Happiness Is...

Ending the year locked, horny and frustrated. Owner made full use of me as Her sex toy the other day. She woke me by fondling and caressing my caged clit and breasts, before stripping off my nightdress and spanking my exposed bits until i was aching with painful desire. She loves to beat me 'down there' and knows exactly how much Her doing so can and does turn me on.

Within minutes my clit was straining inside its little cage, futilely attempting to try and get hard, an impossibility even for a clit as small as my own given how tiny the chastity device it is encased in is. i groaned in uncomfortable pleasure each time Her hand connected with my tight, swollen 'labia'. More arousal was to come, however.

Owner stripped out of Her nightware, peeled off Her panties and placed them over my head, making sure to position the gusset right under my nose. Her scent was divine. i inhaled deeply, breathing it in. i felt giddy and woozy. She continued to caress and then strike me, much more of this and i would be begging Her to be allowed to cum. The pain and discomfort was morphing, morphing into pleasure. God, oh god it felt good.

Perhaps sensing how dangerously aroused i was, Owner stopped and reached for Her vibrator and began to pleasure Herself, continuing to stroke and caress me. My whole body seemed to throb with pleasure. It was barely 6am and i was already in quite a state, wide awake and as hard as i ever could be my brain drowning in Her scent, my body yearning for Her to start spanking my plums again, to send me to orgasmic oblivion.  She did not.

Instead, She rolled to Her side, drew Her knees up towards Her chest, thrust Her vibrator between Her thighs and instructed me to 'lick Her arse'.

How i love to do this, adore nothing better than the taste and sensation of my tongue deep inside Her, licking and probing, whilst Her vibrator purrs loudly near my head, clamped to Her clit. Then the moment, the magic moment when i feel Her sphincter muscles begin to flutter and quiver. If i am truly lucky Her thighs will be squeezing my head at this point, squeezing and crushing me as She grabs my head and pulls me deeper inside Her, grinds against me as She trembles and quakes. i push my tongue in as far as i can, straining as She clenches tight.

When finally Her muscles unlock i lick Her, lick Her delicious anus clean until She no longer has need of me. That was the case the other morning. Satiated and spent She dismissed me to prepare Her breakfast for Her. As i got up i glanced down at my clit as it strained inside its cage. My swollen labia throbbed heavy. My nipples were hard and erect, just touching them unleashed waves of pleasure. Every last inch of my skin tingled with desire.  

It was a perfect reminder of the joy of denial. i had helped Owner pleasure Herself and she in return had gifted me this wonderful, insatiable craving that lasted the best part of the rest of the day. i ached, i throbbed, i yearned.

That evening, Owner advised me that She wanted a massage. The sensation i felt when, having oiled Her back, i then straddled the tops of Her thighs and felt my still warm and throbbing bits come into contact with the soft, cool flesh of Her buttocks was indescribable. My caged clit sang with joy as, with each movement of my hands on Her back my bits brushed and rubbed against Her glorious backside. It was all i could do to stop myself from feasting on Her once again. But I know not too, that has long been a very hard rule of Hers. Only She may initiate any form of sexual activity, i am after all, just her sex toy.

That was two days ago. Since then She has continued to tease me, spanking touching and caressing my 'labia', breasts and pussy. Each time She does drives me wild with desire and i find myself spreading, making myself available for Her. i am more than just Her sex toy, i am Her slut as well.

As the year draws to a close i remain locked and denied and honestly could not be happier for being so. i love to be used to bring Owner pleasure and to be used by Her. My wish for the coming year is a simple one, it is to continue to serve, pleasure and be used by Her.

Christmas Day, Shopping, Farewell 2021 and a Thank You to Owner

Seasons greetings one and all. i hope that Santa brought everyone the gifts they craved. Although Owner and i regularly get gifts for each other, Owner regularly gets me lovely things to wear, we never do at Christmas. We don't even get each other so much as a card, we are a true bah humbug household 😀😀

In year's gone past we were often separated on Christmas Day but these past few years we have been lucky and able to spend the day together. This year was one such year and we will be together throughout the festive period, spending Xmas at home then, we hope, flying to Spain for the New Year to visit Owner's family.

