that it looks sparkling for when Her sister comes to stay with us in the Autumn. So, yours truly donned my decorators bonnet and attire and has been setting to it. The spare room had already been done and all that remains is the rest of the corridor, Owners bedroom and the lounge/dining room. She is going to Spain in a fortnight so i will do the bedroom and lounge whilst She is away so as not to disturb or disrupt Her.

Decorating aside i have been busy with my usual cleaning, studies, exercises and baking etc. i also provided Owner with a back massage. She treated me to some late afternoon/evening drinks at one of our local bars yesterday, one that is particularly good for people watching, one of our favourite past times. Here we are, having a good time in each others company;

Today She also gave my bottom and my clit a good going over with a selection of leather paddles. This was my bottom afterwards

It has been a busy but productive and enjoyable weekend.

Poppet Park Slut Double Bill

If you go to our local park you may be in for a bit of a surprise in the form of local strumpet poppet showing herself to be the exhibitionist little slut that i am.

The fun all started yesterday. Owner had instructed me to do a lap of the park wearing a butt plug in my pussy whilst my nipples were clamped. The clamps were an easy thing to sort out. i selected the evil Japanese clover clamps. i say 'evil' as one of side of each of the clamps is festooned with sharp metal teeth. They have quite an attention grabbing bite.

For the butt plug i 'wore' my large, heavy, metal one. It is a delight to feel inside my pussy. In fact, my pussy likes it so much and is so accommodating that the plug almost gets completely swallowed up inside, pink jeweled base and all. 

It would have been easy to have simply worn the plug under regular jeans, and i have often done so before. However, i had a pair that i rarely wear these days and i thought it might add a bit of extra fun and challenge to, err, improve the jeans. My 'improvement' consisted of cutting out a hole at the back which exposed my bum. As some folks may recall, i do enjoy 'enhancing' my clothes on occasion, such as these shorts. 

Anyway, back to yesterday. My idea was to do my lap of the park wearing jeans with a hole cut out of the bottom with no panties on, leaving my plugged 'pussy' exposed. However, the park is popular, especially with youngsters so i knew some level of discretion was required. So my plan was to tie a lightweight jacket around my waist to cover my naked bottom and then remove the jacket to take some photos to send to Owner.

All i needed, however, was Her consent to my idea. Would She agree to it or say no? She said yes, agreeing that it was a good extra challenge to have my naked bottom exposed like that in the park. The fact that the plug could have simply slipped out as i was walking around or the jacket tied around my waist could have fallen to the ground (which it unintentionally did...twice!) exposing my naked butt added a delightful extra dimension to this park challenge. So, how did i get on? Well, you can see for yourself:

Plug just about visible in my pussy

pussy piercing and clit on show

out for a stroll, bum on display

a bit of cheek

The park is well used so it took lots of waiting about at different spot to find a gap in the human (and inquisitive dog) 'traffic' for me to pose for some pictures. All the time the metal teeth of the clover clamps were digging ever more remorselessly into my tormented teats.

grinning through the discomfort

After what seemed like an age i at last had a good selection of pictures to show Owner. When i arrived home She pronounced Herself very pleased with my efforts, remarking with a smile how 'naughty' i was. It was great fun to do although a bit more challenging to pull-off than just wearing regular jeans.

i must admit, i did love wearing my especially 'aerated' denim. But then i am something of an exhibitionist slut at heart.

Anyway, that was the first of my park adventures. Fast forward 12 hours and i was rolling the dice at breakfast to find out what outdoor challenge Owner would require me to complete today. The answer? Return to the park and flash my bra at the park bus stop. On the face of it, quite a simple thing to have to do. So why keep it simple?

In the spirit of further pushing and challenging myself i went a little further and opted to dress 'business slut' with stripper heels, stockings, skirt and jacket with red bra clearly visible. The challenge was done at about 9.15am so there were many people and cars etc about. i got heckled walking/teetering past our local shops and a couple of cars slowed right down as they went past me.

All in all though i was quite pleased with how i got on. Owner's reaction was to say how impressed She was by Her 'executive whore', but then went on to point out that She is also impressed when i get on and do the jobs around the flat that i also need to complete.

Anyway, here i am, an executive whore flashing my red bra and the tops of my thighs at the bus stop. 

The walk to and from the park was also a challenge in itself in those heels :)

Both of my park challenges were great fun and i am pleased that i pushed myself a bit further!

