New Year, New Apartment, New Underwear

Owner surprised me yesterday by leading me into a local lingerie store here in the North of Spain when She took me out shopping with Her. i had thought we were just going to get some groceries and a few other essentials but Owner had a lovely additional idea in mind. She wanted to purchase a racy outfit for Her wife to model for Her.

Fast forward a few hours and there i was, posing in Her new apartment and wearing a lovely new high-cut body. i think it is super pretty. You can also get a bit of a feel for what Owners' new Spanish flat looks like from these pictures

Service Poppet Installed (Until We Return Home to London) In Spain

First off, happy New Year one and all. Owner and i wish you all the very best for 2025.

Well, the good news is that, after a Christmas spent apart, Owner and i are at last reunited again. The really exciting news is that we are together in Spain in Her own little flat. After almost two decades spent staying with Owner's parents whenever we came to see Her family and friends we are now in the flat Owner and i bought earlier this year.

i say Her flat because although we bought it together it is very much Owner's place, one to which i am invited by Her to stay. i don't have my own keys and may only stay with Owner's consent and at Her invitation.  Thankfully, She has been very happy to, as She says, 'install' me in Her second home over this New Year period. Having Her own place means that i now finally have an opportunity to follow Her rules when we are in Spain as well as when we are at home in London. As well as keeping Her company and entertained my purpose is to ensure that Her flat is kept clean and tidy and that Owner is fully cared for and looked after by me. It is a role i relish.

Regular readers will be familiar with the slutty side of my personality. However, as Owner's submissive housewife i am also very service orientated and really do genuinely love to clean, wash and cook for Her. i now have the privilege of also doing so when i have the honour of being in attendance in Her flat here in Spain as well as in London. Something that before now, when we stayed at Her parents, had not been possible. A daily routine has already been established which sees me sweep and mop all the floors and dust and clean all the rooms each morning after i have made Owner Her breakfast, and before i do my daily exercises. 

One of the rules that applies here as it does at home in London is that i may only leave the apartment when accompanied by Owner or if needing to run an errand for Her, such as to take the rubbish out. Unlike at home in London i will never have a need to leave the flat for work, so accordingly there is no need for me to have a key as i will only ever go out with Owner or very briefly at Her request. With no key i am dependent on Owner letting me out and in, whereas She of course may come and go as She pleases. i love having my independence restricted and controlled by Her like this. 

The apartment itself is on the 5th floor. Whereas Owner can and always does use the lift i may not. Instead, as befits someone of my status, i take the stairs, racing up in order to meet the lift and open the door for Her when it arrives on our floor. i have come to love doing this, using the stairs is also good for my glutes :)

On New Years eve i had the pleasure and the privilege of cooking for Owner, Her parents, brother and sister, their partners and Her nephew. i loved cooking for Her and for them all and wanted to ensure that She felt proud of me. The meal was a success and Owner professed Herself delighted. Her guests all left well-fed and having had an enjoyable evening. i loved both the cooking, the waiting on and clearing away and cleaning. i want Owner to feel that whenever She is here with me at Her side not only will i cook all meals for Her but for any friends or family She wishes to have cooked for as well.

In short, 2024 ended and 2025 started as i very much hope it will carry on, with me serving Owner to the best of my abilities and greatly enjoying the opportunity to serve Her. Yes, i might also love being Her slutty exhibitionist wife, Her sextoy and the one She enjoys opportunities to challenge or inflict pain upon etc. However, i also really, really love cooking, cleaning and waiting on Her and and Her guests. It is a real privilege and a pleasure to do so. An opportunity to hopefully make Her feel proud of Her submissive wife. i hope to continue to make Her proud or me.i also love being Her stay at home wife and i am delighted to now be able to fulfill that role in Spain whenever She invites me to spend time with Her in Her flat here now too. It truly has been a lovely start to the New Year. i am very lucky to have such a wonderful Owner.

Seasons Greetings

It's that time of year again when the cleaning gets done in the Santa outfit. Yes, it is important to remember that whilst this maybe the festive season there are still chores to complete, in this case, bathroom cleaning.