Christmas day saw me waking early to switch on the slow cooker with the ready marinaded and prepared leg of lamb inside before returning back to bed (i had prepared the joint on Christmas eve in readiness for popping it into the slow cooker). An hour or so later we awoke and i prepared breakfast, a delicious slice or two of panettone. Before then, however, i was handed a glass of Owner's wonderful urine to dink.

a glass of Owners' Xmas piss before panettone

After a slow start to the morning i eventually did my exercises, showered, cleaned the bathroom and then changed in readiness for our Christmas lunch together. 

Carving our Xmas lamb

The meal proved to be a success, Owner even allowed me to have two glasses of red wine and She insisted on doing the washing up - which made me feel very lucky, if not rather guilty.

Then we went for a little walk around our local park before returning to settle down to watch a movie. It was lovely to be cuddled up on the sofa with Owner, my head in Her lap, Her hands on my breasts or occasionally fondling/slapping my 'labia'. i do so love it when She grabs and caresses my tits, 'tis a pity there is not more for Her to grab hold of but i know She likes them as they are.

In the evening we ate more panettone (plus ice cream), listened to a radio comedy together and watched more TV. In short, we had a supremely lazy day. Enjoyable as that was i do also find it quite strange, if i am honest, to have a day when i am told to take it easy and feel very guilty when i see Owner doing things like washing up the dishes, tasks and chores which, on any other day, are rightly mine to complete. Things will, however, return to normal today.

Finally, i said in my last post that i would provide a link to the shops where Owner purchased the numerous little gifts She got me as part of my advent calendar for 2021. The links are below:

• Cute and Kinky
• Fluffies Secrets
• Katerlina Creations 
• Deviant Doll Designs 
• Dirty Bitch Clothing 
  

All of the above shops are on Etsy.com which really has become a wonderful marketplace for all things kinky, fun and sissy.

This may well be my last post of 2021 as Owner and i will, we hope, shortly be heading to Spain for a short while to see Her folks. i hope i have not bored everyone this past year which i realise has been the second most active year (in terms of the number of times i have posted) in the 13 years this blog has been running for, beaten only by the year 2010.

Many aspects of this year have been challenging, and not in a good way. But the year has ended on, Covid aside, what personally feels like something of a high in terms of my relationship with and submission to my wonderful Owner. 

My performance and service over the past twelve months has felt more consistent than in previous years. Owner is still giving me daily performance ratings and i have received either a 4 or 5 star rating 94% of the time out of the 28 ratings given to date. My lowest score has been 3 stars which i have received twice in that period.

Owner now canes, spanks or beats me on a weekly basis. These are not done in response to any particularly bad behaviour or misdemeanors on my part, She is simply of the view that as it is Her right to beat me and it is my job as Her submissive wife to be able to tolerate and accept such painful reminders of who is in charge. i genuinely welcome being disciplined this way. i am particularly gratified that Owner has taken to striking me more severely and has also begun to combine such disciplinary sessions with other painful reminders of who is in charge. i used to really struggle with being struck hard and i think that Owner sensed that and held back. This seems no longer to be the case. She now brings tears to my eyes and leaves me marked and i love Her all the more for doing so.

Owner has also begun to regularly gift me a glass of Her piss to consume before breakfast. i love this and loved it even more when, during advent, She filled my bowl with Her urine and had me drink it all up whilst kneeling on the floor. i adore being treated as Her piss slut and would happily drink of Her morning, night and day. i adore Her and adore consuming Her bodily treats.

Throughout the year i continued to be set monthly outdoor challenges and was also, on occasion, publicly humiliated too. i really crave these moments, especially those that have me show what a real exhibitionist slut i am. i now take in my stride things and situations that i could never have imagined doing a few years ago and love the fact that Owner has continued to gently push me further and further, have me show what a shameless exhibitionist whore i truly am.

The more shameless i have become the more confident i am in my own skin and the more certain i am that the real me is feminine. Owner has encouraged me throughout to embrace and explore the feminine side of me and this year has seen some more steps in that direction. It may seem silly to some but i no longer feel complete and ready for the day without my makeup on or my padded bra in place. i try, but regularly fail, to make myself look pretty. i don't hide my true self and, quite frankly, care little for what others may think of how i look or what i wear. This past year i feel i have grown a little bolder still, a little more confident in being who i really am whatever anyone else might think. The only person whose opinion or views i care about are Owners'.  She has Her limits, which i respect, i am just grateful that She helped me find the person i truly am.