Cooking and Cleaning

i am, by nature, quite service-orientated. i derive great pleasure from cooking and cleaning for Owner and it is something that She, in turn, has come to expect of me. They are an integral part of my daily routine , too feed Her and keep Her home tidy and clean. Neither is something i would ever regard as a chore. Each are things i love to do. The challenge is to do them to a standard that meets with Owners expectations of me, Her submissive wife.

A typical day will see me cleaning both morning and night, before and after work. i am also responsible for preparing and clearing away all meals. Owner will, if She is working from home and sees that i have a day full of calls and meetings and She does not, prepare a lunch for me. She is also an excellent cook but Her expectation is that, unless She decides otherwise, it is my role to feed Her and provide Her with drinks whenever She wants.

Cooking and cleaning are things that i have done since childhood. i would enjoy occasionally helping my mum out in the kitchen and doing basic cooking classes at school. i was also brought up to be responsible for keeping my bedroom clean and my sister and i were always the ones who tidied-up after dinner and did the washing and drying. We would often sing together as we worked, our teenage selves working through the entirety of Queen's Bohemian Rhapsody as dishes were rinsed and dried.

My first part-time jobs were linked to cleaning and food preparation. Aged 15 i took a Saturday job at a local bakery which involved getting up at 3am and cycling to the shop to help the bakers finish off baking that days bread. Later i graduated to the shop itself, preparing and serving sandwiches to customers. i also worked part-time as a cleaner at my local hospital whilst i was at college and, for one memorable summer, worked nights at Gatwick Airport cleaning the interiors of the planes.

i guess you could say, therefore, that i grew-up cleaning and cooking. However, i was never that proficient. My ward and my planes were just about OK and my sandwiches basic but filling. Leaving home at 18 i then assumed full responsibility for feeding myself and keeping my place clean throughout University but neither was ever a big priority. Food always competed with cigarettes and alcohol as to which was more important to spend money on and cleaning...well, let's just say i doubt my rooms were ever spotless.

Fast forward fifteen or so years and one failed marriage and i met Owner. We had our own places but soon i found myself asking Her to do me the honour of moving in with me and letting me submit to Her. i think it fair to say She was quite shocked by my standards, or lack of, when it came to the food i prepared and the state of the flat i had. Owner set about changing things.

She insisted i learn new recipes (at that stage i still panicked at the thought of preparing anything without a recipe to follow to the letter) and start a recipe database. i still have this. It was an excel spreadsheet that was searchable by ingredients etc and which ran to well over one thousand lines. Owner would give me honest feedback on the food i prepared and gradually my abilities and confidence in the kitchen grew. i started to bake and make soups as well as regular meals.

At the same time i was set the task of having a regular cleaning routine. To begin with i would often forget, and be rightly chastised for doing so, until finally we hit on the solution. This was to start and follow a routine which saw each day of the week allocated to specific cleaning tasks. Monday for the bathroom or Friday the kitchen for example. Owner created a rota that was stuck to the fridge which i then had to mark when each task was completed that week.

Eventually, even my dumb brain got the pattern and now no rota is required. i know exactly what to do each day. Other cleaning tasks were then added which repeat everyday. For example, cleaning the bathroom toilet, sink and surfaces and the bathroom floor every morning and sweeping and mopping the kitchen floor every night after doing the washing up.

Unless i am not well i am good at completing my tasks and keeping Owner fed and nourished. To me it plays to the service side of my submissiveness and is also a way of demonstrating my love for Owner by making nice meals for Her and keeping Her home the way that She likes it. Now we have also bought a flat in Spain the expectation of me is that i will also be the one responsible for keeping that clean and feeding Owner whilst we are there too.

However, there is still much i need to do to improve if i am to truly become the wife that Owner wants and deserves. Whilst every room and surface of the flat always looks superficially clean, behind that impression lies a very different story. Yesterday i was shamed and embarrassed by the sight of Owner emptying out and cleaning the cupboard that houses the boiler in the kitchen. It is a space i had left untouched, just like the backs of cupboards or the cutlery draws for example. i also know that, when i am putting away Owners clothes after washing, drying and, if necessary, ironing them i do not tidy Her drawers or ensure the inside of Her wardrobe is neat and dust free. i fail to dust each of the glasses in the drinks cabinet nor do i take out all of the books and CDs from their cupboards and shelves before wiping the surface clean and replacing them. i do not empty out the cabinets in the bathroom, wipe them clean and then replace all the items back in their place. i do not empty all the food cupboards, clean and then replace. i do regularly clean the inside of the fridge and the oven but these other things i have not been doing. This, i know, is not good enough as yesterday's experience brought home to my shame and embarrassment. In short, from now on i know i must also undertake regular deep cleans as well if i am to keep Owners place as She rightly expects it.