Christmas this year will be a sad one because Owner and i will be parted. She is heading to Spain and will be in our new flat, close to Her family. Meanwhile, i will be heading down to Devon to spend Christmas in an AirBnB with my Dad, before then travelling to see my Mum to celebrate Her 80th birthday a few days later. Only then will i too get to head to Spain and catch-up with Owner and spend New Year and Three Kings out there with Her.

i will miss Her terribly but am pleased we will be getting to spend New Year together in our little flat in Spain. It will be the first time i have stayed in it. It will be wonderful to finally have a place out there of our own that Owner can install me in and have me clean and look after just as i am do in Her London home. For me it means i will, for the first time ever in all the years we have been travelling to and from Spain, be able to properly serve and care for Her in Her own place, not in Her parents flat.

i look forward to being able to serve Her in Her new second home, to clean and cook for Her and Her family and friends when She wishes to entertain. It means we can now live our lives as we want to both in London and in Spain with Owner able to fully exert Her authority over me whilst we are there as well as when we are in London. It is an exciting prospect.

Anyway, from Owner and i to you all. Wherever you may be and whatever you may be doing have a very enjoyable Christmas and a Happy New Year.

In The Pink Mid-Winter

Today is the 16th of the month so that must mean it was outdoor challenge dice time, and indeed it was! It was also time to re-roll Owners chastity dice to see what lock-up regime i would be under. Well the chastity news was, no chastity. The dice stated that i am to be unlocked until the 16th January 2025 when the chastity dice will be rolled again. So it looks like it will be a chastity-free Xmas and New Year for me.

So what about the outdoor challenge? Well the first of the dice Owner devised for outdoor challenges was rolled. This was to determine the location of the challenge. The result was learning that i was to complete it near the steps leading up to of one of our local train stations. There is always a constant stream of human traffic as there are also some cafes nearby as well as being a busy little station.

My pulse then quickened as i then rolled the second of Her dice to see what i would have to wear? That decided that i would be wearing my short pink velvet dress. Bear in mind this is a summer party dress and the temperature today in London is about 10 Celsius. Clearly some kind of coat would also be needed as the station is about a 20 minute walk away. That and trainers, i could slip into some heels when i got there.

Outfit settled i then returned to my pre-work morning routine, showered (more on that in a bit), changed, had a few work meetings and then set off for the train station. What follows are some pictures of me completing this months outdoor challenge.

It was a bit cold and there were, as expected, plenty of people out and about but i was pleased that i did not let that fact stop me from standing and posing for my little phone camera as they walked past. i even got to road test my new hold-ups.

The important thing though is that Owner declared Herself happy with the images when i showed Her on my return.

In other, unrelated news. Owner has declared that She has had enough of me spending too much time in the bathroom in the morning and getting in Her way (we are a one bathroom household). Accordingly, She has implemented a new rule whereby if i spend more than ten minutes on my ablutions She will punish me by refusing to permit me to wear make-up that day. To help me with my time-keeping She bought me this super cute wind-up timer to use

Sadly, it doesn't 'Moo' when it goes off :)

Greeting Ritual, Clamps and Gags

First thing every morning, come rain or shine, Owner likes to go for a walk in our local park. She likes to do this on Her own, it is Her moment to mentally set Herself for the day ahead. We now have an established little ritual for how i greet Her on Her return. i kneel at the top of the stairs that lead into our flat and give Her a little wave greeting as She comes in then prostrate myself and kiss each of Her feet.

Both of us feel it is an appropriate way for me, as Owners submissive, to greet Her as my Owner. Sometimes in response Owner will lean forward to give me a kiss, other times She just rubs me on my head, as one would when greeting an eager pet. Which i guess is what i am. 

The video below was taken first thing this morning, shortly after 7am, with me still in my nightdress and gown greeting Owner on Her return from Her morning walk.

Whilst Owner comes and goes as She pleases and sees whomsoever She wishes my own place is at home, so far as is practical. i can accompany Owner outside when She so desires and i obviously have to leave the flat for work on occasion (too often for Owners liking and something i am going to try and cut back on next year). i may also go out to run errands for Her e.g. do some shopping, collect Her prescriptions etc. It is expected that i first seek Her permission if i want to visit family etc.

Another time when i am allowed outside unaccompanied by Her that does not involve getting things for Her or doing the shopping is when i am sent out to complete an outdoor challenge or a task. Tuesday this week was one such occasion. Owner instructed that i was to complete a full circuit of our local park whilst wearing weighted nipple clamps. i did it after work and, as you can see, i 'adapted' an old bra so that i could wear just that under my coat but with my nipples poking through holes i had cut in the bra to make it easier to clamp my tits. The clamps in question were the metal clover clamps with serrated 'teeth'. That and the weights that hung suspended from them, stretching my nipples, left that quite lovely and sore. Here you can see the clamps in situ on my return from my walk

And this is me in the park

The week has also, as all weeks do, involved the completion of my chores after work. i had a treat on Monday though when i was told to clean the bathroom whilst gagged and also inhaling the scent of Owners used knickers, which were position with the crotch pressed against my nose. Inhaling Her delicious aroma certainly made cleaning the toilet, sink, shower etc a richly rewarding experience.