i have also spent this past year mostly locked and denied the right to cum. At the time of writing i had three orgasms this year (one less than last - but that was a bumper year compared to 2019 when i had none). Two of these were genuine orgasms but the third, back in the Spring, was an accident. i do feel genuinely conflicted about having an orgasm. On the one hand i adore the fact that Owner ensures that, on the occasions when i am allowed to cum, She has me act and behave as wantonly as She can. When She beats an orgasm out of me She expects me to cum loudly like a true slut. She also feeds me my mess and, as someone who really does love the taste of semen, i love this. i have written before that the one thing i miss from extended periods of denial is the taste of cum. Honestly, i love it and is the only thing i miss from the days when i would occasionally be fucked by men. But i digress, back to orgasms.

So, i would in truth be a liar if i said that i didn't enjoy it on the rare occasions when Owner permits me to cum. However, however. i also really, really, really love it when i am not permitted to cum. i love it when Owner uses me as Her sex toy then leaves me, excited, aroused (in as much as i cab get aroused in my little cage) but frustrated. i love it when i see my little blog counter showing that it has been weeks or months since i last came. The longer i spend in that state the hornier i become. Everything arouses me. i will suddenly notice that i am idly caressing my nipples. i yearn for Owner to touch and tease me. Her caresses make me throb and ache for days. i love that feeling, would love to one day be told that that is it, that i will be denied forever. To truly become the sex toy She describes me as being, my role to simply pleasure Her. 

Some might find that a shocking ambition, heck some would find the idea of having less orgasms a year that you can count on the fingers of one hand quite shocking and something that they cannot comprehend. But truly, i love it. i love to be kept denied like that and, much as i do enjoy it when i do cum, i yearn to one day be kept in a state where the most i can ever hope for is to occasionally be brought to a state of arousal, a point close to orgasm but where i am no longer allowed to actually cum.

To be Owners' pretty wife. To keep Her house, care for Her and look after Her. To love and worship Her, to suffer for Her and be humiliated by Her. To be Her sex toy, Her craven exhibitionist, Her slutty whore, Her cook, Her cleaner, Her best friend and loyal companion. To be dominated, controlled by and beaten by Her. To be Her nurse, Her confidant, Her muse and entertainer. That is what i am lucky enough to be and what i want for 2022 and for decades to come. i am lucky, so lucky, to have met Her, to have been trained and developed by Her and to get to share my life with Her.. Most of all, i am excited, excited at the prospect of the year ahead, another year spent with Her. 

Thank you Owner for showing me that dreams really can come true.

Hot Bottom (Clit & Nipples) for a Hot Wife & Slut

This advent really has been great fun. Owner has pushed and challenged me in a number of ways, making me endure more pain and also to humiliate myself even further. It has been wonderful and i hope Owner continues to push me further in 2022.

Sadly, all good things must come to an end and that is true of advent. Today's advent box was the last i opened. But, what a good one it turned out to be. It started with me being clamped and caned and ended with me dancing like a slutty nutter in the park, whilst Owner filmed me.

But, first to re-wind. After i awoke and prepared breakfast for us both Owner presented me with the last of my special advent boxes to open. i was all fingers and thumbs as i opened the lid and read the instruction inside. In return for receiving a special gift that i was to wear to the local park and make a Tik tok video about i was first to endure quite a painful caning. Not only was i to receive 300 (three hundred!) strokes from Her thick cane i was to also have my nipples and caged clit clamped at the same time.

We had an engineer coming around this morning to service our aircon so Owner instructed me that i was to receive my caning before i started work (and before the engineer arrived). After showering and doing my makeup i presented myself to Owner. She attached the new nipple clamps to my tits (a four screw design that also looks super pretty) and then had me attach twenty mini pegs to my caged clit. Suitably prepared it was time for me to present myself for caning.

Red hot bot

Nipples and clit clamped and prepped ahead of my caning

The first one hundred strokes didn't feel too bad, but at the two hundred mark my bottom and the back of my thighs were really starting to sting and there were genuine tears in my eyes by the time the last of the three hundred strokes had landed. There was once a time when Owner would hold back, fearful of hurting me, not any more. She is now, quite rightly, of the opinion that, as Her slut and wife, i should be expected to endure pain and discomfort and that my pain threshold should be tested to increase my ability to withstand it. Needless to say, by the time She had done with me my bottom was aflame.