The same is true with cooking and food. We both work full-time. Once i clock off i know i also have other household tasks and chores to complete. As a result the meals i prepare are often hastily assembled, often not that inspiring or are repeats of meals i know are easy to do. Owner deserves better. i want to start to batch-cook some foods so that there are a variety of meals available to serve to Her. There are also still times when Owner has to prompt and remind me that Her glass is empty or Her coffee has been drunk and is in need of a re-fill. She will then have to prompt or remind me to fetch Her another drink. It should, instead, be me that is checking, asking if She desires a re-fill, anticipating Her needs rather than reacting to Her requests. i must also start to block time out of my work day so that Owner does not ever feel obligated to have to prepare lunch when She is working from home because i have failed to make time to prepare it myself.

So, when it comes to food and drinks there is still a lot i need to do to further try to improve.

One of the things both Owner and i recognise is that, as much as i have improved over the years, there is still much more that i could and should be doing. My submission and service to Her is a lifelong commitment and one that requires me to constantly strive to improve and become better than i previously was. i doubt i will ever become the perfect wife for Her but each year i try and be better than i was before and as i try harder so too do i get even more pleasure and satisfaction from serving and looking after Her.

Owner is the love of my life, the centre of my world. Cooking and cleaning for Her and looking after and caring for Her in every other way i can think of brings me great joy and satisfaction. It is something i hope to keep doing until the day i die.

A Belly Dance Special

A few weeks ago Owner set me the challenge of performing a belly dance for Her and making Her a Turkish meal. Well, this lunchtime was the moment when it all came together as i danced a little dance for Owner having first prepared Her a Turkish feasts. A delight for all of Her senses 😂.

i made Owner a couple of vegetarian dishes, including a tomato and aubergine cold stew, a lentil salad, some baked halloumi and olives. i even made some flat bread. i was busy in the kitchen this morning!

Owner had permitted me to purchase a little belly dance wrap-around skirt and wrist bands, all accessorized with pretty little golden medallions that tinkled when i moved. i researched some music on line and found some online belly dance routines, which i then tried to incorporate into my lunchtime performance. The results? Well, see for yourself.

Here i am all ready to start my routine:

Here's the food i prepared:

And here's the performance itself:

Owner expressed Herself to be delighted by performance and the meal i had prepared.

Earlier in the day She had served me with a wonderful full glass of Her piss for me to have with my breakfast. It was a lovely way to start the weekend.

Earlier in the week Owner had also set me a few challenges, one of which was to do some Russian twist exercises for Her whilst wearing 20 mini pegs attached to my little clit. Owner had great fun playing with some of the camera effects on my phone as She documented my efforts

It has been a very productive week. Although i have been very busy at work i have kept on top of all of my chores and tasks. That said, there are a couple of entries into my punishment log. One for not remembering to ensure Owners' glass of water was topped up and the other for failing to have correctly packed the lunch i prepared for Her to take to work in Her bag.

This afternoon i will be starting on some decorating at home, Owner wants the whole flat to be redecorated. If i am lucky i might also receive a spanking from Owner before getting to spend some time relaxing in Her wonderful company.

Overall, it has been a good week and an excellent start to the weekend. i truly am lucky to get to share my life with Owner and to serve and entertain Her as i do.

High Art, Low Art, Tart

Sadly Owner and i spent some of this weekend apart from one another because i needed to head down to Devon in south west England to spend some time with my Dad. However, the long (very) journey did provide me with an opportunity to reflect on my own performance as Owner's submissive wife since She and i returned from our Chile adventure. My conclusion? i could do better, a lot better. i wrote Owner a long email about it. i shall not go into the details here other than to say that i know i have plenty of room for improvement.

On my return to London, Owner acknowledged the truth in what i had written to Her (about my recent poor performance) but also stipulated that She still wanted time for us both to relax and have fun together. Accordingly, She planned a day out for us both involving some lunchtime drinks, delicious Turkish cuisine and then spending time at the local artists open house festival. Which is exactly what we did.

The day, however, began with a treat for yours truly, in the form of a glass of Owners finest. This was followed by drinks, food and art. A great time was had by the two of us.

i know that there are tasks i need to do and improvements in my domestic performance that i need to make. However, that was put on hold whilst Owner and i enjoyed a spot of down time together. Here are some images from my day:

 

a pre-shower glass of Owners finest

lunchtime drinks in the pub

singing in the rain with the love of my life

a bra flash en route to see art

i hope everyone else had an equally enjoyable sunday,

p.s. how nice it is to wake up knowing that the UK now has a sane Government in place!