Breakfast Blowjob, Boobies, Owners Shoulder and Other Updates

Whilst the wind whistled and howled around our flat, courtesy of winter storm Darragh, i was knelt at the top of the stairs that lead into our flat dressed only in my nightdress. The reason i was there was that i had been instructed to position myself like that and to fellate one of Owners dildos for ten minutes. The cock in question is a delightfully life like pink dildo with a flared head and thick veined shaft, perfect for gobbling and worshiping with my tongue. By the time the ten minutes were up it took three extra absorbent paper towels to clear up the gooey mess i had created as i orally pleasured the fake cock as Owner looked on.

Talking of Owner, She also permitted me to suckle and feast on Her perfect breasts this morning. i am only occasionally allowed access to them so be able to adore them was a wonderful treat. She has the most perfect firm, plump and pert breasts and i adore it when She lifts Her top, grabs my head and has me worship them. i am also very jealous of them and fantasise about having similar boobies to rub against Hers. She also spent time caressing and touching my bottom and pussy in bed this morning before instructing me to go and make breakfast, whilst She dozed. As you can tell it has been quite the start to the day.

Thank you to everyone who commented and wished Owner well with Her shoulder. It looks like it probably is definitely a frozen shoulder. She had this before in Her other shoulder about 5 or 6 years ago and that took 2 years to recover so to have it again in Her other one has left Her understandably frustrated and upset, as well as in quite a bit of discomfort and pain. To ease the pain we went to a clinic on Thursday for Her to have a guided cortisone injection. It is early days but we are hopeful it will be of help.

Meantime, canings, spankings etc are out of the question for the foreseeable future as the shoulder in question is the one for her dominant hand. Owner has, however, informed me that She will just have to electrocute me instead. So as you can see, Her spirits remain high.

Owner also chastised me this morning for hoarding clothes, pointing out (correctly) that i have some skirts, knickers, dresses, tops etc that rarely get worn, some of which probably don't even fit me. It is true that i probably have more clothes than Owner does. i have been instructed in no uncertain terms to sort through my wardrobe and drawers and send some clothes for recycling.

Earlier in the week i was instructed to wear a used pair of Owners knickers as a face mask throughout the working day (i was working from home) in between meetings. This again is a real treat, the opportunity to inhale Owners delightful scent, the sweet musk of Her sex imprinted in the crotch of Her used knickers. It is quite the distraction i can assure you. Wearing them also makes for a comedy picture as you can see.

That's about it from me and us. For readers in Southern Ireland, Wales and the South West of England, i  hope you stayed safe in the storm, i think you will have had it far worse than here. Take care all.

When In Brussels

Owner and i had an enjoyable weekend in Brussels. Beer was drunk, chips were eaten and chocolate bought. Oh, and some sights were also seen too!

It would not have been an Owner/poppet trip without a little photoshoot though. The hotel we stayed in had a small walled garden within which was a little heated swimming pool. The garden and pool were overlooked by many of the hotel rooms. Perfect for a little tart like me to pose.

Which is exactly what happened.  On Saturday night guests got to see a certain exhibitionist little slut make an appearance poolside in heels, black lace robe and pink bikini before i eased out of my robe and into the water. All captured by Owner. It was great fun;

me, excited to be in my bikini

And here's a little video of me splish-splashing about

As i say Owner and i did partake of some Belgium culture as well, here we are esconced in a bar drinking beer

We also got to see some sights of Brussels, just to prove we did see some of the city, including mini-Europe (which was a highlight of mine 😀)

Owner was plagued by a very painful shoulder before and during the trip, which we now have good reason to fear is the onset of a frozen shoulder (She experienced this on Her other shoulder and it took that one 2 years to recover). She is understandably upset and concerned about this, as am i as i hate to see Her suffer. Hopefully, we will be able to get a treatment to manage the pain.

Blog Milestone Passed - Over A Thousand Posts & A Bit of Fun

i realised the other day that i missed a bit of a milestone occasion for this humble little blog. Namely that this is post number one thousand and two. i had managed to miss the fact that i had reached the one thousand blog posts milestone. That's a lot of words (and images) of me prattling on about my life as Owners submissive, exhibitionist, slutty wife in a female-led relationship.

My first ever blog post, and the only post not to have first been reviewed and checked by Owner before publishing, was written way, way back in August 2008. Which means this little piece of the bloggersphere has been chugging along for over sixteen years. It is now officially an adult!