 However, in return for such a beating i was presented with my gift. It was a wonderful little black bodycon type dress emblazoned with the legend 'Hot Wife Slut'. Such an appropriate dress! This was what i was to wear to the park a bit later on.

In the park in my 'Hot Wife Slut' dress

Before then, however, there was still the small matter of work and the aircon engineer to attend to. When he arrived Owner let him in but then left me to deal with him. i was wearing my collar with the little bell, a denim skirt, hold-ups, a pair of flats and a top, and my bottom was still burning, as i chatted away to the young man as he serviced our unit. It didn't take him long and soon he was on his way. 

The rest of the morning dragged a little as i got on with  some work until finally it was lunch and time to clock off for Xmas. After eating Owner accompanied me to the park where She recorded me in my 'Hot Wife Slut' dress. It was great fun and, as you can tell, i was quite excitable to be out showing off with Her.

But that is now advent officially over. i will do a separate post over the holidays with a link to the various items that Owner bought for me in case any readers are interested. In the meantime, all it leaves me to say is, on behalf of Owner and i, may we wish each and everyone one of you lovely people a very Merry Xmas and a Happy and Wonderful New Year.

i will be up early tomorrow preparing our Christnas lunch (i am doing slow-cooked lamb kleftiko) and at some point i am sure we will watch Owner's favourite seasonal movie, Die Hard. i may even be allowed a glass of wine, or two. Oh, and one last thing. i leave you with Owner and my favourite Christmas song

Merry Christmas!

An Advent Double Stuffing

Today is the penultimate day of Owner's advent surprises for me, but what a treat it proved to be. i opened the advent box with a degree of trepidation, wondering what might lay in store for me. It turned out to be a really wonderful and enjoyable surprise. Inside the box was the instruction that i was to deep-throat Owner's brown dildo whilst being simultaneously fucked by the very large tentacle dildo.

The tentacle dildo was my birthday present from Owner last year and it truly is a wonder. It clocks in at a nice and filling 12 inches long and 3+ inches in diameter and, for a size slut like me, is a real pleasure to have inside my pussy. Owner knows this and so its usage is limited, coming out only on occasions as a treat. It turns out today was one such day. 

After breakfast, showering and changing for work Owner soon had me on all fours on the sofa in the lounge. The dildo was positioned so that i could suck and fellate it like a hungry whore whilst She 'prepped' me with Her hand, lubing my pussy inside and out. She noted that i was already quite hot inside, which i was, hot and eager with anticipation as i continued to suck Her cock. After loosening me up a little with Her hand and teasing my caged clit by spanking my 'bits' Owner positioned the tentacle at the entrance of my sex and pushed it inside. It slid in easily.

It wasn't long until the whole tentacle was almost all the way in, filling and stretching my pussy most delightfully. i continued to bob up and down on the dildo with my mouth as Owner braced the base of the dildo against Her groin, grabbed my shoulders and fucked me, intermittently reaching down between my legs to spank my caged and throbbing clit. Every now and then She also pushed my head down further, forcing the dildo i was fellating deeper into my throat

Owner fucked me this way for a good five to ten minutes before withdrawing and instructing me to stop pleasuring the cock with my mouth and to clean and tidy up. It was an amazing way to start the day. i am left with a hot, loose pussy and a throbbing, very aroused clit. 

Than you Owner for a wonderful advent treat.

Here are some images from the morning

The amazing tentacle dildo

feasting on Owners' brown dildo

ready to be fucked

being fucked by Owner with the tentacle dildo

Advent Update - Public and Piss Drinking Slut

Owner continues to use this year's advent calendar challenges to push me further and require me to humiliate myself and demonstrate to Her what a slut i truly am. The past two days represent good examples of this.

This morning, before work, She took my bowl, pissed in it, then had me drain it. i drank up every last drop of Her delicious golden nectar and licked my bowl clean like a good little dirty slut.

preparing to drink Owner's piss from my bowl

slurping like a good slut

licking every last drop

Owner professed Herself to be delighted and remarked what a good idea She'd had and how much She loved living with someone who gets on their knees to drink Her pee. After i had finished Owner kindly presented me with a paper towel to dry my chin and nose, both of which were wet with piss

wiping piss from my chin and nose

Yesterday, saw another example of how Owner has used the advent challenges to push me further and have me show what a real slut i am, this time outdoors in our local (and busy) park. Her instructions were clear, i was to lick Her small pink dildo in the park for 2 minutes.