In that first ever blog post, which you can read here, i covered a few themes that anyone who has read or followed me over the years will find familiar. Chastity, pain, cooking, public humiliation and forced feminisation - 'forced' until Owner and i both realised that this slut actually loves being feminised. There was not much 'forcing' needed for me to become happily immersed into a world of make-up, bras, knickers etc. i had finally found my true self.

That first foray of mine into the world of blogging attracted the sum total of zero comments at the time and that first post has never been commented on since, despite the passage of time. However, since then a number of people have come across and read my ramblings and some have been kind enough to comment and get in touch. There are people i have connected with through the blog that i consider to be friends, despite never having met, and whose comments and correspondence are always a delight to receive.

Back in 2008 i also, in a later entry, wrote about a trip Owner and i took to Belgium. By complete coincidence we are headed there again at the end of this month, which we are both excited about.

Much has happened in those sixteen years. i have got fatter to start with. Owner and i got married, we moved home, i gained quite a few tattoos and some piercings, discovered i am perhaps even more of an exhibitionist slut than even i realised.  We have both experienced periods of ill health but have been fortunate in being able to have travelled far and wide together and further strengthened and deepened our relationship and our bonds with each other. 

i strive to submit absolutely to Owner (sometimes more successfully than others) and know that true happiness for us both comes from my service to Her and Her domination and control over me.

When i started this blog i hoped it might be useful to others perhaps also exploring the FLR/Femdom lifestyle. In particular, i hoped that by sharing my/our reality of what living a developing 24/7 FLR relationship was like for us i might offer a more realistic and attainable view of such relationships than the more typical (male) fantasy depictions one encounters online. Depictions which i doubt bear little resemblance to (m)any couples lived daily reality. i have always sought to give an honest and open account of my life with Owner, the ups and the downs and, in doing so, hope this little blog may have helped others realise that there is nothing odd or weird about recognising you want nothing more in life than to submit to the person you love and adore. Neither is there anything weird either in wanting to dominate and control (in a consensual manner) the submissive in your life.

Of course, over the sixteen years i have come to realise many other things about myself. i enjoy being locked in chastity, love to be told what to do. i get a lot of satisfaction from cooking and housework. i love to wear make-up with a pretty pair of knickers, bra and clothes. i adore worshipping Owners backside and consuming Her pee. i am an exhibitionist and i am also a slut and derive great pleasure and satisfaction at the thought of being regarded as such by others. i have learnt to tolerate pain (mostly) and am delighted to have been permanently inked many times with reminders of my submission to Owner. i love the inner peace and intimate exposure that comes from being periodically caged and restrained  - well that is until my legs fall asleep! i adore performing for Owner and cuddling up to Her. i have a thing about gigantic cocks and love the taste of cum but have no real desire to be allowed to orgasm myself. i am sexually happiest when kept denied. i love to pose and preen for Owner and serve as Her muse and have got a little better and more confident at doing so over the years. 

i welcome the fact that my salary is not my own and that Owner, not i, is the one who buys clothes for me and decides what i might do or not do. The more controlled i am by Owner and the more authority She exercises over me the happier i have become. Never did i imagine i might enjoy being beaten by Her but i do. i love being the one She comes home to, greeting Her by prostrating myself and kissing each of Her feet in greeting. i love carrying Her things, doing Her hair, Her nails and giving Her massages. i love Her body and Her brain and the fact that i get to spend my life in Her company.

Looking back over the lifetime of this blog, and back further still over all the years Owner and i have been together, i am struck by just how much we have done and experienced. i could never have dreamt my life might have turned out like this. That i might have got to experience so much with such a wonderful person. It hasn't always been plain sailing. There have been illnesses, good times and darker times, periods when both of us have struggled, times when others things in life have intruded and sometimes taken over. There have been times when i have been far from the person i aspire to be, times when Owner has had to chastise me and pull me up short. Times also when, frankly, there hasn't felt or been much to blog about.

Hopefully, there will, however, be many, many more blog posts to come.

Finally, to all who read and comment on this little corner of the internet. Thank you. Your comments, our interaction, means a lot to me. Thank you for taking the time. i always love hearing from you.

Meanwhile, back to the here and now. This morning, just before lunch, saw me stood in the corner by the window, naked with my nipples clamped with the clover clamps with metal teeth and sniffing Owners used panties for 30 minutes. 

As any self-respecting slut should i confess to having been quite excited at having stood naked in the window looking at the neighbouring houses opposite and the people passing by in the street.

Then, after lunch i did a couple of little 'performances' that Owner had requested of me. The first is my re-imagining of the Barbara Stanwyck grocery store scene from  Double Indemnity

You can quite literally hear  Owner almost crying with laughter at my performance.