This proved a less than straightforward challenge to complete. It was a pleasant winter's day and, with many people now having finished work for Christmas and many events cancelled due to Omicron, the park was super busy with people. i wandered around wondering where i was going to be able to do my challenge without offending people out with children or walking their dogs.

i eventually found a bench in a more secluded area but even then i had to keep stopping and starting recording as i waited for people to pass me by. Nevertheless, despite the interruptions i was able to successfully record two minutes footage of me acquainting myself with Owner's small pink dildo. Here's a short clip (the full video is too long to upload to blogger)

i have to say, i really am enjoying this advent set of challenges and tasks set by Owner. She has been pushing me further and i hope She continues to do so even when it comes to an end, as sadly it must, in a few days time. i do love being treated like a real slut by Her.

Jingle Bell

 Jingle bell, jingle bell

Poppet's bum's on fire

A pretty collar for 300 strokes

Today's advent required

Well, today's advent was a wonderfully memorable one in more ways than one. The instruction from Owner read that, in return for 300 strokes from Her thin cane, i would receive a present. Well, shortly before i started work i presented myself to Owner who swiftly set about administering an intense caning to my buttocks and the backs of my thighs. The thin cane can really sting and i can definitely confirm that i felt every one of the three hundred strokes administered (and can still feel nine hours later). 

However, the pain (and it did hurt) was worth it as i was rewarded with the most wonderful advent gift, a delightful pink leather collar with a sliver bell that tinkles as i walk, alerting Owner to my presence. It is wonderful and i intend to wear it at all times, except when i am at work or seeing relatives. You can see what it looks like on me below together with what my bum looked like after the caning it received

me and my wonderful new pink collar with bell

 

My bum and back of thighs after 300 strokes from Owners' thin cane

Ball Busting, Lip Smacking, Humiliating Advent Fun

The daily joy that is the advent calendar Owner created especially for me continues apace. Each day reveals a unique new task or challenge for me to complete, and with it a lot of fun - even if sometimes this is painful fun. Take Friday, for example. The instruction i received upon opening the day's advent box was to be spanked 100 times on my caged clit with Owner's hard metal punishment device. The solid metal ball at the end of the metal shaft leaves quite an impression when it impacts against my most sensitive of bits. It's use required that i first be secured in the yoke so that i did not kick out when Owner started to strike me. It was a painfully uncomfortable experience. Here i am, trying to crack a smile at the end of it

Me after my bits were struck 100 times by the metal device

However, in return for being beaten this way Owner presented me with a lovely advent gift, a little fluffy butt plug complete with its own pretty bow. Isn't it just so cute and adorable

Then yesterday i travelled down to see my Mum (Owner had contracted my cold so did not come with me). Before leaving i opened that day's advent instruction. It was a particularly appropriate one. i was instructed to make a short Tiktok video of me applying lipstick in public. i made the video on the journey back, and yes, there were others present in the carriage who could see me applying the lipstick.

Sadly, i had to put my facemask back on after making the video.

Today's advent challenge was an even more interesting one. After first imbibing my weekend glass of Her urine, Owner instructed me to open today's advent box. The instruction inside was that i was to walk around our neighbourhood wearing a pair of Owner's knickers on my head as a beret. Could i do it? Could i be humiliated in public like this? Erm....yes. There were actually quite a few people out and about and i was also passed by a bus during my loop. But, i did complete the challenge, even though i seem to have forgotten to smile in some of the following pictures!

Just after Owner fixed Her used knickers in position on my head

Looking like a Babushka with the used panties hat!

Forgetting to smile for the nice Mercedes driver as it passed by

i have a feeling that there may still be some more outdoor challenges coming my way before this years' advent is done.

It should never happen to a pet - an occasional series

Sometimes things go wrong, occasionally hilariously so, this morning witnessed one such an occasion. i had got up and ready to start my working day and suggested to Owner that perhaps i should complete the advent calendar task i had been set for the day? The task involved me fucking myself with the large brown dildo. Owner agreed and so i removed my skirt and knickers and positioned myself on the easy chair in the lounge to do as instructed.

At this point i should say something about the chair. It is similar to a rocking chair but isn't actually a full rocking chair. We bought it from Ikea years ago and, although it is in our lounge, only gets used very occasionally. Suffice to say the chair does 'rock' a little.