This was swiftly followed by my own version of the Sophia Loren strip-tease in the Italian 60s film Ieri Oggi Domani 

So yes, life with Owner continues to be as fun as it has always been

Stern Words For This Slut

On Sunday, after completing my outdoor challenge (see previous post), Owner took me for a few drinks in a local bar. It was lovely to go out, just the two of us, and spend some time together. Whilst we were there Owner used the occasion to also have a serious word with me. She noted how i had allowed my work-life balance to get out of hand and that it was not acceptable to Her and was also bad for me. She reminded me that She expects, as far as is practically possible, i am to be at home. That my purpose in life is to look after Her, entertain Her, serve and worship Her. 

i am not naturally a 'live to work person' but much more of a 'work to live' one, as are we both. i am, however, lucky in that i derive a lot of satisfaction from my job and have been able to have an influence in the sector i work in. However, as Owner reminded me. She did not choose someone to live with and to have as Her submissive based on what they do or achieve for work. Rather, it was based on my love for and devotion to Her, a love She reciprocates.

Owner made it clear to me that She expects me to get back to being the silly, slutty, submissive wife She desires.

To be completely honest, this is what i want as well. i have written before how my life with Owner fulfills me in ways that my work never could. i love and adore Her and want only to serve Her and submit to Her. i realise that i have allowed things to get out out of hand and that i need to get my life back into balance. Life with Owner should always come first. i have made changes but they will take a few weeks to become apparent due to the nature of speaking etc commitments previously entered into. Hopefully, however, Owner will soon start to notice that i am back home, at Her feet, where i belong and not gallivanting hither and thither giving presentations, lectures etc. 

Meanwhile, i had a wonderful opportunity to demonstrate to Owner that i am still Her naughty, obedient slut. i was tasked by Her with fucking myself with one of the large dildos for Her entertainment and amusement. So, on Tuesday night before i served dinner i found myself down on all fours at Her feet, my winter cleaning smock (the temperature has plummeted here) hitched up around my waist, lubricating my pussy with my spittle before pushing the dildo inside of me. It went in easily, buried balls deep inside my pussy, as i began to rhythmically fuck myself as Owner looked on. Occasionally i paused, withdrew the fake cock, fellated it and lubed it with my mouth before slipping it deep inside me and fucking myself again. This was repeated over and over.

All the while Owner watched, took some pictures and generally observed Her wife prostrate and fuck Herself at Her feet for Her amusement. She permitted me to fuck myself like this for a little over five minutes before calling a halt to proceedings. The whole episode left me feeling wonderfully aroused and deliciously frustrated. i was careful not to allow myself to get too excited and have an accident, it has been almost six months now since my last orgasm. i stopped when instructed, tidied up and then served dinner before continuing with my chores.

'Artistic' black and white image

You can see the original image below and see clearly that i am wearing a sexy combination of hold-up stockings and flip-flops! In my defence i don't currently have any slippers and my flats have fallen apart (and being an upstairs flats heels are out of the question). i also reckon that if people wear crocs as fashionable footwear, when these are essentially footwear designed to wear in hospital theatres, then why not wear stockings and flip-flops :)

Original image

Meanwhile, Owner has really hurt a muscle in Her shoulder and we are trying to get a diagnosis and treatment for Her as it is has left Her in fairly constant pain and discomfort these past few weeks. It also has meant that She has not been able to give Her slutty wife the beating i definitely deserve for having allowed my life with Her and my work to get out of balance.

Random Compliment

So, after an absence of a couple of months i have finally done another outdoor challenge, yippee! i realise how much i miss doing them. Technically it should have happened yesterday, when the chastity dice was also rolled (more on that later). However, yesterday was spent moving and deep cleaning our acquarium (and pulling my back in the process) and so the challenge was completed today instead. 

The task i was set was to wear shorts and fishnets at the park bus stop.You can see for yourself how i got on below. 

For the first time ever doing these challenges i also got randomly complimented by a stranger as i posed. A middle-aged black gentleman walked past me, smiled and said 'looking good'. Which was very sweet of him. i may have blushed a little 😄 as i replied with a polite 'thank you' before relaying the brief exchange back to Owner as i headed home.

Anyway, not my most outlandish ever outdoor challenge but good to get out and about dressed for a god time again :)

i was out of chastity for the above challenge as the chastity dice determined that i should stay locked only on weekdays until the 16th December, when the chastity dice will be rolled again.

Again, sorry for the paucity of posts from me. Owner and i remain busy and quite stressed with work etc but i am trying to get back to my normal-self.