Anyway, back to the tale. i placed a towel down on top of the chair and then sat down, pulled my ankles up towards me and proceeded to fuck myself in my 'pussy' as per Owners' advent instruction. To get easier access i wriggled my bum right to the very edge of the seat. It seemed to be pretty plain sailing, the dildo slipped in easily and Owner took a few pictures...and then it happened.

One minute i was merrily bouncing about on the seat, sliding the dildo in and out of my hungry hole and the next instant the chair flipped and i found myself dumped without ceremony on the floor, chair somehow now on top of me, with the dildo still inside me. It must have looked quite a sight! Owner was initially concerned that i had hurt myself but, after establishing that i was, in fact, quite alright, burst out laughing.

So anyway, that was what happened to me this morning, i managed to somehow flip a chair i was sitting on whilst i was fucking myself in the arse so that i ended up on the floor with the chair on-op of me but with the dildo still inside me - quite the stunt. Here i am just before the little 'accident'.

21    z

In other news. Today was the day that i rolled the chastity dice Owner created for me. The result was that i am to remain locked in permanent chastity for the next 3 months with the dice rolled again on the 16th March 2022. Owner also advised that, as i am doing daily advent tasks/challenges, there was no need for me to complete an outdoor challenge today as i would normally have to do on the 16th of each month.

Frozen, Clamped, Spanked, Objectified and Silenced Secretary

One thing that i have noticed about the advent calendar tasks and challenges set by Owner is that She is introducing new elements to Her domination of me and upping the ante in terms of my ability to endure pain and discomfort. In short, She is further stretching and developing me, something both of us recognise as being a good thing. Take the past few days, for example.

Yesterday, my advent calendar instruction was to attach twenty mini pegs to my caged clit and to keep them attached for thirty minutes. i can tell you that by minute 28 and 29 i could most definitely feel each and every one of those mini pegs biting hard into my most sensitive skin. It was perhaps one of the few occasions when removing the pegs was no more painful an exercise than continuing to have them bite into my flesh. My bits felt ablaze by the time the period was up. i am just lucky that there were not more of them or that Owner did not require that i wear them for longer. 

Clitty with clamps attached

 

The state of my clitty after the clamps were removed

In return for completing this advent activity i received this wonderful set of nipple clamps - aren't they pretty

My new nipple clamps

The day before, Owner had me do something that She has never had me do before, namely to act as a human side-table for Her. Kneeling on all fours next to where She rested on the sofa She used my back as a convenient piece of furniture on which to keep Her mug of tea. i stayed like that until She had finished. Unlike me, Owner is not a fast tea drinker (She insists that i must have an asbestos mouth). It was quite a novel experience. i succeeded in staying still and not causing the tea to spill. It will be interesting to see whether Owner incorporates my body into the household furniture on a more regular basis in the future.

poppet the human side table

Keeping Owner's tea balance

Owner also re-visited the use of ice. Ice is something She has used before, albeit on an infrequent basis. This time was on Sunday, whilst i was still unlocked from my chastity cage for the weekend. She had me place two ice cubes on my clit and keep them there until both had melted. She then beat said clit fifty times with a wooden spoon. Beating my clit in this manner is something i know She definitely enjoys doing. i was pleased in that i was able to 'enjoy' it without Her needing to physically secure me to prevent me from writhing about as i can be prone to.

Ice cubes ready

'Freezing' my clitty

Being spanked with the wooden spoon

Today, Owner's advent instruction is that i remain gagged and silent all day apart from during work meetings. i am lucky in that i actually have quite a number of such meetings during the day. However, once again it is an example of Owner introducing a more stringent element of physical control over me, and one that i really welcome and know i will benefit from.

Gagged

And drooling

And finally, Owner also asked me to make a second Tik-Tok video about what a sexy secretary should wear. This was the resulting attempt. As you can see i still have a lot to learn!

Doctor Deepthroat's Misdiagnosis

Readers' may or may not know that, although i am a doctor (in that i have a doctorate) i am not a medical one - as will become all too apparent as you read on. i have previously worked in hospital environments but the closest i have ever been to having any level of medical training or competency is the fact that i was once a qualified first aider (now lapsed) and during my time spent in the army reserves (and i imagine the idea of me with a gun, and it was a VERY big gun, may not be something you may have expected of me) i was taught how to use and administer morphine.

In short, i have little/no medical knowledge. That did not, however, stop me from confidently concluding that the cause of the very sore throat i woke up with on Friday was nothing to do with the fact that i might be coming down with something and instead was everything to do with the fact that i had been deep-throating a dildo for ten minutes the night before. i had been practising sucking cock, therefore, my throat was sore. Seemed a logical enough explanation to me.

Fast forward 24 hours to yesterday and my throat was still sore but i was also feeling generally a 'bit shit'. Owner and i were due to travel down to see my mother the following day (today - sunday) and the thought dawned that maybe, just maybe i was ill and maybe i ought to take a covid test. Owner and i have both been triple vaccinated, but hey, it is still possible to catch and so yesterday saw us both load-up on some lateral flow tests to take when we got back home.

Well, the good news is that neither of us had covid. The less good news was that i felt increasingly shit. Our conclusion was that i had a bad cold. Owner immediately informed me that i was excused from my duties for the day and that we should spend the rest of the day relaxing and watching a movie, which is exactly what we did. We watched Raw which is a great film about love, relationships...oh and eating human flesh. Do check it out.

Today, i awoke feeling even more shit than yesterday. Owner made breakfast and announced that i was to take the day off and that She would do lunch etc and that i was to go back to bed, which i duly did but not before imbibing a medicinal glass of Her urine that She had especially provided for me. A rich, cloudy batch it was full of Her wonderful aroma and taste - not to mention a cocktail of trace elements, hormones and general all around goodness. Just what the doctor ordered (and no, Owner is not a doctor either). i swallowed it straight down the hatch like a good gurl.

me and my 'medication'

Fast forward a few hours and i have finally showered and dressed for the day. i am starting to feel a little horny again and am caressing my nipples in between typing - which is a good sign, my usual slutty self is returning.

During my brief period of ill health Owner allowed me to still open my advent instructions but told me that She did not expect me to undertake them until i was feeling better. As a result, i have not yet had my clitty chilled with ice cubes before having it spanked hard with a wooden spoon, nor have i been made to kneel on all fours as a human side table for Owner to rest Her tea on. Hopefully i might be able to do both later today in order that i might start the next week without a backlog of tasks to complete

Advent Suffering (and fun)

Each day reveals a new task or challenge for me to complete as part of Owner's 2021 advent calendar. The past few days have seen some more physically demanding/uncomfortable challenges, which as Owner has been swift to point out, are good for my development. For example, earlier in the week i was instructed to stand still and hold three books in each hand over my head. This morning, as i type this ahead of starting work, i am wearing nipple clamps for an hour - this in return for a small gift that i will be presented with if i successfully complete my nipple clamp wearing task - which i fully intend to even though after just 15 minutes my teats are already rather 'warm'.

Nipples clamped - they stayed clamped for an hour

standing holding books in the air for 20 minutes

UPDATE - the small gift turned out to be a wonderful pair of purple paddle-shaped earrings emblazoned with the word 'SLUT' - which i wore accompanying Owner to the supermarket at the end of the day.

my purple 'SLUT' earrings

However, it has not all been hard, physical challenges, there have also been some pleasurable ones. i had to go to an overnight work meeting at the start of the week. Owner knew this and so cunningly devised an advent calendar challenge for me to complete on the train during my journey to the venue. The challenge was to play with my nipples. i was travelling with a work colleague and so, shortly after our train left London for the midlands i made my excuses and headed to the toilet to play with my breasts. This is the little video i made as proof for Owner. It would have been fun to try and do this at my seat, but, with a colleague sitting opposite me that was an impossibility.

The day i returned from my trip i received a new advent calendar instruction, which was to fuck myself with Owner's silver dildo and then last night i completed another advent task which was to deep throat my double ended training dildo for ten minutes.

enjoying Owners' silver dildo

drooling on the 12 inch double-ended dildo

So, as you can see, this week's advent has been a mixture of pain, discomfort and pleasure - with i suspect more of the former to come.

Incidentally, talking of pain, discomfort and pleasure Owner was researching some potential presents for me for my birthday next year. She showed me some of the items She was considering. One is a chastity cage (3-D printed) with a built-in remote controlled electric zapping device that sends either a painful or pleasant electric shock straight into your dangling bits. The item in question is available in Etsy and there is a picture of it below

click image to product page

Owner and my question is this, do any readers have experience of this (or similar) products? i was unsure whether it would be wearable (because of the electro pack) if wearing trousers and that the electro pack might keep rubbing against my thighs. But, Owner definitely likes the idea of a device that can deliver me a shock to my clitty that She can control and operate remotely. If anyone has experience of it both Owner and i would be delighted to hear.

So, that is it from me for now. i am excited about what the next advent calendar surprises might be.

The Red, Red Bottom Goes Bob, Bob Bobbing...

In case any readers were worried that the onset of advent might mean that i was no longer getting my bottom warmed up at the hands of Owners cane/paddle/swat/flogger (insert instrument of choice) i am pleased to say that She incorporated it into the advent calendar 'surprises'. This morning, when i opened today's advent box there was both a message and a small, wrapped gift inside. The message read that i was only allowed to open the gift if i first had my backside spanked eighty times with Owners heavy wooden paddle. So, of course that is what happened next

me and my rosy cheeks!

Paddling duly administered i was free to open my gift, a beautiful hair clip with the word 'SEXY' emblazoned in wonderfully, sparkly and blingy letters. i have a feeling, a hunch call it, that i may be having to wear this pretty hairclip somewhere public in the not too distant. In the meantime, this is me modelling the clip at home

what a big nose it looks like i have!

i love our little bit of advent fun, it is something exciting to wake up to every day.

Tik Tok Tickle Suck & Glug

Well, advent continues apace and with it each new day reveals a fresh treat or challenge for me to undertake. The past few days has seen me set a variety of daily tasks upon opening each days advent box. Every box contains a hand-written instruction from Owner inside. 

Thursday saw me instructed to deepthroat Her silver dildo in the evening after work. Then on Friday my advent treat was to be tied up on the bed and to be tickled without mercy. My being tied up was really just a health and safety precaution, to ensure that i did not accidentally kick or strike Owner as i thrashed about in a fit of giggles as She tickled me to death. Then today (Saturday) i was told to make a Tik Tok video showing my favourite bra. Quite a variety of different advent instructions and many, many more still to come. It promises to be a fun run up to Christmas. 

You can see how i got on with each of these advent tasks below. The first picture, the one of me bound to the bed, was taken just after i had finished work and before i had changed into my evening 'domestic uniform'. i actually quite like the picture. To me it looks like a still from some cheesy bondage flic as i lie helpless, waiting to be ravaged - or in this case tickled until i nearly wet myself!

Tied to the bed and ready to be tickled mercilessly

Sucking on Owner's silver dildo

The above video was my first ever attempt at creating a video on Tik Tok, there are lots of fun affects to play with - i think i may have overdone them a little on this one.

Finally, this being a Saturday my day also started with another delicious glass of Owners' finest. Bottoms up everybody

Down the hatch!

i can't wait to see what instructions the next advent boxes contain within them!

Advent

Today marks the start of advent and for me it saw the opening of the first of the advent 'boxes' that Owner has created for me. Each box contains an instruction from Owner that i must follow. Today's instruction, kicking off the 24 day advent period, was that i must attend an online work meeting naked from the waist down. It was a fun one to complete, little were my colleagues to know that, just out of sight, i was sitting there wearing just my chastity device under my blouse. i will be opening a new box each day up until the 24th December. It promises to be a fun month.

Owner also has Her own advent calendar's - a chocolate one and another that i created, so it is not just me that has something to open each day at breakfast.

Owners' advent calendars and my advent box for the day

The instructions inside my advent box

me completing my day 1 advent challenge

In other news, i ended up having a slightly unusual doorstep conversation yesterday. i had ordered a grocer delivery and when it duly arrived i trotted downstairs to take in the boxes of groceries from the delivery driver. i was dressed as i usually am during the day i.e. stockings, skirt, bra, blouse and shoes. The delivery drivers usually tend to be men but last night it was a woman. As soon as she saw me she complimented me on my skirt and we struck up a brief conversation about skirts. Nothing remarkable perhaps about that but it is the first time i have chatted away to a stranger about skirts whilst wearing one.

Meanwhile, my performance rating continue to be quite good. i have received a 5* rating for the past nine days on the trot - writing this probably means i have now sunk my chance of making it ten days in a row.

Anyway, back to advent. Do any other readers have fun traditions or activities that you get up over the Xmas period?